Wednesday, July 2, 2025

LycoRogue's Reading Corner: June 2025

Est. Read Time: 40min
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Yup. Not even going to dance around it. Not going to be cute about it. Just going to accept the fact that (a) June's LycoRogue's Reading Corner is BEYOND late, making June the first (and hopefully only) month where I missed both updates entirely, (b) I don't really have much to say, which is why this update is so late, (c) I have no clue if anyone even noticed that it was missing and/or if this would be missed if I didn't publish it at all, and (d) I am literally forcing myself to write this because of a promise I made to myself at the beginning of the year that I'm trying desperately to keep, and I'm already pissed off at myself that I DID entirely miss June. I'd be livid for days on end if I just foregone this update entirely.

All because this is still basically me:

Panel from Shut Up, Takamori!
by Kamiharu Haruno
Crude edit by LycoRogue

Same deal as when I talked about it in my end-of-month May update, so I won't rehash it here. I'm just so burnt out. I'm going to need that week-long vacation for my birthday in a couple of weeks.

The burnout not only sapped me of any motivation to write (both fiction and this month's blog updates), but it also drained me of virtually any passion for reading, with a few exceptions. Which means, instead of adding to my list, like I have been doing every previous month, I've actually lessened how much content I'm consuming. Which is another big reason for this update's delay.

I have nothing new to really tell everyone.

To demonstrate my point, instead of keeping it at the end of the update, as I normally do, I've decided to share my reading list right at the top. So, as of May, this was everything I was reading.

Stories, such as I Am The Villain and At Your Mercy concluded their seasons and are currently on hiatus. So there's two down. Others, such as Mythic Item Obtained and Writer's Legacy I haven't kept up with because I'm just not feeling action comics again. Even Ultimate Shut-in tends to be at the bottom of my list. That's one where I only seem to read it when I'm in the app already, have read the other things I wanted to read, still feel like reading, look at my backlog, and then go, "Oh yeah. I guess I can read more of this."

I'm just not really feeling the action stories right now...

Tangentially, there's Fantasy High which I'm very much still itching to read to see how the adaptation resembles the original DnD Actual Play. However, since we watched the series together, and Hubby was kinda-sorta reading over my shoulder when I started up Fantasy High on Webtoon, I now save that for when Hubby and I can read it together. Which has put us 3 weeks behind as of this writing.

On top of those stories that I've been neglecting, there's also Dark Water. After being on hiatus since before I even started reading it (May 9, 2024), it is FINALLY back! Except, it's been so long that I can't really remember where the story left off when it went on hiatus in the first place (especially because it wasn't a season finale and therefore a natural stopping point). So, I have to more-or-less reread the story from the beginning, and I didn't have the energy for that. Which means this story is also just kind of hovering in limbo.... Honestly? I'm perfectly fine with that. It looks like Dark Water might be an abandoned series and Webtoon just finally unlocked the last 5 Fast Pass episodes since it has been on hiatus for over a year??? Soooooo, that series may stay on the To Read pile for a while....

Also, while this more-so affects July's LRRC as opposed to June's, another series just concluded and a 2nd soon will (I'll talk about each of those in a moment). Which reminds me, I never did go back to read the epilogue/spin-off episodes of Office Romance from Hell. So those are still there - along with the final epilogue for I Abdicate My Title of Empress and the final episodes of Divorcing My Tyrant Husband. (There's also the 3rd season of Lore Olympus that is still in my backlog....) Finally, since Hubby seems to be fixated on going through the vast Dropout back catalog, now that we can access it, as well as checking out shows via Hulu, since we also recently got that subscription, it seems like he fell off the KDrama kick for now. Which means no real need to tear through The Girl Downstairs (Doona!) anymore. Shifting THAT story to the back burner as well drops my reading list down to:

  • Daily Read:
    • The Makeup Remover
  • Sunday:
    • You Can't Kill Me: The Secret Bride of the Black Wolf
    • A Savage Proposal
  • Monday:
    • Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story
    • Seabird and the Wolf
    • Fantasy High (sorta... behind on this)
  • Tuesday:
    • I Will Live the Life of a Villainess
    • Lock Me Up, Duke!
    • Ultimate Shut-in (sometimes)
  • Wednesday:
    • Back to having nothing to read, currently
  • Thursday:
    • The Age of Arrogance
    • Maybe Meant to Be
  • Friday:
    • My Child Will Have a Different Father
  • Saturday:
    • Obsidian Bride

Yes, it's still 13 stories, but, man, does this list just LOOK so small.... Maybe because it's only consistently 11 stories out of the 19 I was reading last month?

Also, I am caught up on Dracula Daily, but June is the Slow Month for the story, as is the beginning of July. This is probably part of the reason I have a hard time sticking with it. I get hyped in May. I read the updates daily. Then there's a week-long pause. Then one or two entries. Then another week-long pause. Then another short entry. Then ANOTHER week-long pause.

You do other things with your life while waiting for the next entry; falling off of your reading rhythm in the meantime. You come up with a routine - like reading the Dracula entry while eating breakfast, or something - but then there's no entry so you do something else to fill that void. But you do the filler so many days in a row that when the one, lone entry drops in, you go "Oh, I'll read that later" and continue with the filler routine instead. You do that for nearly a month straight, and now the filler IS the routine and you have to figure out what you're going to do for Dracula Daily again come end of July.

Plus, the story gets back into the swing of things via the Log of the Demeter, which takes place my birthday week. So I'm usually on some sort of vacation for my birthday, and thrown off my normal day-to-day routine. Making wedging in Dracula Daily even MORE back-of-mind.

In the end, I don't really get back into a consistent reading rhythm again until August. By then, I'm nearly 2 months behind on entries and it's hard to catch up!

Tanuki Facebook sticker
by Yanare Ku

At least this year I'm staying caught up, even if I am a day or two late in reading the entry. Hopefully, by the time we get to the part of the book I haven't read yet, I'll be back into a daily routine and can once more enjoy the added flavor of reading the entries in real-time and feeling that time between updates.

In other words, my reading routine has been consistently keeping up with 11 Webtoons series, read a 12th if the mood strikes, read a 13th if Hubby is up to reading over my shoulder, and read the occasional Dracula update.

OH! And zenmisery started up yet another story, so I did eventually read that... after it sat in my notifications for a month!

Zen's latest foray into the world of Miraculous Ladybug AUs asks the question, "What if Marinette's class - including Adrien - had all actually met in kindergarten, but didn't remember that was their first meeting?"

The interactions between Adrien and Marinette are so friggen cute. Seeing Adrien get his first crush is all I needed to hook me. However, Zen's Muse moves fast and uncontrollably, so who knows if it will have her continue this story, add more chapters to any of the other WIPs she has going on, if she'll think of yet ANOTHER new story to try her hand at, or if she'll vanish for months again before hitting us with another surprise sneak attack of a writing update a few months down the road.

I can't really say much, though, since my writing schedule - despite myself - is equally unpredictable.

But let's talk about what I have been reading. Since I don't really have much to say in general about my June reads, it feels like a good time for some Recap Updates. I can think of things to say if I'm trying to recap 13 different stories.... Might make this late upload worth it. Who knows?

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Let's start with the story that concluded this week! Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story!

This is a rough one for me. Monday night, I read the series finale of NYTRS. I started up this story March 2024, and have been reading the free-release updates weekly ever since. Over a year I have been locked into this story. It helped inspire one of my most popular fanfics. And it will soon be gone. Concluded. Only fanfic left to fill my need to consume more Edith and Killian content. I don't think I'm ready!

There's spin-off/epilogue episodes planned for this series. So I still have a LITTLE more canon content to look forward to. Which is good, because the series finale left some pretty big loose ends still dangling.

The main plot is more-or-less concluded and wrapped up. Nearly all mysteries are solved. We've met OG novel Edith and the 12 transmigrated souls that also embodied Edith at one point. We also discovered who The Creator was, how their novel became its own living and breathing world (sorta), and how they became in charge of the stipulations on Edith's possessing souls. Suna Choi's version of Edith got to the ending of the original novel. I won't spoil anything by telling you how Suna's story turned out compared to the original novel (with the exception of saying she obviously survives).

