Friday, March 31, 2023

Incoming Gush Fest

Est. Read Time: 15min

Hello again, peeps! Phew! I JUUUUUUST barely made my "one blog post per month" deadline, huh? Funny thing is, I had started working on this post back around the 13th or something like that. Had most of it written by St. Patrick's Day. I just needed to finish up my thought, then edit, and then I'd be good and golden to publish.

And yet, here it is, the last day of the month, and I'm only publishing this post NOW. Like, what happened to March!? What happened to February, even? Both months just flew by for me. I'm still reeling a bit.

I know that I'm definitely now an Adult(TM) by the fact that I can't seem to keep track of time anymore. It all just zips by me. As a kid, days would crawl on, and I could do a hundred things between waking and going to bed. Now? I'm lucky if I check three things off my To Do list before passing out.

Case and point: this blog. I never did get back to recapping more of the Scum and Villainy sessions before the end of February. And now it's keeping me over TWO WEEKS to get a post finished! I'm still struggling to find writing time outside of work, and so I end up reconciling myself to slowly chipping away at a post whenever I can while at work.

It is so frustrating that I'm still battling with prioritizing my writing like this. I just have too much on my plate and not enough time in the day to chew through it all. The irony is that this post was all about me not having time to write, how I didn't work on any writing (outside of this blog) since mid-December, but also how I was going to re-prioritize now that I'm trying to get my writing mojo back.

...And then it kept me an extra two weeks to finish said post.

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my left shoulder. I have my right hand tucked behind my head and an apologetic look on my face: upturned eyebrows and a sorrowful smile. I'm wearing a blue shirt with 'I Can't Even' written on it in yellow letters. The shirt is covered up by the word 'oops' written in large green letters and superimposed over the cartoon me.
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The even bigger irony is that I now have to basically start from scratch because... well... within those two weeks that this post was delayed... I WROTE SOMETHING!

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my left shoulder. The image is an extreme close-up on my face, so much so that not even my full head is visible. My eyes are extremely wide open, and my mouth is in a shocked 'o' shape, as if gasping. Superimposed over the top of my head - from about the hairline up - is the word 'WHOA'. The word is in large blocky letters with a galaxy filling in the lettering.
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Yeah!

I'll circle back to that though.

First, you might have noticed that I'm not writing in my normal font of Coming Soon. No, I didn't get an answer from my readers as to which font worked best for you guys. So, instead of dragging out a question that might not ever get answered, I decided to be a bit more pro-active. I'm taking the "finalists" of Indie Flower, Josefin Sans, Kalam, and Mali, and dedicating a post to each font. I'll then go back and see how I feel about an entire post in that font as opposed to Coming Soon. I'll decide from there which to ditch and which I might use permanently. You are of course still more than welcome to comment below on which font you find easiest to read or which font you think still has that unique "handwritten" aesthetic while being a touch more professional looking (bring this blog out of the early 00s and into the 2020s), and the like.

This month, I'm starting with Josefin Sans. I was going to start with Indie Flower, but, after going back through this post while it is in that font, I instantly cut it from the running. Sorry for those who liked the look of Indie Flower, but it definitely felt harder for me to read once it's in a longer format. At least that cuts our possible fonts down to just four.

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my right shoulder. I'm wearing a blue shirt with 'I Can't Even' written on it in yellow letters. I'm giving a thumbs up with my right hand and smiling. The lower half of my body is hidden behind a large green check-mark.
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Okay! That bit of house keeping taken care of, let's get back to me actually writing something!

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my left shoulder. I'm wearing a yellow zip-up hoodie open over a plain blue t-shirt. Only my shoulders up is visible. The rest of the image is the word 'WOOT!' written in bubbly glowing pink letters. Confetti is spraying out from the word. My arms are raised victoriously and my mouth is puckered as if I'm saying the word 'woot'.
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Back around Valentine's Day this year, my husband had introduced me to the song "Siren" by April Fooze; the NoPixel character of streamer Fuslie. I've been obsessed with this song for the past month.

Fast forward a couple of weeks to the start of March. The artist Ceejles posted some fanart she did of Yor and Loid from the anime SpyxFamily. I instantly fell in love with the impassioned - but drunk - kiss in the opening three panels of the fan comic. I even downloaded it onto my phone to use as my wallpaper.

Then, on Monday, March 20 - the first day of spring in the northern hemisphere - it was like the perfect storm hit. I was listening to "Siren" yet again when I looked down at my phone; seeing Ceejles' fanart of Loid and Yor. Loid being a chiseled blonde, and Yor being a more petite - but still fierce - woman with black hair made me picture them instead as adult versions of Adrien and Marinette. In fact, that's one of the reasons I got into SpyxFamily in the first place. I had seen a bunch of fanart for the show, and kept thinking artists were creating aged-up fanart for Miraculous Ladybug. I was very confused over on Tumblr for a couple of weeks last year.

Anyway, picturing Ceejles' scene with Marinette and Adrien instead of Yor and Loid, and adding in the sultry song "Siren"? A scene instantly started playing out in my head.

I had a rare Monday off, and so I was home. Hubby was at work, which meant I was alone for some uninterrupted Me Time. I had my laptop open anyway in an attempt to iron out the last of what I needed for our Scum and Villainy session that night. As I sat in front of my computer and the Adrienette scene continued to play out in my head I literally told myself - as in, I said it out loud - "You idiot. WRITE IT DOWN! What's stopping you? Why is this not your default? Why are you only writing it mentally? Get it out of your head! Do it!"

And so, I did.

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my left shoulder. I'm wearing a blue tshirt with 'I CAN'T EVEN' written across the front in yellow lettering. My eyes are closed and my mouth wide open in a smile, as if I'm happily shouting. My body from the waist up is visible, and my arms are raised victoriously. Nine cartoony stars zip by from behind me. They vary in color between yellow, orange, pink, and blue. All of them have simple faces: just mouth and eyes. More blue, pink, orange, and yellow decorative stars - simple in design; no faces - speckle the background.
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I put "Siren" on loop and had Ceejles' picture up on my phone to help keep me in the right mindset. My Muse decided to pay me an unexpected visit, and, by gum, I was going to follow her anywhere!

