Showing posts with label Pride Month. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pride Month. Show all posts

Tuesday, June 30, 2020

Proud Shout Outs and Story Suggestions

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I know that it's the final day of Pride Month, and that this has been a particularly hard month for various reasons. Still, I hope people were able to embrace who they were and found safe spaces to just be them. Enjoy this final day of Pride Month, friends, but please carry that pride and love and strength throughout the rest of the year as well.

You are loved exactly how you are.
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Getting to the point of this blog, I'd like to apologize for missing last week. I had no clue what to talk about because, you guessed it, I haven't written a dang thing. As I tried to mentally plot out what to discuss, I figured I'd check in on a Facebook message from ChibiSunnie. Next thing I know, I'm sending the poor girl an 11pg letter and it was time to pick Hubby up from work! I had debated working on a blog post after picking him up and doing our grocery shopping. Problem there, though, is a) we wouldn't be home until after 1pm, b) it's been taking me 4+ hours to write my posts lately, so this would take up my entire afternoon, c) I still wasn't sure what to talk about, d) I had chores I really needed to get back into a consistent routine with again, and e) I was already getting exhausted and needed something mindless to do.

So, no blog post last week.

The week before, I had continued working on my blog post after picking Hubby up from work, and it kept me until about 3:30 to finish. By the time I was done, I was so drained I ended up napping for about an hour or so. I just didn't have the energy to even promote it. All the more reason I didn't want to bother last week. So, if you did manage to find and read that post from a couple of weeks ago, thank you. This is why I have that email alert option, so you don't miss a post even when I'm too lazy to promote my own work!


Anyway, here we are again, with me STILL not writing anything. I was tempted to also skip today because, well, I'm sure you are sick and tired of reading me go "meh, no writing this week..." for months on end. I know I'm tired of writing it.

However, first and foremost, since I didn't write last week, I didn't promote the week before, and I totally forgot I was writing in June that first week, I wanted to make sure to get today's blog post done in order to have a proper "Happy Pride Month" in just before the month ended.

Secondly, I needed to make sure I got a shout out to my mom. Yesterday marked 25years since she was declared officially cancer-free; kicking breast cancer's ass when she was younger than I am now!
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I'm bummed that this year Hubby and I weren't able to go visit her, for safety reasons among others, but I did get a chance to chat with her last night. She sounded like she managed to still properly celebrate. She told me this year was the one she was most looking forward to:
Mom: "Five years meant I could breathe [the cancer probably wasn't coming back]. Ten years meant I could ease up [on my vigilance]. Fifteen years meant I was probably safe. Twenty years meant it was highly unlikely it would return. Twenty-five years meant I could finally relax."
Well, you did it, Mom! You can start to relax a bit. May the next 25 years go a LOT smoother for you, and a lot less stressful.
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Along with those shout outs, I also had three stories I wanted to promote. None of them are mine, of course, but all three are great reads and on-going projects.

First up, we have a two-fer from zenmisery.

FINALLY having both the time and mental energy to read some fanfic, I started up Zen's story Dressed to Confess.
Summary: A lonely and forlorn Chat comes to visit his Princess and ends up keeping her company every night leading up to her last-ditch effort to capture Adrien’s attention.

Rating: Teen
Current Word Count: 8548
Status: On-going; 4 chapters; updated every week or so
This is an awesome story with just the perfect balance of rot-your-teeth-out fluff and breaks-your-heart angst. Adrien has been feeling particularly dejected at home, so, as Chat Noir, he goes to visit Marinette. He knows she's making an elaborate and gorgeous gown in order to make herself - as she put it - look as beautiful as possible before FINALLY confessing how she feels to her crush. She figures it's all or nothing. If the dress turns out the way she wants, and she feels she's going to look as gorgeous a she's gonna get, and he still rejects her, then she'll finally start to move on.

Chat Noir of course has no clue who she's talking about, and assumes she's talking about Luka, and gets small pangs of jealousy that "this idiot" hasn't already realized how amazing Marinette is and scooped her up. As the story progresses, Chat Noir is all but convinced to do the same with Ladybug: confess one last time, and if she still rejects him it's time to finally move on. The decision to give up on Ladybug becomes easier for Chat Noir to make when he starts to realize that maybe he has fallen in love with Marinette.

The fourth chapter just went up, so I haven't had a moment to read it yet, but the story is already so lovely, and I'm curious how the Love Square is going to collapse in on itself as the story progresses.

Now, while I have been waiting for updates on Dressed to Confess, I've been reading the other story that Zen recently started up. Excuse the pun, but this one is a much darker story overall.
Summary: Lost in complete darkness, Marinette comes across a child who has just been through the same ordeal she went through. Except, she doesn’t know what that ordeal is, how to find his mother, or how she’s going to explain if he ever sees her face when he’s already identified her as Ladybug and she can’t find Tikki.