We got more of Rhyse's original backstory and how she got wrapped up in everything as the original novel's protagonist.

Everything with Edith and Rhyse and Killian and the Rudwicks and even Rhyse's original family the Sinclairs has been nicely wrapped up.

But there's still a major plotline about the two brothers Cliff and Killian and their father that needs to be concluded. There was a hint of Edith maybe being pregnant that hasn't been confirmed. There's more side-plot with Princess Katrin that feels like it wasn't properly resolved yet. With everything that happened, I feel like Killian's mother has a lot of guilt that she should be relieved of, since none of it was her fault; it was The Creator's will forcing her hand.

I love that there will be more story via spin-off/epilogue episodes after a brief hiatus, but I also feel like a lot of this "extra" content should have been included in the main storyline. I'll have to read the English translation of Lemon Frog's webnovel to see if these "extra" bits were in the novel proper.

Either way, I may have to cope with this series ending by using its conclusion as an excuse to just reread the whole thing from the beginning. Something I'm planning on doing with another series, but I'll save that one for last...

Now, let's go in order, starting with my Sunday line-up: You Can't Kill Me: The Secret Bride of the Black Wolf

I reached the season 1 finale of YCKM, but there wasn't even a week-long break before the creator posted episode 1 of season 2! So, I got season 2's premiere this past Sunday!

It's been awesome to see Yeonwu coming more into her own. Becoming stronger. Standing up more for herself. It was tragic enough to know that she was tricked into an abusive marriage to Hyojo her first life. Extra tragic to know that she was forced into that same abusive marriage in her second life. A life that broke her to the point of committing a public suicide! But to THEN find out that the abuse actually started YEARS before she even met Hyojo? At the hands of her own family!? That's a new kind of rough.

Turns out that she had that classic rearing of "you're the older sibling, so you're essentially an extra parent for your younger sibling." Yeonwu's sister was babied and pampered and spoiled. If the house was a mess because her sister refused to clean, it was somehow Yeonwu's fault for either (a) not getting her sister to clean against her will, or (b) not sucking it up and cleaning the massive mess herself without being scolded by her mother to do so.

Their mother had no time for her children, and it took a lot of courage for elementary-aged Yeonwu to say how much that hurt. She expressed her feelings and then asked her mother if she could go to a sort of Career Day event at her school. Despite Yeonwu simply and earnestly saying how she felt, her mother spun it as Yeonwu guilt-tripping her into going. THEN came the accident!

Yeonwu's mother did go to Career Day. After school concluded, her mother spotted someone she needed to talk to across the street from the school. She told Yeonwu to watch her younger sister, then crossed the street to chat. Despite Yeonwu holding firm to her sister's hand and trying to explain to her sister that she needs to stay put, her sister was desperate to be with their mother. She broke free of Yeonwu's grip and sprinted across the street to their mother. Through traffic!

Yeonwu - who, again, was maybe 10 or so? - sprinted after her sister and shoved her out of the way of a truck. Her sister was still badly injured, but alive, and Yeonwu had a severe head injury along with other injuries after taking the brunt of the hit.

Even so, Yeonwu's mother blamed her for not taking better care of watching her sister to prevent the accident from happening at all. She also friggen blamed Yeonwu for the massive medical bills that crippled their family finances! They were forced to move and suffered other financial hardships, but that's just life sometimes! Instead, Yeonwu's mother vocally blamed Yeonwu for all of it. And her father stayed silent; not once standing up for his child, noting that everything was because their younger daughter wouldn't listen to Yeonwu, or simply pointing out that it was an accident and there should be no one to blame.

Yeonwu was then forced to constantly prove her worth to her family; forced to "make up" for all of the hardships "she caused" the family!

In her early adulthood, she excitedly became a music composer, and even started to get paid for her music! She was elated to share this joy with her family. Her mother, on the other hand, simply pointed out that Yeonwu therefore has more money that she can send to her family to help them stay afloat since they were still financially recovering from her medical bills.... SUCH. JERKS!

Knowing HOW MUCH Yeonwu was abused her WHOLE LIFE, it is so refreshing to see her finally stand up against her abusers and become stronger, thanks to Hwita's companionship and support.

EXCEPT! There's this new mystery! Hwita's twin Yuta (who maybe ISN'T a twin and is just Hwita's split personality??? Jury is still out on that) keeps trying to sabotage Yeonwu's relationship with Hwita. Telling her that Hwita isn't to be trusted. Trying to get her to be with him instead. He admitted - close to the end of season 1 - that he was there at Hyojo's birthday celebration during Yeonwu's second life. He witnessed her suicide. He was the one she saw crying over her death. WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? He had brown hair then, but Yuta has white hair (compared to Hwita who still has brown hair). Did Yuta do something that caused both his own and Yeonwu's hair to turn white on this life reset? Why does he keep pushing the narrative that Hwita isn't to be trusted? What is he trying to tell Yeonwu, and why can't he simply say it?

Yeonwu does ask Hwita about it, and he admits that he hasn't been entirely truthful with her. There is this thing - The Wife of the Reaper - that is this almost prophesized woman. Hwita admits that he's both a Reaper ("like my brother") and that he originally took Yeonwu in because her hair turning white is the first sign that she was potentially the Wife of the Reaper he had been searching for. The mark on her shoulder was another indicator. He promises that while he first took her in as a political bride due to his suspicions of her being the Wife of the Reaper, he has since grown actual affection for her, and he never once faked his feelings for her. That seems to be enough to get Yeonwu to trust him again. In truth, it was enough for me too.

Season 1 ended with Hyojo bursting in on a ceremony to declare to both Hwita and Yeonwu that Hyojo's father - the king of the Underworld - had died (possibly due to Hyojo poisoning him, but that's just speculation right now). It's implied that Hyojo, who is the new king, is about to pull some shenanigans either against Hwita, in a bid to steal Yeonwu away, or probably both. It was quite the cliffhanger!

A Savage Proposal

For this one, I have to almost ignore the comments section. No one seems to know how to put themselves into the mindset of the protag Princess Liene. Nearly all of the comments are frustrated with her deception and meekness (mostly because it's holding back the romance plot between her and Lord Tiwakan). No one seems to understand WHY Liene makes the decisions she does. They don't realize she doesn't have the information we, the readers, do. They can't grasp the complicated 4D Chess Liene has to mentally play at all times. She is a political head-of-state by title alone, with no real power behind it. She does all in her power to keep what little strenuous peace she can. She has this complicated balancing act. The other readers don't seem to understand that at all.

It's been implied that Liene's mother is still alive-and-well, but divorced or otherwise left Liene's father. Then, her father died while she was still relatively young (12? 13? 14? Somewhere in there). So Liene was essentially orphaned as a young teen; too young to actually hold political power. Which meant it more-or-less was passed to the chancellor: Kleinfelter. Chancellor Kleinfelter was then the one who kept financially backing Liene as she depleted the royal coffers in an attempt to keep her kingdom afloat and her people fed. It was Kleinfelter who arranged the betrothal between Liene and his nephew Lafitte, a betrothal she accepted because she felt she owed the Chancellor, and she feared he would withdrawal his support otherwise.

While Lafitte was originally presented as Liene's beloved when coming up with reasons for her to deny Lord Tiwakan's proposal, it's later revealed to the readers that Liene never cared for Lafitte, and he actually annoyed her. She feels like she's betraying her people if she admits that she much prefers her engagement to Lord Tiwakan than staying trapped with Lafitte. So she's already walking that tightrope.

It doesn't help that Liene originally tried to convince Lord Tiwakan to withdrawal his proposal by claiming that Lafitte is indeed her true love and that she's pregnant with his child (both lies). The lies backfired, but Liene felt that she was not in a position to then confess to Lord Tiwakan that her gambit failed and that she is neither pregnant nor in love with Lafitte. Besides, at the time, Lord Tiwakan was the aggressor who blackmailed her into a political marriage to stop a siege on her kingdom. Meanwhile, Lafitte was an annoying brat, but at least he seemed the better option for her people at the time. Why would she put herself further on the back foot by confessing her failed bluff to a man she wasn't sure she could trust? Despite the readers not understanding, I get how that would be a DUMB MOVE as far as Liene was concerned (given what she knew).