I'm clearly a bit rusty after going roughly 3 months without writing fiction. I started writing around 2:30/3:00 in the afternoon. Hubby telling me he was done with work and ready for a pick-up came unexpectedly fast at 4pm. I still had to finish the story, but I also had to work on preparing for Scum and Villainy that night. I was a little bummed to be interrupted after all, and upset that a relatively short scene - for me, at least - was taking over an hour to write. Defeated, I went to get my husband and mentally switch gears.

Then, in a weird twist of fate, the Perfect Storm continued. As Hubby and I got home our landlady informed us that the maintenance guy would be able to work on replacing our busted kitchen overhead light that evening. We had been struggling with this light for at least a year. Sometimes it would work. Other times it wouldn't at all. Others still, it would work but then almost instantly start strobing on us. The landlady thought it was because the bulbs were burnt out, so she tried to switch them out. It worked for a little while before it started again. Then she had to wait for the maintenance guy - who does building maintenance for her as a secondary job - to be able to check the light to see what the problem was. Then she had to wait for a replacement light fixture to be in stock.... it's been a bit of a saga. So I wasn't about to tell her, "actually, we're having people over tonight. Can we reschedule?" because I wasn't sure how much of a delay there would be before the maintenance guy would be available again.

Sadly, this meant having to cancel the Scum and Villainy session because having people over while the maintenance man was in our kitchen felt like a bit much. Especially if he needed to ask us questions or have us help him somehow while he was switching out our light. On the plus side, however, this meant more time for me to write!

It also turned out to be a good thing that we cancelled game since the maintenance man had to turn off the power to the whole apartment, not just the kitchen. While it would have been a bit of a headache to have lost the power with everyone over, I was able to use the time to continue writing thanks to the battery of my laptop and the sunlight that was still coming through the windows. Yay, having a bright, clear, sunny day for the start of spring! And yay that the sun didn't set until closer to 7pm! By then my story was finally done!

It had kept me another two hours - between roughly 5pm and 7pm - to finish writing this "short" scene! About three hours total to write under 1500 words. Sheesh. I know that might be fast for most people, but for me? It's painfully slow.

I also didn't really have much time with my husband between him being at work and me isolating to write. So that sucked. It then took me over an hour to format, publish, and promote the story in my normal 4 sites. Hubby and I didn't have dinner until almost 9pm (we typically eat between 6 and 7). I only really interacted with my husband for three or four hours that day. For people who still genuinely enjoy their spouse's company, that was rough, and I missed him terribly despite being in the same house as him for 4hrs of our time "apart."

But, in the end, the story was complete! It was edited. It was published. I had done it! The first bit of fiction that I've published this year!

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my left shoulder. I'm wearing a blue tshirt with the words 'I CAN'T EVEN' written across the front in yellow lettering. My body is visible from the knees up. I'm flexing my shoulders and arms, meeting my fists down by my hips. I appear to be shouting encouragingly. A yellow solar flare surrounds me like an aura. The words 'LET'S GOOOOO!' are written along the bottom of the image; cutting off the lower half of my legs. The word 'LET'S' is in blue font and curls around the top of the G in 'GOOOOO!'. The actual word 'GOOOOO!' is in yellow and orange lettering, starting with G in yellow, the 1st O in orange, the 2nd O in yellow, and continuing to alternate throughout the word. The word 'GOOOOO!' is also off-set, with one letter higher than the other and the next letter lower, to give it a sort of bouncing appearance.
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Tell Me You Want Me When You're Sober

Summary: While at Alya and Nino's house-warming party, Marinette wandered off to take a breather. Noticing her vanishing act, Adrien went to look for her. Hidden away in the guest bedroom being used as a coat-check room, the two take a moment to themselves. The fun little intimate moment between friends becomes more intimate than either of them anticipated.

Rating: Teen for mildly suggestive elements

Word Count: 1450

• On ArchiveOfOurOwn           • On FanFiction
• On DeviantArt           • On Tumblr

The story has been up for over a week, and the reception it has received has me in tears in the best way. I don't know what it is about this story that particularly resonated with people, but I've been getting so SO much love and praise. Maybe it's because it's the 7th-shortest story I've ever published on AO3 (out of 48 total), and the 5th-shortest ML fic (out of 30). Maybe that's the overall readership hook that I've been missing: a short story to capture people and entice them to read more? Because that's what's been happening!

It started with AO3 user MeowMeowKissyKissy reading Tell Me You Want Me When You're Sober (TMYWMWYS), and then reading/commenting on Build Your Own Luck and then continued to ALSO read Rolling Thunder. Then, AO3 user dabnyfantown did the same thing. They started with TMYWMWYS, then moved on to read I'm Not Allowed to Love You, followed by Is It True?, and then followed AGAIN by Woven Heartstrings! Their last comment was on the first chapter of WH, so I'm not sure if that was the only chapter they had read at the time? Assuming that to be true, that's still 7800 words and 4 stories read - at least, in part - between something like 3:45pm and 5:10pm! A couple of days later, presumably after finishing Woven Heartstrings, they read and commented on I Was Thinking of You as well! They even told me they should have been sleeping but "needed" to read more of my content! Like... WHAT!? NEEDED!? Such high praise!

I was crying every time someone like MeowMeowKissyKissy or dabnyfantown commented on my stories. I was getting repeat readers! I was getting key smash comments and caps lock comments and a parade of exclamation points. These people were shouting at me how much they enjoyed my work!

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my left shoulder. I'm wearing a blue tshirt with the words 'I CAN'T EVEN' written across the front in yellow lettering. The words are covered up by my hands as they are both pressed against my chest, as if holding my heart. Only from my waist up is visible. I am smiling with my eyes closed. 22 cartoon hearts appear to be exploding out of me in an aura. They are either white - as if hollow - or they are dark pink or red. Some of the hearts have sparkles on them. The background has a pink hue.
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Then came another surprise that truly honored me.