Rating: Teen
Current Word Count: 8266
Status: On-going; 4 chapters; updated every week or so
Talk about a consistent writer, right? Both stories updated at about the same pace, both have 4 chapters up right now, and both are roughly the same word-count.

Anyway, this story is a gritty and intense story, especially compared to Dressed to Confess. Personally, I am amazed by her ability to switch story vibes as regularly as she does.

In the Dark deals with a great mystery of what exactly happened to everyone. Marinette wakes up with a headache; probably a concussion. Tikki is missing, with no explanation yet as to how or why; not even Marinette remembers. She then has to navigate the pitch black in a rubble-filled collapsed building with a small child in tow she quickly stumbles upon. The boy Luc had asked if she was Ladybug, and she went with that persona despite the lack of powers or suit, as a means to keep the child calm. The "lie" gets a bit more complicated when she runs into Nino in the dark, and then hears Chat Noir's voice. If she's brought into the light before she can find Tikki and properly transform, her secret may be out. She has more to worry about, though, such as the safety of herself, her friends, the child, and his mother. Finally, since she couldn't remember if the damage was caused by an akuma, Marinette has no clue if she can repair the damage that Paris has suffered. The potential inability to repair what happened becomes heavier as Marinette's head wound seems to get worse, and one of her friends is found injured.

I am on the edge of my seat reading through everything, wondering what could possibly go wrong next. It is completely gut-wrenching and the hits come frequently, but in the best way as the stakes keep increasing. The current chapter pattern has also been bouncing between Marinette's POV and Alya's which is great as the two best friends are currently separated. This way you can also get a glimpse of what the rest of Marinette's class is up to during the destruction. The mysteries of what caused everything, how Marinette is going to get out of her identity predicament, where Tikki even is, can the damage be repaired, how are they going to collectively make it to safety, and will everyone be alright just keeps me wanting more.

And when it gets too intense, you can just hop back over to Dressed to Confess or some of her other fluffy stories to get the warm fuzzies again.

Jumping fandoms, Cyhyr uploaded her latest chapter of Displaced by Time.
Summary:
Vesper Scienta wanted nothing more out of life than to make sure her charge and best friend, Prince Aster Amicitia, was happy. She would follow him, always, and keep him safe, as her appointment as Shield dictates she must. She was happy. They were happy.
Then they found the Messengers.
Now she's flitting through time itself, racing against the weakening pulse of the Crystal. It's been almost nineteen years since the Dawn Returned, and the world needs saving again. Vesper just doesn't understand why it has to be her, or why the Messengers separated her and Aster, or why they paired her with the daughter of the Marshal and the son of the King of Light - both from different times.
Time's running out. The star will burn. Raise the dawn, become the night, restore the Crystal.
Vesper just wants to be with Aster again.


Rating: Teen
Current Word Count: 23,043
Status: On-going; 3 chapters
As a refresher, this is a mostly original story taking place within the world of Final Fantasy XV. It follows a party of original characters, with the canon characters sprinkled in as support and timeline guideposts. Very much like how X-Future was.

I do not follow this fandom at all, and my knowledge of this game specifically was mostly learned via Cyhyr's Tumblr posts, but I am still adoring this story. There are time travel and parallel world shenanigans, and parallel stories to the main game storyline. I'm always a sucker for those types of stories. I've also already grown to love Cy's original characters, and I'm rooting them on. I'm curious about their different timelines, and how their parallel universes both differ and connect. We also haven't had any confirmation yet that the timeline the trio is currently on is part of Vesper's or Voti's past, or if this is a completely separate universe than even either of them are from. It's complicated, but intriguing as you try to figure it out alongside the characters. There's also this struggle between duty to save the planet as a whole versus taking the chance to save a loved one, and already two of the characters have been struggling with that choice.

Things get even more complicated in the third chapter as one of the characters tries to save a parent who never actually fathered children in the timeline they're currently on, but you can still sense this emotional cry to save him regardless, and you hope that they succeed in doing so.

I'm sure the story is much more entertaining for any who played the game and can see the game story plot points played out in a different perspective, as well as see how Vesper's actions - and that of her partymates - either affect the timeline, or cause a canonical event to happen regardless (or because of) her intervention. Still, without knowing the canonical story, I'm enjoying this hardy read. It is a bit confusing for non-fandom members, mostly because it's rough to gauge where the characters are in relation to different important cities and the significance of their locations across the whole continent's layout, but it is still written well enough to be followable and entertaining.

Now to get my OWN writing in gear.

Mouse lit a fire under her own butt this past week, and sent me an article about persevering against fear. I'm going to try to follow her lead and see if I can find time to finally just sit and think and create again.

I do miss it.