Complicating things further, Lafitte is OBSESSESSED with Liene and desperately possessive of her. So he's constantly trying to sneak into the castle to be with her, constantly trying to steal her away, and even plotted a shotgun wedding! Liene keeps denying him and trying to shoo him away. Desperate to spare his life for fear of Chancellor Kleinfelter causing a civil war to avenge Lafitte if Liene lets the man die/calls for his execution. Unfortunately, Lord Tiwakan sees all of the moments between Lafitte and Liene without seeing Liene's distress or Lafitte's aggression or manipulation. Despite Liene being afraid of Lafitte and desperate to get away from him, Tiwakan only sees Liene being gentle with Lafitte (in an effort to de-escalate the situation). Since Liene already led Lord Tiwakan to believe that Lafitte was genuinely her lover, Lord Tiwakan sees these de-escalation moments and decisions of mercy (to not start a civil war) as proof that Liene still loves Lafitte. He is quickly losing his trust and faith in her all while becoming more desperate for her affection himself. Worse yet, Liene feels like she can't just explain the situation - Lafitte cannot be harmed or it could cause a civil war - because it will also be a confession of her lack of power. It makes her even MORE vulnerable, and possibly not a good enough political bargaining chip to bother to marry and/or even keep alive.

Again, the readers are largely on Lord Tiwakan's side. We see his gentle moments and his sincere moments. Especially compared to Lafitte. We want the romance to blossom and we know that Tiwakan seems to genuinely care for Liene. We're rooting for them, so it frustrates readers that Liene is fighting against it. For me, though? That's fantastic writing. The author isn't letting Liene be genre savvy. She doesn't know she's in a romance story. She thinks she's in friggen Game of Thrones and can't make one misstep otherwise she dies, her kingdom falls, her people starve, there's a civil war, etc. She has 20 plates up in the air and doesn't realize Lord Tiwakan is there to help her catch them (she thinks he's one of the plates).

Gaaaah! It's just so frustrating to see the comments whining to the author about how much they can't stand Liene and how she's making every wrong decision by not trusting Lord Tiwakan despite all he's done for her. Completely ignoring that Liene SEES everything he's done for her, she IS falling for him, but then she has all the nobles and her people being vague about how Tiwakan is there for revenge and to not trust him. And, seeing how Lafitte manipulates things, it's easy to believe that Liene suspects Lord Tiwakan is also trying to play her for a fool. So all of his genuine gestures to prove his affections for her reads as ploys to get her to let down her guard. I get that! That's her mental state. I love that the author has her there. Now if the other readers could just understand that as well. The misunderstandings and misconceptions ARE the drama of the story. They're the conflict. That's the point.

There are plenty of other stories on Webtoon that clear up misunderstandings quickly, and I'll see the author praised for precisely that: “Thank you, author, for not dragging out misunderstandings just for the drama. That's so annoying.” If misunderstanding-led drama isn't your thing, if political chess matches aren't your thing, if someone struggling to learn to trust again after nearly a decade of having that trust abused isn't your thing, then give up on the whole “oo, sexy romance” of this story and move on. Enough with the whining!

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Seabird and the Wolf

For this one, we've gotten more backstory for the main portion of the Black Ocean crew.

We've learned that Keyelo (the male lead) and his fellow Vice Captain Utuguru are half-brothers not even a year apart. Utuguru is Captain Clusdo's legitimate son, and Keyelo's the captain's second son via his favorite prostitute. Keyelo was raised more-or-less in the brothel until his mother died, and then he was taken in by his father. For obvious reasons, Utuguru's mother - who is still Captain Clusdo's legal wife - can't stand Keyelo and is cruel to him. So, he moved out into a little hut on his own as soon as he was able.

We also recently discovered that Utuguru has been suffering abuse from his mother, who does not fear viciously verbally berating or straight up physically harming her own son if he doesn't match her impossibly high standards. In the last episode I read, Lott (the main character) jumped in front of Utuguru to protect him from a full porcelain tea cup his mother threw at him. Here's hoping that helps those two bond a bit more.

We also discovered that the ship's resident ray of sunshine - deckhand Domem - was actually orphaned after the dreaded Woohoppiage pirates (the same ones that kidnapped Lott's sister Raltia) raided the Black Ocean crew's home island. His parents are buried in front of his now-abandoned family home, and he crashes with his bestie Keyelo whenever the crew docks at their home base.

Speaking of the Woohoppiage pirates (I still HATE that name... sheesh!), we were given a little flash of Raltia's capture. Seems she was part of an attempted escape plot with some of the other villagers from her hometown. The pirates executed all of the others involved in the plot, and forced Raltia to watch as her punishment. However, they're purposefully keeping her alive as bait for Lott. Seems they know that Lott's pet bird Balca is the last fabled Sea Bird, and they want Balca's divine navigation and protection from the sea for themselves.

Aaaaand speaking of, Lott has met with a few mystical beings of the ocean. One was the Sea Witch Rurumi, who spoke an ominous premonition to Lott before gifting her some pearls to take as pills to ease the intense stomach cramps that have been crippling Lott ever since she joined the Black Ocean crew; a symptom of a mysterious curse put on Lott.

The second was a mob of sea monsters collectively called Aurora. Bipedal creatures with praying-mantis-like clawed arms, and human-like faces on pearls within oyster-like heads. Aurora are ghost-like monsters that glow a pearlescent pinkish purple, but are usually invisible. They were thought to be the souls of children lost at sea, but one that Lott fought had her father's face! Could her father have become an Aurora somehow? The Aurora also know that Lott can hear them when no one else can, and they beg her to help them find their ways home.

The third mythical being Lott encountered was a deity known as the Master of the Forest Sea, Ernori, and her pet/guardian, Quetzalcoatl. Just like Rurumi, Ernori mentioned that Lott reminded her of "an old friend." A lot of us fans are wondering if Lott is somehow an avatar or reincarnation of the killed God of the Sea. Ernori also gifts Lott something to ease the pain from the curse - two leaves from her crown - but lets Lott know that they are no cure. She'll have to figure that out herself.

We also met the crew of the Celipharm, a pirate crew made entirely of women (keep in mind, Lott disguised herself as a man because most people believe women are bad-luck out on the ocean). The Celipharm is captained by Scarlett, former lover of the Woohoppiage's Captain Feder. The Black Ocean was given some intel from Scarlett, and they rushed back to their home island, rumored to have been recently attacked by the Woohoppiage!

Side note: Despite all of us readers wondering if the members of the Celipharm were able to sniff out that Lott was a woman, and/or if she'd shift loyalties to the Celipharm, the status quo was upheld. No one is the wiser about Lott's actual gender, and she gleefully stayed with the Black Ocean.

Anyway, where I left off, the Black Ocean returned home. Yes, the Woohoppiage had attacked, but were chased off with minimal damage to the island. Even so, Captain Clusdo is using this oportunity to gift his "men" land leave while he sorts out where they should go next to continue their hunt of the Woohoppiage. Also, Utuguru's mother kind of strong-armed her husband - Clusdo - to stay for at least a little while.

Fantasy High

Where I left off with this series, we met the Halfling family The Cubbies; we were introduced to The Bad Kids' future favorite hang, Basrar's Soda Fountain and Ice Cream Parlor; Fabian took possession of Johnny Spells' demon-possessed motorcycle (which Fabian then names The Hangman); The Bad Kids are trying to sort out who Johnny was supposed to be meeting up with and how it may relate to the missing Adventuring Academy students; and the closing shot is of the cracked ruby that is imprisoning the devil Gorthalax (Spoilers, but... Fig's biological father).

I Will Live the Life of a Villainess

Somehow it feels like a LOT has happened but also virtually nothing?

I think the last update I gave you fine folks was while the main character Elena was dealing with curbing a pandemic. She succeeded, and returned to the imperial capital. There, she was honored for her efforts, and she shared the spotlight with some of her friends to help those ladies garner more political pull. In turn, it gives them more independence, especially from their fathers.