At least within my curated circle of the fandom, the user SteelBlaidd is a fairly prominent member. Between May 2020 and March 2023, they have written 38 stories for Miraculous Ladybug! (Reminder that, comparatively, I have 30 stories for ML and I started publishing them 2 years before SteelBlaidd). I've seen them get so much love for their stories, and I also very VERY much enjoy them. This is a case, much like with EdenDaphne or MostLovedGirl or ZenMisery or Buggachat or Keyseeker, where I truly admire and respect this writer. Well, not only did SteelBlaidd leave kudos and a comment on my story - which alone was like "eeeeeeee" - but they also concluded their comment with, "I realized I had not subscribed to you. An oversight that has now been corrected."

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my left shoulder. I'm wearing a blue tshirt with the words 'I CAN'T EVEN' written across the front in yellow lettering. The lettering is hard to see since only from about my armpits up is visible. My head is tilted to the right and my mouth and eyes are open wide in shock. There is a cartoony calico cat to my left. It also has a shocked expression on its face and has its head tilted to the left. A joint speech bubble is above our heads. It is pink with white outline and contains three yellow exclamation marks that are so large they poke out of the top of the speech bubble.
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WHAT!? Excuse me. Did they call NOT subscribing to me "an oversight"!? ME!? MY work!? I was screaming. First, Keyseeker read and reviewed my story - which, she does quite frequently, and it still makes me giggle with glee each time - but then SteelBlaidd made sure to subscribe to me!?

Peeps, I was on Cloud Nine! After literal years of wondering about my writing and if it will ever get noticed, the reaction to my writing this past week has had me in TEARS with how amazing it's all felt.

Yes, yes. I hear all of you who have supported me through the years already screaming at me. You did remind me that my writing was good and that I was a skilled writer. You did inform me that it was almost a luck-of-the-draw sort of thing when it came to becoming recognized within a fandom; especially a large one. You had told me not to worry, and yet I did.

My insecurities and imposter syndrome got the better of me, and I apologize for not listening to your support; for not trusting you. Thank you for sticking with me and reassuring me the whole time anyway. You are all real ones.

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my left shoulder. I'm wearing a blue tshirt with the words 'I CAN'T EVEN' written across the front in yellow lettering. Only my upper chest and up is visible. I have my arms open wide and welcoming. There's a smile on my face. The word 'THANKS' is blocky and presented like a physical item. At least a dozen of these blocky 'THANKS' is piled up before me. They range in color from green to blue to purple to orange. A yellow 'THANKS' larger than the rest sits at the front of the pile.
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Anyway, SteelBlaidd proceeded to then comment on the story I had posted in December: Is He Loved? Is He Happy? Their comment made me cry all over again:

SteelBlaidd's icon online. It is a steel wolf head with its ears turned back and its mouth open viciously. There is a full moon on a deep blue backdrop behind the wolf head. SteelBlaidd: This is why I said it was a grave error on my part to not be subscribed to you.
I could have read this months ago!

This is a wonderful infill for the episode and the characters have lead you to marvelous places.

A "grave error" to not be subscribed to me? SteelBlaidd, you're killing me!

An animated gif. It is a scene from the Miraculous Ladybug episode 'Stormy Weather'. It shows Marinette fidgetting her fingers while looking past her left shoulder. She then abruptly raises her right hand to her cheek and extends her left arm in a dismissive wave, all while jumping to her right and closing her eyes bashfully.
Marinette from Miraculous Ladybug
in episode "Stormy Weather"

The reception has been so much more than what I shared above! This is probably one of my most interacted with stories in a while. Here's the Week 1 stats!

AO3: 661 hits, 79 kudos, 6 bookmarks, and 9 comments
FFN: 249 views, 8 faves, 4 follows, and 3 reviews
DA: 379 views, but no other engagement

Total Results: 1289 views, 87 kudos/faves, 10 bookmarks/follows, and 12 reviews! IN ONE WEEK!

Tumblr Notes: 26 total; 11 likes off my post, another 6 likes off Ladynoir AO3 Feed's post, 5 reblogs off my post, another 3 off LN AO3's post, and 1 comment on my post

AO3 Reviews:
  1. Awwww i love this!!!
  2. This was super cute
  3. Ah! That was just too sweet. Adrien is indeed a noble fellow [redacted due to possible spoilers]. Excellent writing!
  4. Oooh this is lovely. I’m glad that [redacted due to spoilers].
  5. Adrien is such a sweetheart! They're just too sweet together.
  6. That was wonderful!
  7. AHHHH i loved this i love [redacted due to possible spoilers] im so happy for them thank u for writing
  8. Sosososo well written I love a king that [redacted due to possible spoilers]
  9. This is our boy!
    Always a TRUE gentleman.
    This is our girl!
    Always an adorable disaster.

    I came to find this after seeing your response to the tumblr post on writing vs posting.
    I realized I had not subscribed to you. An oversight that has now been corrected.
Other Reviews:
  1. This is cute! I love this and I love that your muse took control for a while! Good job listening and letting her do her thing! Hehe
  2. so good! always happy when you grace us with an MLB fic!
  3. that was great!
  4. YOU WROTE SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m so happy for you!!!!!

Excuse me, but "grace us" with a fic? Someone (*cough*LivreVer*cough*) SCREAMING about how happy they are that I wrote something!?

Peeps! I can't! It's all too lovely! You are all so awesome. I love you all so much!

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my left shoulder. I'm wearing a blue tshirt with the words 'I CAN'T EVEN' written across the front in yellow lettering. Only my upper chest and up is visible, so the lettering on the shirt can't really be seen. I'm smiling with a single tear rolling down my left cheek. Above my head are the words 'I LOVE YOU' written in large, bubbly letters filled in with a yellow-to-blood-orange gradiant and small yellow dots; much like how old comic books were colored in. Covering up my shirt is the word 'GUYS' designed the same way as 'I LOVE YOU' except with a pink-to-lavendar gradiant. The full phrase 'I LOVE YOU GUYS' has a drop shadow.
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I will try to hold on REAL tight to all of this love, and remember to come back to this post the next time I doubt myself.

Now, this was where I originally talked about the other "writing" I was doing at the start of the month. Mostly, going back to Seduce with Caution to see if I could push through my block now that I've had four months to freshen up my eyes. I didn't actually write anything for it, but I did go back to thinking about it. I've also been creative with coming up with stuff for SaV, of course.