As I try to re-center myself this July and re-find that 2017/2018 self that managed to create and complete Peeping Tomcat, I also wish to leave you with this reminder:
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Love you, friends. Stay safe out there.

Tuesday, June 16, 2020

A Rambling Catch-up

I honestly went into this post with no clue what I was going to write about. This week has been a crazy-busy blur.

Last week I had a rare Monday as my second day of the week off, so I've been working straight through since Wednesday until yesterday. I'm still trying to get back into the rhythm of getting ready for work every morning. Some days I run out of time for breakfast and have to bring it with me to have at my desk. Others I have to wrestle to tie my hair completely back because I ran out of time to dry or straighten it. Others still, I actually get ready with loads of time to spare, but STILL nearly run late for work because I get sucked into a project to kill that spare time.

By the end of the week, I think I've managed to FINALLY get my timing more-or-less figured out. Since Hubby started going into work at 6am during the pandemic, I've now gotten used to waking up at that more decent time, as opposed to the 7:30/8:00 we used to wake up at. I've been able to get ready for work within my usual 90-some minutes that I was able to do before coronavirus hit. Which usually leaves me with an hour or so before work, so I do most of my Animal Crossing dailies as a means to kind of meditate and get myself in a good mood before work. Also helps cut down the amount of time I'm on the game post-work.

At least... that was supposed to be the idea.... I'll get to that.

While at work, there is still a LOT to play catch-up on. For instance, updating price tags from pre-corona that were up in March. Also, couple of years ago, my manager asked me to come up with info and customization tags for the different furniture pieces we sell, and then last year she asked me to also create sizing tags. So I had to go through and double check that they were all still accurate. Spoiler: a lot of them were not. The manufacturers have added or removed features on a lot of frames, so I had to update pretty much every tag. Meh. It gave me a chance to also spruce up the tag designs to make them more "fresh" looking. On top of that, we've received a bunch of new pieces to fill in the holes we had on the floor just before shutdown, so I had to research those to get the info and customization tags made up for them.

Lastly, we're getting ready for our Independence Day sale already, so I had to do up the promotional price tags for our mattress line-up, which took me two days because the coworker that explained the sale to me is TRASH at explaining anything, so I ended up having to re-do the tags a few times before I FINALLY figured out what he was trying to tell me.
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I'm also supposed to create a poster for a new base we're giving away as part of our mattress sale, but the only photo-editing program owned by the company is in our corporate office nearly an hour away, and I'm not about ready to give up a day off to go down there and create the poster, and I'm sure my manager isn't going to have her or my other coworker give up one of THEIR days off to cover one of my work days so I can go down to the office to work... so I've been trying to find other ways of creating this poster in a high enough resolution that it can be printed as a professional-quality poster.

AND I'm also trying to keep up with the company's social media accounts, including researching our vendors and products so I can throw up informative tidbits about them once a week, and trying to come up with cute little furniture-themed memes to engage customers and give them a reason to want to check out our page, even if it's for a weekly chuckle.
My attempt to be humorous.
This is probably why I don't make more meme-content....
While my coworkers are still complaining about the store being slow - although, we had a decent turnout this weekend - and how they're bored because their To Do lists are vastly shorter than mine, I'm running around all day.

And I had TRASH shoes to do that in - cheap things I grabbed at Walmart when that was the only thing open when I got back to work and needed closed-toe nice shoes again - so my feet and legs and hips were SOOOOOO FRIGGEN SOOOOORE when I got home each night.

I have since made it to a proper shoe store and purchased replacement shoes, as well as throwing out the ones that have been killing me... they were already wearing through! Feet are still sore as I break in the new shoes, but at least my legs and hips aren't as bad. So... win?
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Anyway, between my apartment being too hot to exercise in, my knee acting up and clicking badly just about any time I bent it, and now this issue with my legs, hips, and feet, I haven't Zumba'd in nearly a month. I'm going to be in a LOT of pain when I can finally get back to it.


My nights had therefore been spent with my feet elevated across the arms of my loveseat as I either played more AC:NH, watched Netflix with Hubby, or had a streaming Anime Night with Hubby and Omnibladestrike. We had actually been doing the Anime Streaming Night once a week for the better part of a month now, as a way to try to get back into our social routine while still social distancing.

Although, on Sunday, Hubby and I bought a TV for the bedroom so he can hide away and play his games in there when I need the living room, when I'm doing Zoom meetings for Zumba or family get-togethers or when I'm doing webinars, when he just wants to play something stupid in the background to help lull him to sleep, or when it's too hot in the rest of the apartment and it's cooler in the bedroom. It also means we can go back to properly snuggling while watching TV together. Which is what we did Sunday night.