There was then a small time-jump, where the emperor has fallen ill, and Crown Prince Kaizen has attempted to step up and take over his father's duties. He hadn't been a terrible leader, at first, but then quickly became the entitled brat everyone knew him to be. Despite his father being on death's door (yes, due to being poisoned by the Crown Prince and his fiancée Rosetta), Kaizen planned to have a large engagement ceremony for himself and Rosetta. Meanwhile, Prince Lloyd has been dealing with some strange health complications of his own. He keeps suffering horrendous luck, resulting in a lot of injuries from incredibly benign activities; Final Destination style. Poor Elena even caught Lloyd not breathing as he napped, and she struggled to wake him back up. The duo now suspects that, since Lloyd died in the original novel, perhaps Seojun Lee was never meant to possess the character of the first prince. Perhaps Lloyd was destined to die, and Seojun's transmigration into that doomed character was a mistake. One that the God of Destiny - or whatever - of this world is now trying to correct. Again, Final Destination style.

Soooo, along with thwarting Crown Prince Kaizen's assassination attempt of the emperor, Elena has to figure out why she and Lloyd were transmigrated in the first place, why Lloyd's luck seems to have turned quite dangerous for him, and if there's a way to stop it so Lloyd stays safe.

Where I last left off, Elena, through a lot of help from her friends again, managed to prove the emperor was poisoned, prove that Rosetta was the one poisoning him (with Kaizen likely a co-conspirator/accomplice), and gave the emperor a remedy for the poison. Kaizen was able to whisk Rosetta away and claim sanctuary to keep them both safe, but Rosetta had her back against the wall. She realized Kaizen was never going to become emperor over Lloyd now, which meant he was no longer any value to her.

**SPOILER**
        Rosetta, in a horribly ill-conceived attempt to tie up loose ends, murders Crown Prince Kaizen!!!! She is then captured as she attempted to flee the palace in her still blood-stained clothes. The idiot....

Lock Me Up, Duke!

The romantic leads Jayna and Theo have easily and fully fallen for each other. Jayna is quickly discovering that the "locked up" ending she was originally gunning for may not be the heavenly lazy life she originally believed. Perhaps the game designers knew what they were doing when they had it as a bad ending?

Thankfully, Jayna is not a shy girl, and is very vocal about her wants, desires, and needs. She calls Theo out, and he's quick to course-correct to make her happy. Especially when she never asks for anything that would put a burden on him. With one exception.

It's not yet explained, but Jayna apparently has this GIFT to tame notoriously dangerous and fierce monsters with a simple word. She discovered a lost cub, which resembles a lion with a thick mane, fluffy tail, and little horns. She named her Cotton Candy and wanted to keep her as a pet. Theo was going to immediately put the cub down before it could grow into a dangerous beast, but eventually relented to letting Jayna keep Cotton Candy as a pet, as long as Jayna agreed to VERY strict restrictions on Cotton Candy to keep everyone in the castle safe.

Most recently, Jayna, tamed what is essentially a dire wolf. She realized that she had advanced to the part of the game where, if Theo went into town alone, he was killed. However, Theo, not wanting to disturb Jayna by waking her, decided to go into town alone, obviously clueless of the scripted mortal danger this put him in. As Jayna rushed to try to find him and keep him safe from assassins, she got kidnapped by slavers. She was then tossed into a room with this monstrous wolf as the beast's meal. Instead, Jayna was able to turn the wolf into a loyal puppy with a simple word. The wolf then helped Jayna bust both herself and a little girl free of the slavers. Jayna then came to Theo's rescue, with the help of her new pet wolf. Once again, fearing the monster would show its feral nature and attack Jayna, himself, or the residents of the castle, Theo wanted to put the wolf down. Jayna again got him to stay his hand, and she's quickly building up a menagerie of monsters.....

Theo still showcases the overly possessive/protective/obsessive personality that he had in the video game. However, it seems like the Jayna possessed by transmigrated A-Min Kim is able to tame Theo right along with all of those monsters. He's slowly becoming less intense, and more open to listen to her. She's also proving to him that she can hold her own, and so he doesn't have to worry as much about having to protect her and/or keep her safe. It's still a long road and Theo does still show red flags/toxic traits, but his love for her seems sincere and beautiful. Their romance is adorable. And I'm excited to see a Green Flag version of Theo in the near future.

Ultimate Shut-in

So far the drama of the series is still focused on Human Survivors vs monsters, and Jaehyeon (the main character) leveling up and gaining new powers. He's created new incentives for the survivors under his protection. His protective bubble has expanded to include basically the entire apartment complex he lives in. He can set up a shop - which he's placed on the first floor - that he can remotely fill with an endless supply of goods he scans in. He still has limited spots for individual items, but he's sorted out workarounds.

For instance, he can scan in an entire toolbox to fill one of the inventory slots, but he can then sell the individual tools from the toolbox without a hammer or tape measurer or screwdriver or nails each taking up individual store inventory slots. Same deal with first aid items. He scanned in a first-aid kid, but can now provide gauze, bandages, antiseptic creams, etc individually.

He also managed to arrange for the one woman's murdered young son to be revived for a single day as a reward for clearing out the goblin population around the apartment complex. We haven't seen the reunion yet. I feel like that is going to be rough. She says it's all she wants: just one more day with her son. However, how much more will it hurt when the day ends and she has to lose him a second time?

I like that THIS is the style of drama we're getting, and not necessarily survivors vs survivors yet. You can still have a compelling story with a lot of drama without it including internal fighting per se. That said, there was a little blip of that already. One of the new perks that Jaehyeon provided was to open up vacant apartments within the building, turning the water and power back on in those rooms, and offering the apartments as rewards for monster-hunting parties who kill x-number of y-type of monster first. This way the survivors that have migrated into Jaehyeon's building could have homes of their own, instead of having to camp out in the apartment building hallways. One party tried to work the system and use one of their partymates as bait; putting him in danger in an attempt to kill monsters faster with no regard of the partymate's wellbeing. Jaehyeon purposefully did NOT reward that sort of behavior, and even offered the abused party member an alternative in case he wanted to leave the group he was with.

I appreciate that in-fighting and cut-throat behaviors between the survivors is being kind of nipped in the bud. A way for the main character to establish a more unified community of survivors. One where they all help each other out. Bravo to both Jaehyeon and the author of the series.

Where I last left off, Jaehyeon had just leveled up again and unlocked a new power: Outposts. If one of his "knights" (one of the higher-level survivors that he then knights with his power) is in an area, and Jaehyeon's willing to spend the small fortune to establish one, he can create an outpost. A place outside of his apartment building that he can protect as if it were part of his home base. Aside from the exorbitant cost to establish an outpost, the other kink in the system is that he has to station at least 3 knights there at all times, otherwise the outpost loses protection and may be taken back by the monsters. It will be tricky for him to balance the value of having an outpost vs the monetary cost of setting one up and the security cost of not having access to three of his knights.

Obviously, Jaehyeon decided that if ANYWHERE was worth the cost, it's his parents' home. His next goal is to send his knights out to his parents' home, hope they are still safe, and then establish their home as an outpost. That does abandon some of his knights with his parents. So, again, there's bound to be some sort of drama there over that. I'm excited to see it, but, oddly enough, not excited enough to actually read the updates the day they come out.

It's a weird limbo where I still really enjoy this series - as I do Mythic Item Obtained and Writer's Legacy - but the romance vibes are still the ones calling out to me, so I focus those stories first-and-foremost.

The Age of Arrogance

We're in the home stretch. Most of the storylines are tied up. We've witnessed two different character weddings. The Happily Ever After is about to conclude the final panel. We're currently reading through Asha's backstory a bit more. We're learning more about her childhood in the war-torn land of Pervaz, how and why she trained to be a warrior instead of a Lady of Court, what happened to Asha's mother, and the pain of Asha watching her father and older brothers all fall in battle. It's a sad tale, but knowing that Asha has a happy ending - and seeing Carlisle comfort her as she tells it - helps with this bittersweet backstory.

It will be hard to see this story go. Especially so soon after completing another of Lemon Frog's stories (NYTRS).

Maybe Meant to Be

I'm still purposefully behind on this one. That way I have a little bit of a buffer in case I can't handle a cliffhanger and HAVE to go right into the next episode.