However, this post is already getting long with me gushing and throwing in about a dozen images. (Speaking of, if you haven't noticed, I did add alt-text to the images I posted today. I'm trying to put in more effort to be more inclusive, so please let me know if there's more I can do. Also, let me know if the alt-text doesn't work. I can't actually preview it before posting....) Anyway, the blog post that I had written earlier this month - which talked about me working on SaV and SwC - was roughly a 30min read all on its own. Add in the post you fine folks got instead? Yeah. Felt a bit much.

So all of that stuff was shifted to a new post draft. With any luck, I'll be able to polish and finish that one relatively quickly. And then you'll have your April blog post in just a week or two from today. Neat, right?

Cartoon version of me: white woman with red hair in a ponytail swept over my right shoulder. I'm wearing a tshirt. Only my shoulders and up are visible. I am in gray scale within a cartoony version of a 1960s rabbit-ear black-and-white TV. I am smiling and pointing above my head with my right hand. Written above me in large, white, blocky letters is 'Stay Tuned'. The words have a dropshadow and arch slightly across not only the TV screen, but parts of the TV itself.
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In the meantime, thank you all one last time for all of the love and support, both new and very old. You are all beautiful people and I love each and every last one of you to pieces. You truly help lift me up and keep me going. I just want to bear-hug each and every last one of you.

Okay! Enough gushing! I'm off to work on finishing up the job for the next SaV session on April 3rd. And also possibly publishing a new post in a week as well!

Small pixelated emoji version of me. It just shows my face - with a pink complexion - as well as my long red hair dangling behind my head; I don't have a neck or shoulders. I'm wearing a blue bandana across my forehead but under my right-sweeping bangs. My eyes are closed and arched happily. My mouth is in a large, toothy grin.

Tuesday, February 14, 2023

Will You Be My Valentine?

Est. Read Time: 30min


Happy Valentine's Day, friends!

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It's been a touch longer since my last post than I had intended. It's still very much February though, so I'm still sticking with my goal of at least one blog post per month. Can't be mad about that. It is Valentine's Day though, and how could I miss the opportunity to make my February post also a love letter to my fine readers.

So, may I ask for each and every one of you to collectively be my platonic valentines today? Because I want to share with you all of the love you've shown me over the years.

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You are all such amazing people, and I am always so pleasantly overwhelmed by the love my writing gets. I know I whine a lot about how my readership isn't as vast or active as the fanfic authors I idolize, or I lament my stories not getting spin-off fanfics or fanart or fan theories like big-name fanfics get. I do tend to be ungrateful as I fall into my self-doubt spirals. I am so sorry for that and for guilt-tripping any of you about how you love my stories. How you do so shouldn't matter. What should matter is that you DO love them and read them and support me. So, thank you. I love you. You make my writing worthwhile. Your likes and kudos and faves and bookmarks and comments and reblogs all bring huge smiles to my face. I recognize the repeat readers, and you remind me that my writing is good enough for someone to want to read more from me. I see the new names, and you remind me that my writing isn't as invisible as I believe. You are all beautiful people, and I wouldn't be as far along in my skill if it weren't for you.

I know that the adage (and the healthier option for participating in a hobby) is to do it for me; no one else. However, I used to write for me. I used to tell myself stories. I was content keeping them in my head (maybe take some physical notes to keep the details straight). It was rare that I would actually follow through with writing anything down for years and years and years. If no one else was reading it, why bother putting in the effort to write it when I could just create the stories in my head?

Then I got into fanfiction writing. I still wrote for myself; just to get the ideas out of my head. I never edited, though. First draft was final draft. Throw it up online. If people see it they see it, if not... well... I wrote it for me. Not the greatest mindset for trying to hone or improve one's skills though. And, without trying to improve and sharpen my skills, my desire to become a published author was little more than a pipe dream and wishful thinking living off the scraps of being told most of my life that I was a gifted writer.

Then I started writing for my readers. No, I wasn't writing stories simply because I thought it's what you want to read. In that regards I still write for me. I still tell stories I want to tell and stories I wish I could read myself; so I create them. The part about writing for you, my readers, is more about my motivation. See, my desire and drive to improve my writing stems from my want to put out better stories for my readers. I started editing, revising, and - gasp - PRE-PLANNING my stories so the end results are better for my readers. I feel guilty about not being as prolific a writer as others I follow within the fandom because I want to have more things for my readers to enjoy. I have this blog so I can connect with you and give you a heads up on how I am and where I am with my writing; so you're not wondering where I vanished to. I get excited about parts of my stories because I imagine how my readers will react once they reach those scenes. I refuse to delete anything (I instead cut it and paste it into a "scraps" file) because I imagine some of my readers being fellow authors, and being able to show them where the polished story started and how much I had to revise might be encouraging for them. I started posting those cut bits to Tumblr because I thought my readers would get a kick out of them. I want to tell you all about my Scum and Villainy campaign (which is coming later) because my stories don't feel alive unless others know about them; unless my readers can experience them as well. My stories have all become extroverted divas that need that spotlight to feel real and complete, and you fine folks are all that spotlight.

So, thank you, yet again, for considering what I write worth your (most likely) precious little time available. It means the world to me. You are all such beautiful people. I'm going to explode with love.

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Speaking of my writing, you probably noticed that I didn't update this blog to promote my latest Plagg Appreciation Day story. I also haven't promoted it yet within this post. You may have also noticed - if you follow me on Twitter, Tumblr, AO3, FFN, or DA - that you didn't get a notification alerting you about the latest Plagg Appreciation story.

Yep. You guessed it. That's because there wasn't one. I tried. I spent three days plotting and pondering and playing with ideas. The closest I got to a fleshed-out idea was something akin to The Adventures of Brainy where Plagg daydreams that, instead of absorbing into the Miraculous jewels in order to power up a human superhero, he and Tikki transform into human superheroes themselves. I couldn't quite get the concept ironed out in time for Friday, January 13 though. Maybe I'll get it sorted by the next Friday 13th in October. Maybe I'll think of something completely different.

If you have any plot bunny ideas for a Plagg-centric story, feel free to pitch them my way.

Anyway, as it crept closer and closer to January 13th, I, of course, got more and more anxious about my story. I was doing what I always do and beat myself up over the fact that I didn't have this story done. This was MY holiday that I created. How could *I* not meet my own deadline and participate in my own created fandom holiday????