I will be honest, though, while this season is still cute, outside of the first few episodes where Jia and Mincheol were "stranded on a deserted island", this season hasn't really had me itching to get to the next episode. Not the way I did with the first season. I'm 28 episodes into the 2nd season, and it does NOT feel like I'm that far in. While a LOT happened in a short timeframe in season 1, it feels like virtually nothing has happened in season 2 yet.

Jia and Mincheol were caught in a nasty storm while out fishing with Jia's parents, and our favorite couple got washed up on a beach. They survived a few days on that beach with little-to-no supplies before being "rescued" (turns out they were just a couple of miles from the resort where Jia's parents ended up. Mincheol just never ventured far enough to find civilization.... whoops).

After those initial 8 intense episodes that very much kept the same chaotic vibe as season 1, the storyline slowed WAY down. Before heading home from their fishing trip, Jia and Mincheol were interviewed about their time lost on the beach after being swept overboard. During the outdoor interview, Mincheol, not thinking, held up his hand to shade Jia's eyes from the sun. Everyone found it adorable, and the interview went viral. This caught the attention of this big wig. I still don't really know who she is or what her significance is. She did, however, use the opportunity to talk to Jia's original publisher/agent/manager/whomever he was: Mr. Na.

The next 20-some episodes were just this lady strong-arming Mr. Na into getting Jia back into the public spotlight in any way possible. He and Jia's old college friend Yeonju tried a few more ploys at Yeonju's cafe where Jia works to try to lure her back into writing. When that didn't work, Mr. Na brought in a reality show director/producer to film something in the cafe, in hopes that watching HIM would convince Jia to write.

There's just this focus on getting her back into writing now that the main plot of Jia and Mincheol falling in love and admitting their feelings for each other concluded in season 1. There was a long backstory where Jia talks about how she wrote her first novel and got it published in the first place, but then how writer's block crept in and how she because so stressed that she swore off writing ever again. Really hits home, and I'm still invested in the series both for Jia's writer's arc and because she and Mincheol are still adorable little beans. But the "I have to know what happens next RIGHT NOW" itch from season 1 just didn't carry over.

On top of all that, the secondary couple of Sang-U and Suyeon have been more-or-less sidelined. There's mentions in passing that they're still trying to act professional at work, but everyone knows that they're dating and are just waiting for them to finally publically admit it. This led to a small side-plot of Mincheol finally learning how to drive so he didn't have to carpool with Sang-U and Suyeon to and from work anymore, given how awkward it was with the couple trying to hide that they're dating around him.

That's it. That's all that happened in season 2 thus far:

  • Jia and Mincheol have a pseudo honeymoon redo after believing they were stranded on an island for days
  • Mincheol shades Jia's eyes from the sun after she agrees to do a quick outdoor interview, and the video goes viral, which then kickstarts Mr. Na hounding Jia again about getting back into writing
  • Mincheol feels awkward about carpooling with Sang-U and Suyeon still when they're trying to hide that they're a couple. However, Mincheol doesn't know how to drive, so Jia teaches him and he successfully gets his license.
  • Mr. Na teams up with Yeonju as they plot ways to try to trick Jia into writing again/finding joy in writing again.
  • Jia tells Mincheol how she became a famous writer and why she stopped writing (which takes up 4 episodes alone)
  • Somewhere in there Jia realizes she forgot Mincheol's 32nd birthday, but stumbled into the perfect gift for him
  • Mr. Na sets up a reality show shoot at Yeonju's cafe as yet another ploy to try to lure Jia back into writing

Aaaaand that's everything for those 28 episodes....

My Child Will Have a Different Father

The romance is blooming in this one. The further in you get, the more you see how much Prince Lutz is falling for Hinael. He tries to spoil her. He listens to her. He compliments her. He drops everything to free up time for her. He does all that he can to help her thrive within the royal family and gets viciously defensive towards anyone cruel to his bride.

On the flipside, Hinael is seeing the effort Lutz is putting into their marriage, and she's starting to believe that Lutz isn't just preferable to her murderous first husband Chetaire; she may even learn to actually love Lutz.

Plot wise, the crown prince is on death's door, likely poisoned by third prince Kylo. While, as far as the characters are concerned, there was no evidence, there is also a near-absolute possibility that Kylo had plotted with Chetaire to have the Count kidnap Hinael. Kylo also purposefully spooked Hinael's horse while she was learning to ride, in hopes of injuring her. On the flipside, Kylo's mother - the current empress - invited Hinael to have tea with herself and her two other daughters-in-law. With Hinael's lady-in-waiting Deia's intel and Lutz's wallet, Hinael was able to get personalized gifts for the three imperial ladies that more-or-less won them over.

Hinael is now plotting to buddy up with Kylo's wife in order to hopefully get more intel from her about what Kylo's plotting. Meanwhile, she uses her memories from her first life to try to feed information to Lutz in an attempt to help him secure the crown for himself. The couple is working together beautifully to try to take down Kylo with little-to-no bloodshed. That way, either the crown prince's life can be spared, or, upon the prince's death, the emperor will instead name Lutz as the replacement crown prince.

Some Game-Of-Thrones-like political intrigue and plotting, mixed with some sensual romantic plotline. Totally my cup of tea right now!

Obsidian Bride

I'm not entirely sure how much longer this series is going to go, since the finale hasn't published yet. However, it does feel like it's coming close to the end. We know the true identities of most of the Jewel Box participants, and we've seen the true form of about half of them. We learned who The Moon Owl truly is. Lueri (the main character) discovered the true identity of the mystery boy from the library: her first, and only, love whose flame she has held since she was about 12. The missing Marianne has been found, and how/why she went missing has been revealed to the reader. Just about all of the Jewels have paired up, so the TV series Jewel Box should be coming to a close. Can't imagine the Webtoon series Obsidian Bride continuing much longer after that. But I could be wrong.

There is now a lot of political intrigue going on. The true reason behind the Jewel Box has been revealed. It seems that a handful of the Jewels - along with Moon Owl himself - wish to topple the empire. The pro-empire propaganda is starting to fail. Perhaps the fifth Jewel Box concluding ends up knocking down political dominos, and we end up following the ramifications of that. There could be a whole new season of the series just based off of that alone.

Also, there's a water dragon who needs to be hatched and magical creatures need to return to the empire!

Who knows? Maybe I'm NOT close to the end.

Either way, I hope Lueri and her true love get to be together soon, and can hold each other tight. Seeing them kiss now fully knowing who the other is and why they missed each other when they agreed to meet up as children... it was so beautiful. Did my heart good.

This is another one, along with My Child Will Have a Different FatherA Savage Proposal, You Can't Kill Me, Seabird and the Wolf, and both Lemon Frog stories, that I itch to consume as soon as the latest free update goes live.

The Makeup Remover

OK. So. This one. THIS ONE! This used to be a Daily Pass read. Then, I guess Webtoon did away with the Daily Passes???? Instead, all of my Daily Pass stories turned into Ad-Unlock ones. Just like how they've always worked in the app, if you watch a short ad (about 15-30sec) the episode will unlock for 3 days. So, no more "read as much as you want within 14 days" that you got with Daily Pass unlocks. However, it also means unlimited binge reading, as long as you are willing to sit through an ad before each episode. And, after 3 days, you can unlock that episode again with just a short ad as well.

I've grown to have a love-hate relationship with this new set-up.

On the one hand, I am ELATED that I can binge-read these stories. ESPECIALLY The Makeup Remover. On the other hand, what happened to my guardrail forcing me to keep this to a once-daily read???

Anyway, as I mentioned, I'm LOVING that I can binge this story in particular. Because holy smokes! It's addicting! The writing is so good. The makeup design choices are so engaging and beautiful. The character arcs are amazing and keep you in such a chokehold. The cliffhangers smack you around until you beg for the next episode. It is so hard to find a good stop point. You just want more and more and more. It is, by and large, the comic equivalent of a "page turner" story, and it should be getting more attention than it has in the 4 years since it published.