Then the 13th hit, and I realized how much pressure I was piling onto myself. It was FANFICTION. It was something people would read FOR FREE. It was a MADE UP holiday. I was seemingly the only one who even celebrated it, seeing as how I have never seen anyone else post anything Plagg-centric specifically on a Friday 13th or tag anything Plagg Appreciation Day or tag me on any Plagg Appreciation Day posts (exception being LivreVer once or twice). It DIDN'T MATTER if I posted a story or not.

Ah, the dark side of "I write for my readers": I pressure myself to hit arbitrary deadlines and feel guilty when I don't hit them. As if I'm disappointing you guys. I know I'm not disappointing you all. I KNOW! I have to retrain myself to let that feeling go. I have to remind myself that my readers are all lovely and patient and are excited to read my writing, regardless of when or how frequently I publish.

So, on January 13th, when I still had no idea what even to write, I battled with myself for a bit, and then let it go. I waved the white flag and marked a second missed Plagg Appreciation Day.

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Most of January was spent dealing with headaches at work anyway. Headaches I'm STILL dealing with, actually, but I won't get into that. Point being the few times I wasn't dealing with work stuff I was recovering from said work stuff. My brain was fairly fried, and I didn't even think about fanfiction. The fact that I hadn't seen a new Miraculous Ladybug episode since November probably didn't help motivate me to write anything. Not having the energy to go on Tumblr and interact with the fandom didn't help much either.

Instead, I focused on Scum and Villainy. We were racing towards our grand return to the campaign on the 30th. I needed to be prepared for that.

And I was not prepared for that....

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I didn't have time to break away and listen back to the recorded sessions while I was home, and I had slacked off; waiting until January to even start listening back to them and taking down GM notes. I tried to listen to the sessions like podcasts, but I had to stop too many times to take notes, so it wasn't good background noise for doing house work or getting ready for work. I tried listening while at work, and I got the farthest in doing that, but... work headache stuff... I didn't have the down time I needed to go through everything.

Soooooo.... the last time I ran a RIP race that all of the players could participate in was August! Seemed like a good way to ease everyone (including myself) back into the campaign, as well as introduce new characters! Plus, no real plot-line needed since the plot-line would be introducing the new NPCs. Hubby was off that day, so he created the new RIP race machines and rolled up the NPC start positions for me. Then, when we played, everyone else rolled their start positions. I finished the last-minute set-up. We did some soft roleplay - which is the limited improv I can handle - and the race itself is mostly just me keeping track of where everyone is. I didn't even bother coming up with a cool track design. It wasn't needed. The track wasn't the point of the race that session. The new rivalries were.

The session was fun. It felt like a nice way to ease all of us back in. The following Monday - being the 1st Monday of the month - we had another session. This time I had most of a job sorted out for the group. Not as much as I would have liked (I like preparing for the weird off-beat things they tend to do so I'm less likely to have to think of things on the fly), but enough to fake my way through it.

Aaaaaand then Hubby came up with something during soft roleplay that ended up becoming a job all on its own. The whole session was basically unplanned, soft roleplay... and all improv on my part.

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It was all good. We finished up the impromptu side mission around 10:15pm. We try to finish by 11pm. Definitely not enough time to actually get to the job I had planned. I began to panic a little on what we'd do for the next 45min. Do we just call it early? Am I going to have to scramble to come up with another "short" mission for the crew to go on?

And then the characters Demarcus and Quinton had a long debate about power struggles and setting up allies and what is the best strategy for the group. I didn't really need to do much of anything for the better part of an hour. I just got to enjoy them debate each other. Eventually I interjected to let everyone know how late it was and we should sort out experience for the game. So... aside from the adlibbing I had to do for about two hours during that side mission - which was mostly character driven; I can do that easily enough - it was a fairly lowkey session for me.

I'm going to be spoiled by the time we do our next session on the 20th and I ACTUALLY run that job I had planned out.

Speaking of, let's do some "mini" recaps of what's been going on with the Stardancer crew to catch everyone up!

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Tada! Yeah, I realized that I never actually shared my edit of the Stardancer artwork to showcase how the crew had their ship painted! I was going to show the playgroup first and then you guys... except I never came back to update this blog. Whoops. Anyway, I'm back now. This is the chrome-black with neon-green accent lights paint job they picked out for the Stardancer. How does it look? I wish I could have added a bit more dimension to the black paint job to give it more of a chrome look as opposed to just a matte black, but I wasn't as happy with my other two attempts.

As far as the campaign "plot" for the Stardancer crew (who still hasn't come up with a crew name outside of that), they have started up some trouble while also somehow going under the Hegemony's radar. They've added crewmates and collected quite a few pets. They've made enemies and powerful allies. It feels like we just started our campaign, but, at the same time, they've already outgrown their ship! It's been a bit crazy.

When I last caught you folks up, it was the third session. They had a mandatory mission from the Borniko Syndicate to air an advertisement for the Echo Wave Riders as a way to patch up the rift the crew caused between the two factions. In the process of airing said message for the EWR, the crew caught the attention of infamous wizard-class hacker Vorex. Their ship was spotted by a patrolling 51st Legion spaceship, and that lead to the crew picking the above paint job for their ship to try to disguise it. They finished up with a RIP race on one of Warren's sister moons. Since then, the main "plot beats" have been:

  • Session 4 - Unfortunately, this was the first game where all three players couldn't attend. So I just sort of piloted tI'kæl so she was still there as the crew FINALLY delivered Ishi to The Cove. There they met Ishi's good friend Hunter Black, 4th in command of the Maelstrom Pirates. Hunter instantly took a liking to Demarcus, and I started the running gag of Hunter enthusiastically asking Demarcus and the Stardancer crew to join his crew/fleet. Demarcus always turns him down and counters that Hunter could join the Stardancers instead.
        Itching to fight someone, Demarcus signed up for a big open-call cage match on The Cove against famed Cove MMA fighter "The Prodigy". None of the 14 fighters that went before Demarcus lasted one round, and barely even winded the Prodigy, who was amped up with a bunch of mechanic limbs (a la the anime Megalobox, except they're actual artificial limbs as opposed to exoskeletons). Quinton was able to hack into the Prodigy's limbs (after Demarcus got pretty roughed up - including a sword through the left shoulder), and locked him into place so Demarcus could knock him out. Despite Quinton purposefully only freezing up the limbs for a few seconds at a time, people still suspected foul play. Thankfully, Quinton had called Hunter down to see if he wanted to place any bets on the fight, so he was fairly untouchable as Hunter escorted him over to the betting booth to collect their winnings.... which promptly broke the game economy since I wanted to showcase how intimidatingly tough The Prodigy was by making it something like 50 to 1 odds against Demarcus. Even with the players allowing me to retcon that down to about 10-1 odds, they walked away with an INSANE amount of money. Whoops!
  • Session 5 - Hunter's last pet Razor passed away 3 years ago and he's ready for a new one. He sends the crew to fetch him a leaguin; a leopard-penguin hybrid with four wings that lives on the beaches along the equator of the jungle planet Amerath.
        I was kind of thinking of the Otter-Penguins from Avatar: the Last Airbender, except leopard-spotted, with a leopard's head and fangs, and with leopard-claws at the end of their webbed feet.
        The crew rounded up about half of a leaguin colony, kept one each for themselves as pets, and sold the rest to Hunter, who kept two as his own pets (they are social animals, after all). Hunter has been breeding and selling the rest on the black market. The crew then started up a campaign to legalize domesticating leaguins and keeping them as pets, even without an exotic pet license.
        Leaguins are docile unless provoked, and then they become EXTREMELY aggressive. While trying to fend off the attacking leaguins and corral the rest to take to Hunter, Demarcus broke out his flame thrower. Only one leaguin - who was particularly aggressive - got burned. Demarcus was like, "I like this guy. He's as reckless as me," and decided to nurse and adopt that one. For obvious reasons, it was still aggressive towards him; biting him frequently. So that leaguin's name is now Nippy. Seeing as how Memish are basically "seafood" as far as leaguins are concerned, tI'kæl's pet also kept trying to bite her (as did most of the others, to be fair), so she named hers PIMA. Quinton named his pet Languin, in honor of his mentor. I never came up with names for Hunter's pair; I should do that....
  • Session 6 - Chaos Theory had another RIP race. This time through the gas planet of Vet. This is one of the first races I felt comfortable really letting the sport live up to its name. I had described the track as being windy, having a loop-the-loop, and having a gap the machines had to jump over. One of the racers ended up getting bumped off the track at that jump, and was lost in the debris making up the rings of the planet.
        Because the track seemed more suited for speed than brute force, Demarcus sat out. One of the team's rivals - Ice Heart from the Gravity Blades - had also stayed in the team bay because Demarcus had blown up his Machine - the Gremlin - the last race they did (the one after airing the EWR message; I forgot to come back to write about that last time). Quinton (as Poet) and tI'kæl (as Sanic) dominated the field, and was even humiliating Ice Heart's teammates AirJack and Bolt. Ice Heart was pissed and screaming at the screen projecting the race. Demarcus decided it would be a fun time to try to antagonize Ice Heart, and when that escalated into a scuffle, he slammed Ice Heart head-first into that screen, bending it around the guy's head and busting up his face pretty badly. As the race continued, AirJack's Machine The Victory blew up, and his escape pod was brought to the team bay. He got out of the pod right after Demarcus took out Ice Heart. AirJack tried to retaliate, managed to stab Demarcus in the side with a piece of busted plasma screen, and then Demarcus promptly shoved him head-first into his own escape pod; breaking his nose and taking out some teeth. With both main rivals now unconscious and bleeding in their team bay, Demarcus casually walked back to Chaos Theory's bay to finish watching the race. The third member of Gravity Blades made it to 3rd place, behind Sanic and Poet. The crew was impressed with Bolt's driving, her overall better (re: less cocky) attitude, and her attempts to keep the peace between her teammates and Chaos Theory. They offered her a spot on their team, but, after seeing her bloodied teammates and Demarcus proudly stating that it was his handiwork, she growled for Chaos Theory to walk away before things got ugly.
        Quinton made sure to save the plasma screen shard Demarcus took out of his side. Never know when they'll need something with AirJack's fingerprints on it.
  • Session 7 - Another session that Rozsavaria had to miss. Which meant, canonically, tI'kæl had something else to attend to, so she left the guys alone. This was also right around Christmas 2021, so I decided to go with something holiday themed: A Christmas Carol. (Technically, I also had a job that was very How The Grinch Stole Christmas, but the guys decided to save that for a session all players could attend). The money lender Benser Cee Grooze (of Grooze and Jybac Moneylending) is also a bail bondsman and bookie on Quinton's home "planet" (it's a colonized moon) of Warren, and Grooze decided it's "harvest time". He placed bounties on all who have defaulted on his loans (bounty was 5% of debt owed), and had forced his workers into mandatory overtime without additional pay. The workers - rallied behind their boss Bob Kranket - had gone on strike. Grooze had put bounties on his striking workers and Bob as well. The crew was asked by a third party to help stop Grooze any way they could. Quinton and Demarcus needed to take down one of the major bounty hunters going after Bob before getting more info on what was going on. They opted to create a massive bounty for Demarcus in order to get the hunter's attention. Interrogation went array, resulting in the hunter and something like 32 civilians dying in a fire??? They promptly took the bounty off of Demarcus, and then went to Grooze with an offer to sell his business to Quinton's friend and mentor Lucian Lang. Negotiations took a bit longer (and a bit more narcotics) than expected, but they got Grooze loopy enough to sign away his company under the guise of becoming a partner in a retirement cruise spaceship. Fearing that Grooze will fight the legality of the acquisition as soon as he's sober, Demarcus sniped him from his own building and planted the rifle and ammo on one of the scabs working during the strike. Bob was then made CEO of the company (with Lang as the silent owner), and he removed all of the bounties Grooze put out.
  • Session 8 - Back from her religious retreat, tI'kæl was mildly appalled by what the guys got up to without her, but at least it was for the greater-good in the long run (no more bounties on defaulted loans or striking employees; or a need to strike, for that matter). Having started up a strong acquaintanceship with Vorex since their meeting in session 3, Quinton received a job from her; a favor. She had discovered that the Counters Guild keeps extremely detailed records of all of their assets, but keeps a separate - but just as detailed - ledger of all their LIVING assets (such as Vorex's kidnapped sister). The ledger is closely guarded and constantly on the move to prevent people from getting to it. Vorex was able to figure out that the Guild was trying to move the ledger two star systems over (to Brekk) to a planet called Nightfall (so named because its 13 moons cause constant solar eclipses, casting the planet in "night" more frequently than "day"). The crew offered their services as "discreet couriers" to the shell company the Counters Guild used to move the ledger without people suspecting what the product actually was. They were given a caged Way Beast that resembled a blue, semi-translucent, ethereal tiger with twin tails wearing a collar. They were also informed that they had a strict timeframe to get the beast to Nightfall, and that they will be hunted down as thieves if they didn't reach their checkpoints in time for other members of this shell company to scan the beast's collar at the designated point. The crew quickly deduced that the collar contained the ledger, and - through Vorex's help - managed to create a way to clone the file from the collar so they could get that to her without stopping the ship (largely thanks to tI'kæl managing to Attune with the beast well enough that Demarcus could get the cloning device against its collar without being mauled). TI'kæl actually got so attached to the creature during her attunement that she wanted to keep it. Quinton had to remind her that the Counters Guild couldn't suspect any foul play, or all of the assets would be instantly moved, and the ledger would be scrubbed; failing their mission for Vorex. Despite some in-fighting among the crew, the actual smuggling job - both of the Way Beast to Nightfall and of the Ledger to Vorex - went off without a hitch. In fact, due to Hubby constantly rolling critical successes while piloting the Stardancer, they hit each checkpoint early.
        TI'kæl is now determined to track down where on Nightfall that Way tiger is so she could kidnap it and keep it as her pet.
  • Session 9 - Another RIP race session, this time on one of the 13 moons that orbit Nightfall. Demarcus got a wrist slap over his attack against the Gravity Blades. His punishment wasn't more severe mostly because the cameras did show that - while excessively aggressive - Demarcus WAS only defending himself. He's allowed to still participate in League races, but he is no longer allowed to remain in the team bays unsupervised; indefinitely. Alternatively, the entirety of the Gravity Blades was banned from that race as punishment (ignore that both AirJack and Ice Heart were still recovering and Bolt didn't do anything against Demarcus or Chaos Theory), and are also not allowed in the team bay AT ALL while a race is going on. If they wish to watch instead of participate, they must do so from the stands or via video off-site.
        Despite the reprimand over the fighting in the bay, Demarcus was also offered a new League opportunity. The RIP League has a club for pilots called The Basher Bonus Club. Invited members to the club are given a "punch card"; their membership card on which black dots, or "punches" shows up for successful slams, forced retirements, or caused explosions. Forced retirements/caused explosions count as two punches vs the one punch for a successful slam. When five punches accumulate on the card, a Volt (a race-specific form of currency used to repair or upgrade the RIP Machines) is added to the pilot's race earnings and the punches reset. Members must at least ATTEMPT a slam in each race, or they are removed from the club until they are invited back.
        Other than that, the race went off without much of a hitch. Some more explosions. Poet and Sanic again podiumed, but this time they were joined by Demarcus (as Doc).
  • Session 10 - This session I attempted to do something similar to the Fable games, and offer the same job, but on opposing sides. The mission centered around the Turner Society (the drug traffickers and drug den providers the Stardancers smuggled Vosian Crystals for in the first session) trying to take down their biggest competitor: high-end drug dealer Yon Lirak. He's actually a named NPC in the rulebook. His entry reads: "Runs a factory in Rost [on the planet Amerath] that never shuts down, producing synthetic narcotics for several major species. [He is] experienced, ruthless, [and] unforgiving" [pg 309 in the rule book]. The crew was given the option to either help the Turner Society take down Lirak's factory (run by slave labor) or help Lirak protect his factory from the sabotage.
        They still had that Grinch-themed job that was also on Amerath. That one had a researcher up on a mountain of Amerath requesting that someone stop the Dance of the Fairies festival that happens annually and disrupts the researcher's work for a solid month as the festival goes on in the valley below him. When the crew decided they'd prefer to help the Turner Society (in part because they were already friendly with them, in part because of the slave labor, and in part because Hubby decided Lirak was also a rival to Lang's drug empire), Quinton plotted that they could somehow frame the residents of the hamlet Hovayle who host the Dance of the Fairies festival, and the ruthless and unforgiving Lirak would come after them; affectively ending the festival.
        Quinton hacked the servers of Lirak's massive 30-story building and sent out a memo that the workers were allowed a two-day leave to participate in the Dance of the Fairies festival. Sixty-percent of the work force were able to leave and get onto shuttles that the Stardancers had set up before the rest of the facility went into lockdown and bounty hunters were sent to bring back the workers.
        Having another brilliant idea, Quinton had himself and Demarcus disguise themselves as AirJack and Ice Heart as they broke into the facility. TI'kæl randomly threw a disguise together and lucked into looking exactly like a flower shop owner from down the street. The trio made their way into the factory, hacked the system to make their way through the levels until they could get to where the drugs were actually being made (most of the building was living space for the slave laborers and guards, an on-site hospital, a brig, and packing facility). When they got to the brig, they found three people locked up. One was a big, burly guy foaming at the mouth trying to get at the guard on duty. Another was a frail fifteen-year-old who looked like he was pushing 90. And a third that looked like a string-bean of a man with a shark head. That was when I passed the floor to our newest player who introduced his shark-headed character as Fin and swore he had no clue why he was locked up. The crew let the trio out, assuming they were all falsely imprisoned by Lirak, and the burly guy instantly started beating the already unconscious guard to death. Having Fin scoop up the frail guy (named Chuck), the crew continued on through the facility. They got to the factory floor, and Quinton hacked into the system to steal the drug recipe, force a self-destruct flushing of the drugs already made, and destroyed all of the materials needed to make more. Sabotage complete, the group broke back out of the facility. Quinton made sure to escape via crashing through a window. He then left behind the shard AirJack had shanked Demarcus with to further frame the rival duo.
        After being rescued by the Stardancers, Fin revealed that his real name is Jet Ryle. He's a human, but he's also a gambling addict who isn't particularly good at the gambling bit. He has massive debt all throughout the Procyon Sector, and that was probably why Lirak had him locked up; to cash in on the hefty bounties on Jet. The shark head was also a result of the massive gambling debt he had accrued. One of his bookies offered to forgive his debt if he agreed to some medical experimentation. He happily accepted, got knocked out for surgery, and awoke in a back alley with a shark head instead of his own. Jet's player was inspired by this Sharkman character on the cover of the Gravity RIP rulebook.
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        Meanwhile, here's Chuck... he's just the old prisoner from Disney's The Hunchback of Notre Dame.
        Since sabotaging the factory (and unintentionally rescuing Jet) only took about 90min, they had time to still see to the Grinch-themed job. They split the crew; half would meet up with the researcher Hirg Chent and the other half would go to Hovayle to try to convince the town to not host the festival (or at least keep it down to not disrupt Chent's research). The Dance of the Faeries festival celebrates the annual solar eclipse on Amerath, which initiates the pollination season in that valley. The bioluminescent flowers and mushrooms release glowing spores that are collected by glowing insects; the whole cycle resembles what The Ancients (aka Earthlings) would describe as faeries or Will o' the Wisps. Hence the name of the festival. Since this is a nature-based event, it cannot be rescheduled, and it is the biggest influx of funds to the small hamlet, so the mayor refused to alter the festival at all. Meanwhile, tI'kæl had a great time talking about The Way with Chent, but couldn't convince him to do research somewhere else on Amerath while the festival was going on. Not finding a peaceful solution, and really wanting to take part in the festival themselves, the crew decided they're just murder hobos. They'll trick the researcher into thinking they stopped the festival, get paid for it, and then kill the researcher and transfer the rest of Chent's money to Ice Heart and AirJack to further frame them. The murdering-the-researcher bit went wrong as Chent's pet attacked to defend him. The pet is a domesticated wakeena: a wolf-like creature the size of a pony, has six legs, hyena-like spots, a prehensile tail, and 4 eyes. Chent named it Limainamilx, but called him Milx for short. In the scuffle, Chent's research and tablet/computer that would have been Quinton's access to Chent's bank account were all destroyed. In the end, the hobble Chent was living in was still standing and now vacant, so the crew left a mostly-recovered Chuck there before heading down to Hovayle.
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H'okay... even "abridged" these session recaps are LONG! I mean, the game sessions themselves average about 4hrs so... I think I'm doing pretty good at recapping. Either way, I think I should probably tag out with the introduction of Jet. Maybe I'll find time this month to do another post recapping more of the sessions in my attempt to catch you up with our game. At the very least, you are now caught up on nearly the full first year we've played. Jet was introduced in May, 2022. Also, with that being session #10, you know about half of the Stardancer saga, seeing as how we're going into session #23 this upcoming Monday.