I started reading this series mid-April, and I'm already 123 episodes into a 129-episode series! How am I nearly done already!? If I let myself just binge the last six episodes (since I seem to be reading this series in 6-episode chunks), I could have it done TONIGHT! I'm not ready to let it go!!!!

It's been exciting to watch Yeseul (the main character) grow more confident in herself. In both her skills and her looks. She's learned to stand up for herself and become more vocal when she's uncomfortable or sees an injustice.

Heewon, the "popular girl" from the same college year as Yeseul, has also grown so much. She's no longer the snotty, typical "entitled, internet-famous model". She's realizing the impact she has on others, how lucky she is to have been famous to begin with, and that she may not want that internet-famous life after-all. She's also become a fierce defender of her new bestie: Yeseul! Watching Heewon's character arc has been as rewarding as watching Yeseul's!

Then there's the secondary protagonist: Yuseong, the "genius" makeup artist. He went from only focusing on the makeup competition Face-Off Cinderella to full-on falling in love with Yeseul. What's extra sweet is that he knew full-well that Yeseul already had feelings for her classmate Seungwoo, so Yuseong tried his hardest to hide his growing affections, not wanting to burden Yeseul with a love confession when she already had so much on her plate.

Speaking of Seungwoo, he was the only character I was disappointed in. When we're first introduced to him, he's the most popular guy in college. Handsome. Kind. Giving. Charismatic. Helpful. He seemed the whole package. So, naturally, Yeseul thought she wasn't worthy of his attention. Instead, she was (mostly) content with just admiring him from afar and fantasizing about having a relationship with him. Then, early in the series, Yuseong happens to run into Seungwoo, and Seungwoo takes Yuseong to an exibition of the photography students' work. Seungwoo points out a photo of himself that Yeseul took. He then noted how Yeseul saw him in a way no one else ever seemed to, and that made him want to know more about her in return. He seemed so smitten, and I was excited that someone Yeseul thought was out of her league was lowkey thinking the same thing about her.

Based on Yeseul and Yuseong being in the cover art, and based on them being the main characters of the series, it was pretty evident that they were supposed to be end-game. Even so, I had hoped that maybe Seungwoo was as sweet as he appeared, and the moral of his story was that no one is out of anyone else's league. That everyone has their own insecurities and everyone just wishes to be seen for who they truly are. I was hoping that the series would have Seungwoo eventually connect with Yeseul, and the two would date, just as Yeseul had fantasized. But, maybe Seungwoo and Yeseul just didn't click as much as she thought they would. Maybe Seungwoo indeed possessed all of those social traits that Yeseul saw - kind, friendly, defender of the weak, brilliant photographer, etc - but they didn't really have anything to say to each other outside of photography. Maybe they had no shared interests. Maybe they did click, but then Yeseul realized that she liked Seungwoo more as a friend than a romantic partner. Maybe she realizes that she gets butterflies around Yuseong that she doesn't get around Seungwoo now that she's no longer admiring him from afar. There isn't anything wrong with Seungwoo, but he just isn't the right fit, romantically.

Instead, the author went with Seungwoo secretly being a gaslighter and massive manipulator.

The lessons that the story taught about abuse, how to recognize toxic relationships, and how to break out of such relationships is an important one. I praise the story for everything it did with that storyline. I just wish Seungwoo was presented differently if that was the direction the author was going. It felt very "Han from Frozen heel-turn". Despite so many of the other readers calling it from a mile away (maybe because they knew the trope and knew Seungwoo was too good to be true?), I felt like the villain reveal was a bit of a sucker-punch from left field.

But that's the kind of thing that had me devouring this story. That, along with finding out what each team comes up with for the next round of the makeup competition. Or seeing how Yeseul and Yuseong come up with their concept. Or watching Yeseul deal with Seungwoo. Or sympathize with Yuseong as he struggles with his feelings for Yeseul. Or Heewon getting smacked by reality and learning to cope. Or cliffhanger misunderstandings (that, thankfully, get resolved in the next episode; the author doesn't like to draw out miscommunication).

In fact, this was the one series I was thinking of when I said people who can't stand the miscommunication-induced drama of Savage Proposal should just find stories without it. There's plenty. And so many in the comments of The Makeup Remover praise the author for NOT dragging out the miscommunication for drama purposes (a dig at series like Savage Proposal). So.... yeah.... if those people like slowburn romances that don't center on miscommunication, they should just read this series instead.....

Anyway, this series is so good. I'm excited to go back and rebinge it a second time once I've finished it. Now that I know all the twists and turns, I'm excited to start it over again and seeing certain scenes in a new light. Now knowing better what's going through the character's minds.

Man, now I want to just curl up in a corner and finish up The Makeup Remover instead of finishing this blog update.

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Also, the heel-turn of Seungwoo vs how I wanted it to go down lowkey has me thinking of my Hey Arnold! story What Is Truly Meant To Be. Mainly because I wanted Helga to have that "you're a great guy, but not for me" moment with Brainy. Maybe I need to step fully away from Miraculous Ladybug (especially since I still haven't started season 6 yet, so it's been over a year since I've watched the show), and return to HA instead....

BUT this isn't my writing update portion of my blog, so I'll save further contemplations for that.

Speaking of, I guess I should start working on that, huh? Here's hoping I'll catch you all again in a couple of days???

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Thursday, June 5, 2025

The Invasion of the Bots

Est. Read Time: 20min
This Month's Font: Comic Neue

Oh, hey! My May update is publishing in June. Fancy that. Show of hands, who here is still surprised at how long it takes me to publish these blog updates?

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Same old song as always: I had no clue how to even start this update. It'd be one thing if I actually had any writing to talk about, but my brain blue screened this month. Any time I tried to sit down to work on either blog post - let alone anything fictional - I ended up looking like Minamikawa here.

Panel from Shut Up, Takamori!
by Kamiharu Haruno

I thought I'd be clever this month. Any time something came up that I wanted to talk about in this update, I would open up the draft and just add it. I'd work out the order and flow later. That way I didn't forget anything and I already had a head start. Perfect!

Until I had nothing to add to the draft.... As I said: blue screened. Perpetual buffer circle. In other words, instead of the above panel, I was more like this:

Panel from Shut Up, Takamori!
by Kamiharu Haruno
Edited by LycoRogue
(I spent way too much time on this edit...)

All I ended up adding to the draft were a small handful of comments, which I'll get to in a minute. I even planned to jump into the draft to add my May Blessing as soon as it happened so I wouldn't have to worry about thinking of one when it was time to publish this update.

...

I... did not have anything that shouted "BLESSING!" to me... so that plan also flew out the window as I went the whole month and that portion of the draft remained empty.

May was definitely Brain Shutdown Month.

All I wanted to do was curl up on the loveseat next to my hubby. Watch more Dimension 20 and Game Changer. Read through my vast list of WEBTOON series. Play games. But even then, my brain was too fried for most games, so I simply played my mobile merge games or my color-by-number app on my tablet. Things that didn't really require much thought. Things that allowed me to still be

Art by Kamiharu Haruno
Crude edit by LycoRogue

The fact that no one has really been posting on the Discord server hasn't really helped rekindle my love of writing. Nothing is really sparking. Bluescreening continues.

My only real pull back into writing was when I was surprised by TWO new reviews for You Pretended Not to Care. I am still dumbfounded whenever I get a new comment on this story. This was supposed to be an almost throw-away story that I wasn't expecting to be really seen by anyone. Instead, it is quickly becoming one of my most popular stories!

This was so good!!! I didn't think I would find much fan fiction about this story but I'm very pleased I found yours. This was so lovely. I am currently reading the story and it was so nice to step into their heads a bit more deeply and also have an idea of what may have happened during the fade to black.

I loved how tender it was but also "His angle was lust." Jajaja really made me laugh they are both so horny for each other
This is sooo good!! I’ve been reading and rereading this so much now that the manhwa is over (💔). The use of the original text was so good and I especially loved how you expanded on their feelings. Killian wanting to reward her for wanting him was so 🥹🥹🥹. Their interactions actually felt so in character I loved it so much!! Thank you for writing this god-tier piece of writing 🫶🏾🫶🏾

"God-tier"??? I could have wept! This. This story and these comments are what's keeping me afloat. The fact that this story has been consistently getting love for over a year now keeps my head above water. Thirteen months live, and it is the story with the 4th-most hits! That's surpassing stories that have been available to read for over 5 years! Including multi-chapter stories that would get a new hit every time someone came back to read the next chapter. YPNTC also has the 4th-highest number of kudos. Same deal. It surpassed so many of my other stories that had loads more time to build up that kudos count. Keeping consistent, it's also the story bookmarked the 4th-most out of my whole catalogue on AO3. The only category where YPNTC falls out of the top-5 (out of the top-4, honestly) is in comments. Even so, it's still 12th out of 52!

Considering how sporadic my view/kudos/comments count has been for my first smut story - Sparks for the Moment - I honestly was assuming YPNTC was also going to fade into obscurity. Yes, the story was still on-going when I posted, as opposed to when I uploaded SftM, which was seven years after the novel it was based on was published. Presumably, there was still an active fandom for Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story whereas I had no clue if anyone was still thinking of Bitterblue in 2019. Even so, I had no clue HOW popular the webtoon was. Plus, this was my only entry in that fandom; I'm not otherwise active in it at all. So it's not like people would know to search me out specifically. I published YPNTC expecting the same smattering of fans who may be just as itchy as I was to know what happened during that metaphorical fade-to-black. Just as I had found with the Bitterblue fandom.

Given the TEEEEEEEENY presence of NYTRS on AO3, I was NOT expecting the relative flood to my story!

So, considering the source material for each of my smut fics, here's where we're at.

There's only 178 fics in total for the entirety of the Graceling Realm series (which includes 5 books). I couldn't figure out how to accurately single out which ones are specifically based off the book Bitterblue without going through each fic's tags and summary, and I'm already running too far behind on this blog update to take the time for that. Anyway, out of the initial 178, only 17 focus on a Bitterblue and Saf relationship, including Sparks for the Moment. And my story was the only one listed as explicit (aka, the only smut).

After being live for nearly 6 years, SftM has 1461 hits, 66 kudos, 5 bookmarks (one is a recommendation bookmark), and 4 comments.

Comparatively, Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story / I Thought it was a Common Transmigration only has 11 fics in total! SEVEN of which were published AFTER I posted YPNTC! Which means I published the FOURTH story for this fandom on AO3!!!!

Like I said, I thought this was a virtually non-existent fandom presence on AO3! Out of those 11 fics, 8 are Killian/Edith romances (one of which is mine). Out of those 8 Killian/Edith fics, 1 isn't written in English, and 1 other is a partially gender-swapped AU. Which means YPNTC is just 1 of six canon-compliant, English-written, Killian/Edith romance stories on the whole of AO3! And, once again, mine was the only one listed as explicit (although, given the description in some other ones, maybe a few more should have been "explicit" instead of just "mature"...).

And yet, You Pretended Not to Care has 4092 hits, 332 kudos, 45 bookmarks (2 rec bookmarks), and 17 comments!

It is THE MOST VIEWED fic out of the 11 available, and by nearly 50% over the next-highest (4092 vs 2874 for the 2nd place fic). Same with kudos. YPNTC has 332 and the 2nd-highest (which was published a month before my story) as 227. Once again, YPNTC has the most with regards to bookmarks as well: 45 to 39. Finally, there's comments, wherein the 2nd-most commented on story has 12 comments to my 17.

DUMBFOUNDED! ABSOLUTELY FLABBERGASTED! 

I mean, with Sparks for the Moment setting the precedent, I was NOT expecting the love I've been getting from YPNTC! Especially considering how little my other works have picked up any sort of attention (with exception of Woven Heartstrings and Could Your Paradise Also Be Your Hell?, both of which very much still get consistent love).

Then, to have YPNTC be one of the VERY few stories I have up on AO3 where someone actually tells me that they're a repeat reader!? "I’ve been reading and rereading this so much..." I mean, THAT'S THE DREAM! THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN SCREAMING ABOUT!

PLEASE, just let me know that you like my stuff. That it sticks with you. That you enjoyed it enough to go back and dedicate more of your time to rereading it.

Not to discredit that first review. That one also had my heart aflutter. As I mentioned, this fandom's presence on AO3 is so tiny. I get what that person means when they say they weren't expecting to find much on that site. I'm so glad to have provided them with something that really scratched the itch. And knowing that I made that person laugh? To FEEL something? Beautiful! Wonderful! I'm in tears!

Which is a complete contrast to what the heck has been going on over on FFN this past year. After 10 months and a measly 1062 hits (which is still over double the 395 hits on AO3), I finally got my second review on Scott's List Item 

As I was reading, I couldn't help but see the world unfolding so vividly in my mind the emotions, the atmosphere , the rhythm of each moment. Your story is rich with visual potential, and I'd love to help bring that to life. Whether it's an intense, action-packed sequence or a quiet, emotional beat, your work deserves to be experienced in a way that captures its full depth and energy...

Seems nice, right? *buzzer sound* Wrong. Note the "I'd love to help bring that to life." With all of the bots flooding my DMs to solicit art commissions, that phrase threw up a HUGE red flag. Upon a second look, while the comment seems sweet and encouraging, that's kind of the point. Look at how vague that is! Nothing specific is called out. None of the characters are named. Not a single emoji is used. It doesn't even read like a fan reader would write. I mean, compare this comment to the ones I got for YPNTC. Then you have that closing line: "...your work deserves to be experienced in a way that captures its full depth and energy..." 

Yes. I do comment now and again how I'm built to be more of a visual storyteller, which is why I'm so fixated on acting and video editing. I love visual media. There's a reason it's so much easier for me to consume movies, TV shows, video games, and comics/graphic novels than it is for me to sit and read basic prose. Ironic, considering my wish to become an author, I am well aware.

Scene from Ouran High School Host Club
Meme edit by LycoRogue

Still. This is largely why I keep stating I want "Glitches" to be a web comic or something of the like.

HOWEVER! I don't say ANYTHING about any of that on my fic accounts - be it AO3, FFN, or FP - and so having this commenter be like, "Yeah, your writing is good, but you really should be in visual media" adds to that previous red flag. This commenter wants me to agree to pay them for artwork. I could feel it. 

Also, side note, but it's low-key rude. "I couldn't help but see the world unfolding so vividly" but I still need it to be translated into visual media for others to "[experience it] in a way that captures its full depth and energy"? So.... my descriptive writing isn't good enough? I'm leaving crumbs?

Anyway, as I feared, the bots have now friggen invaded my comments section! On a story that isn't getting any love otherwise. Just to twist the knife.

Confirming my suspicions, literally the same minute I got the email alerting me of the above review, I also got an email alerting me of the below DM from the same user:

Subject: Appereciation and Commission Request..

I'm Fleming Michelle!, a professional comic artist, and I just finished reading your story I genuinely loved it. The way you build tension, craft atmosphere, and develop such authentic characters is incredibly impressive. Every scene played out in my mind like a film, and your dialogue flows like something straight off a bookshelf.

Your writing naturally lends itself to visual storytelling, and I truly believe it has amazing potential as a graphic novel or comic. I'd be honored to collaborate and help bring your world to life through expressive cinematic art that captures the emotion and energy of your work.

No pressure at all just an open invitation to connect , If you're ever interested feel free to message me or reach out on,
Discord: flemingmichelle
I'd love to explore the possibilities with you!
I hope you will like my words!
Warm regards,

That is a straight cut-and-paste from the DM I got. Typos and all. Including the comma after "Warm regards" without any sort of signature to follow.

This year has been a classic case of "Be careful what you wish for...." I had been whining for years about the lack of interaction with my stories. Be it low hit counts, few comments/reviews, no inclusion in anyone's fic recommendations (outside of that one person who recommended Peeping Tomcat to me!), virtually no fanart, or even friends/family talking to me about my stories. Now I get a new message weekly - I'm up to 31 DMs, which is actually MORE than one/week - but every last one is a bot. I finally have the engagement I wanted, but it's not from actual people, and it seems to simply be a scam to get me to pay them for art (that I may or may not actually get, and if I do get any it will most likely be AI generated junk). 