So, to finish up, I'd like to address the elephant in the room (in the blog???). You have probably noticed that I'm still using the Coming Soon font this post. That's because I haven't really had much feedback with regards to the font options I gave everyone last post. Actually, I was offered a few other options to try out, which kind of hinders my ability to narrow things down to just one winning font. So I'm going to try this again.

The first font voted 'yes' on was Indie Flower. So here is a refresher on what Indie Flower looks like. THIS IS THE FONT IN ALL CAPS. This is the font italicized. This is it in bold. My concern with Indie Flower is that it feels like a smaller font. More condensed. Might be harder to read. I'm not sure though, so how does everyone feel about Indie Flower? Is this the keeper?

The second 'yes' vote was for Josefin Sans. Here's a refresher for Josefin Sans. THIS IS THE FONT IN ALL CAPS. This is the font italicized. This is it in bold. My concern about Josefin Sans is that it feels like a more generic font? It is definitely more print-friendly. Which might be a bonus and might be exactly why I should stick with it perminantly. On the flipside, I think I'd miss that "handwritten" feel of my blog's font. What are all of your thoughts on the matter? Do I go more professional, print-friendly and stick with Josefin Sans? Or do I keep the more unique (but definitely less-professional) hand-written look of some of these other options?

The first alternative option given was for Kalam. This is what Kalam looks like. THIS IS THE FONT IN ALL CAPS. This is the font italicized. This is it in bold. I do like the handwritten look to it. My concern is that it's SUUUUUPER spaced out. I feel like my already long posts will look unbearably epic in length if I go with this one. Plus, the italics are hard to notice since the font defaults at slightly-slanted. I'm not sure. What's everyone else's thoughts on Kalam? Should this be my new font for this blog?

Another suggested font was Mali. So this is what Mali looks like. THIS IS THE FONT IN ALL CAPS. This is the font italicized. This is it in bold.I don't mind this one. It's not too small or spaced out too much. Has the curviness of Indie Flower. The letters all seem distinct enough from each other, but I could do a quick double check on that: the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog. Seems good. My only concerns are that, compared to my current font of Coming Soon, this font doesn't have as much of a hand-written look as I'd like, and it feels larger. I'll have to drop the default font size down for sure, and I don't know if I can lock in a default font point because I've never set one before. Will this font end up with the same pitfall of Kalam? Namely, make my blog look even longer than it already is? I dunno. How does everyone else feel about this possibly being my blog's official font?

Along with Kalam and Mali, I was also suggested Patrick Hand (which looks like this) and Comic Neue (which looks like this). To be frank, I wasn't the biggest fan of either option. Comic Neue just didn't seem unique enough of a font and might as well be Comic Sans. In fact, it's supposed to be a "mature and professional" version of Comic Sans. Comic Neue also isn't much different from Coming Soon. Which begs the question: why bother switching?

As for Patrick Hand, the font felt TEENY, and I just wasn't the biggest fan of its over-all look. I do appreciate the research done to suggest these fonts though.

So, again, what does everyone think of the font choices? Stick with Coming Soon? Switch to Indie Flower? Go with Josefin Sans instead? Try out Kalam? Use Mali? Let me know in the comments section.

And, with that, I will leave you all, my wonderful valentines, to enjoy the rest of your Valentine's Day. Know that you are loved and cherished. Best to all of you! Until next time.

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