Worst yet, these bots are feeding me things I wish people genuinely felt about my work! I want to let myself believe these DMs are real. Why can't they just be real?

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I'm exhausted. I'm struggling to not just curl up in a ball and cry. Thank God for those YPNTC reviews!

It's little wonder that my motivation to even attempt to write anything is drying up when my audience (for non-smut, at least) seems to be exclusively bots. And, because of this invasion on my FFN and FP accounts, I have to side-eye every single "Guest left kudos" I get for my fics on AO3. Especially because there's been this resurgence of views and kudos for my Hey, Arnold! fics. Why were my works dormant for so long, only for people to NOW find my decade-old stories? Especially with nothing new going on in the HA fandom (that I'm aware of) that would maybe have people want to dig up those old fics.

Are those actual people doing HA deep-dives since the fandom seems to have dried up after The Jungle Movie was finally produced? Or are those hits and kudos just bots swarming AO3?

I hate that I don't know and I hate that I have to seriously consider just locking my account so only logged-in users can read my uploads. So, if you are someone who likes to read my stuff, but don't have an AO3 account to do so, I'm sorry, but you may be locked out of my stories soon. Let me know if you need an AO3 recommendation to set up an account faster than the 2 weeks average (is it still a 2 week wait normally???).

And no, I will not go over again my perpetual argument of "write for yourself" and how it means to write stuff you like to read, not literally "who cares if no one else reads it." I'm so tired of that debate.

All that aside, I will give this shining note of hope: I HAVE been mentally plotting out stupid little things - characters, really - thanks to D&D and TTRPGs in general.

Over on the Oxventure YouTube channel, they have been playing the game Deadlands. One of the game mechanics for Deadlands is the idea of Exploding Dice. It's something that has shown up a lot in TTRPGs lately. The basic concept is if you roll a target number - usually the highest value, such as a 6 on a 6-sided die (d6) - you get to reroll that die and add your previous roll to your new roll. For example, if you exploded your d6 you would reroll it, and if you got a 6 again, you get to reroll again. If you get a five that 3rd roll then your total would be 17 (6 + 6 + 5) instead of the initial 6 that you would have with more traditional rolling rules.

One of the TTRPGs that Hubby watched on Dimension 20 - "Never Stop Blowing Up" - had an evolution to the Exploding Dice mechanic. For that game, instead of the dice exploding, they "blow up". As stated in the official rules (which you can get for free), "Every time [someone] gets the highest value on their die, it Blows Up and that skill moves up to the next die type. Roll that new die and add the results to the current check."

For example, if someone rolled a 4 on their d4 they get to then roll a d6. If they get a 6 on that d6 they get to upgrade again to a d8. Let's say they then rolled a 4 on that d8. Their result would then be 14 (4 + 6 + 4) instead of just 4 that they would normally get with that initial roll in more traditional game mechanics.

Alternatively, I recently read a Reddit post about Cascading Dice, which does the same, but in reverse. For their example, a max-value d12 would then add a d10. If that also maxes out, you'd add a d8, so on and so forth, but capping at a 4 on a d4 since there are no smaller dice to cascade into. It causes a cap, but does still provide a far larger number than the die alone. A d12 cascading all the way into a d4 can get a max of 40. 

The reason I bring all of this up is because of the "Everybody is a Kobold" D&D one-shots I've offered to host whenever Hubby needs an off-week from running our campaign but we still want to play D&D in general. Hubby thought it would be fun to add the Blowing Up dice mechanic from Never Stop Blowing Up. The surviving kobolds are getting smarter, stronger, more charismatic, and hardier the longer they live and the more successful they become.

I loved the idea. So now, instead of rolling a standard d20 and adding the stat modifiers, the difficulty target number they have to reach will be adjusted and they all roll d4s and add their modifiers. If they explode the d4 they instantly roll a d6, so on and so forth. Then, the next time they roll for that stat, they use the last die they rolled and keep the explosions coming.

For instance, if a player has their kobold do something that requires strength and explode the d4 they then roll the d6. If that also explodes they roll the d8. If the d8 didn't explode then they start with a d8 the next time they roll for strength.

With this new mechanic in mind, I wanted to go back to my Kobold Gacha. The last time I hosted this game I wanted to give each kobold its own epithet and then give the character stat adjustments based on that epithet. For instance, Dabe the Medic has a +1 proficiency bonus to Medicine and Survival checks. With this Exploding Dice idea in mind, I wanted to also adjust some things there. Some examples would be Criknik the Cunning, who starts with a d6 instead of a d4 for their Charisma checks, Eggna the Altruistic, who can opt to pass their dice upgrades to a different player and keep rolling with the die that exploded, and Streki the Easily Discouraged, who has to roll the max number on a die twice (not necessarily in a row) before the die would be considered "exploded".

Not the most balanced game mechanic, but if everyone is playing a kobold anyway, might as well go full-chaos mode!

It's not fictional narrative writing, but it was still some semblance of creative expression as I came up with these kobold names, epithets, and character-specific mechanical quirks. Does that count? I say it counts at least a widdle bit.

Alternatively, going back to Dimension 20, the way that the main DM Brennan Lee Mulligan describes the different creatures and fantasy races and their respective cultures has gotten my wheels turning again. Oddly enough, not for D&D or my stories. Instead, Brennan describing fantasy races within his D&D world has me thinking of fleshing out more alien races for my Scum & Villainy campaign.

I haven't actually gotten anything down on the proverbial paper, but the itch is definitely there, and things are slowly percolating in my brain. We'll see if anything comes of that. 

So, two little blips of creativity for May. Better than none at all, but not the greatest. I need to find a way to get back into it for June. In a little over a week is the next Friday 13th. Do I finally start watching Season 6 of Miraculous Ladybug to maybe get back into the mindset of my Plagg Appreciation Day stories? Will I have a new ML one-shot to share at the end of the month?

Only time can tell. As of right now, my May Bluescreening has continued, so I am completely blank on ideas for any Plagg-centric stories, but we'll see.

In the meantime, what blessing do I have for May?

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I tried thinking about this for three days. Yet another reason this update is so belated. However, outside of those two reviews on You Pretended Not to Care, which I already mentioned were life preservers for my writing, I haven't really had any blessings within the writing portion of my life. Sad to say.

So, instead, I'll go for something a bit more general to close out this update with some positivity.

Work has been hectic. It's been crazy. We've been scrambling to fix clerical errors and appease entitled and cranky customers. We've worked long weeks as we adjusted our schedules around everyone's vacations - and by "everyone" I mean my manager's and my coworker's - as well as my coworker picking up an extra day per week working in a different store. Coordinating when we need her versus when they need her has been far more complicated than it ever needs to be.

I've dealt with colleagues being incompetent and having to clean up their mess. I've dealt with representatives from other companies that we partner with who also seem to frequently drop the ball. I've called out my manager's boss whenever he's fallen behind on tasks.

My job has been far more stressful than it really ever should be. Hooray for entitlement and/or incompetence. 

That all said, both my manager AND her boss - especially after I've oh-so-kindly remind him of tasks he's fallen behind on - have verbally told me with a sincere tone how much they appreciate me and my work and how on top of things I am. Honestly, I'd prefer a show of appreciation via a pay-raise, but, in lieu of that, it means a lot for my bosses to acknowledge me.

It's the same thing I had to tell myself waaaaaay back when I first got into the work force and had to deal with people mad at me for things outside my control: as long as the ones who are signing my paycheck think I'm doing a great job, that's all that matters. Everyone else can be mad at me and try to throw me under the bus, but as long as my boss(es) knows the truth and will back me up, who cares?

Getting that sincere, "Thank you so much for being here and for everything you do. I don't know how we'd keep everything together without you," really means a lot.

(Not as much as if that appreciation translated into getting paid OVER minimum wage, but at least it helps my morale a bit.)

Anyway, here's hoping I can find something equally promising with regards to my writing this month. I want a writing-focused blessing to share with you in *checks calendar* dear lord, twenty-some days.... That's going to fly, isn't it?

In the meantime, I'm off to catch up on Dracula Daily finally.... catch you in 10 days (or so) for June's LycoRogue's Reading Corner.

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