Plus, being able to properly lounge instead of my awkward sprawl across the loveseat is helping my legs and feet.
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Speaking of lounging and playing AC:NH, Hubby and I are to the point where our islands are mostly about daily chores, but even said chores aren't really needed. We don't really NEED to find our 4 fossils every day since both of our fossil sections in our museums are completed, and I believe our friends' fossil sections are too, so there's not really much need of evaluating the fossils either. I mean, we both still need to have fossils evaluated to finish off the Nook Miles goal, and it's usually a Miles+ goal every morning, but both of us have over 100,000 Nook Miles anyway, and nothing to really spend them on.

We don't need to find our daily money spot or money rock, because we both have multi-million bells in our accounts, and not nearly enough to spend them on.

We don't need to find our two free items in the trees, because both of our house storage is close to maxed out and we're just selling nearly everything right now anyway. Plus, it's rare that we'll find something we actually like or is new to us.

Our flowers and villagers, with the programming for this game, are now fairly self-sufficient as well, and neglecting them for a day or two or three really won't hurt much of anything.

There's almost nothing new in Nook's Cranny, and Hubby doesn't buy up clothes like I do. Even so, aside from socks, which I barely buy, it's hard for me to find something at Able Sisters or with Kicks that I haven't already purchased. Right now I'm just spending bells buying items so they go into my catalog to re-purchase at a later date if I so wish, and then selling the items I didn't particularly like in the first place, because I just don't have the space.

So, yeah, neither of us truly need to play daily anymore. Hubby is done terraforming, and he seems pretty set on his villagers. I still need to re-arrange a bunch of stuff, but I don't have the energy to map out my island right now, so that project is on hold. Neither of us need fossils or bells or Nook Miles or free items. We don't really need to bother hitting up either of the shops or the traveling vendors; definitely not Leif since we're set on the shrubs and flowers on our islands, but MAAAAYBE Saharah even though we're close to getting all of her flooring and wallpaper options. Hitting up CJ or Flick would be nice, at least, to get the commissioned statue made, but otherwise, we don't NEED the bells, even if they're nice to get.

Truly the only real reason to log on each day is to see if Redd is visiting so we can try to get more artwork. We're finally up to, I think, five pieces each?

HOWEVER, right when I go back to work and really don't have much post-work time to play anymore, right when I thought I didn't NEED to play all that much anymore because I don't really NEED the fossils or bells or items or clothing or Nook Miles, right when I thought I could step away from the game and maybe transition to playing Two Point Hospital more, or start up Link's Awakening on the Switch, that's when we find out that June is Wedding Season, and you can earn Heart Crystals by visiting Harv's Island daily and stage wedding photos for Cyrus' and Reese's wedding anniversary celebration.

Staging the photos alone has been so much fun - I love weddings! - albeit a bit time consuming. And the fact that Reese asks for something new each day is also fun. Cyrus also added more wedding-related items to a special catalog each day for the first ten or so days. So you could get a new wedding-themed item daily, and use the heart crystals you earned to buy even more items. Between starting these dailies late and forgetting to hit up Harv's Island 2 or 3 times since I started, I think I've done the photos something like 10 out of the possible 15 days. Cyrus has stopped adding new pieces, and Reese has stopped giving me a new item, but I can still earn up to 15 crystals a day. At least, I haven't surpassed 15 crystals ever, so I'm assuming that's the max amount. There are a lot of items that I can only buy during June, and June is the only time I can earn crystals for them. So I'm currently in the process of earning as many crystals as I can to then splurge at the end of the month.

Hubby's in the mindset of "meh, I'll just snag things next June" but I don't know if I'll a) still be playing the game daily by then, or b) remember to log back onto the game in June if I have stopped hitting it up daily before then.

So... yeah... With all of that going on, I haven't had much middle-road down time. I'm either going full-steam and can't stop to do things like enjoy my own social media accounts, read, write, or even brainstorm further, or I'm so burnt out that I have to do something that requires little thought, like the Animal Crossing tasks that are pure routine for me by now, or mindlessly watching something on Netflix, or focusing purely on reading subtitles while watching anime. The extent of my creativity has been working on those Facebook posts for work, and staging the wedding photos in AC:NH.

That said, I DID manage to get ONE thing read over the week. It was a relatively short fanfic that I read while on my lunch break (I may have unofficially made it an extended lunch break, but my feet were killing me, and I just needed to recoup for a bit).

You might remember me gushing about mostlovedgirl during the Love Square Fluff Week event leading into Valentine's Day. Well, she posted a cute little slice-of-life fluff piece that I absolutely adored.

Summary: Preparation for Fashion Week is keeping Marinette at her studio tonight far later than she intended. She's about to go home for the night, but her plans are derailed when she discovers a giant blanket fort in her office.
It is so cute to see adult Adrien and Marinette happily married, and to see their children fleshed out. It's a small story, but you can still get a sense of their family life, and the individual personalities of the kids. You also get to see Adrien's own problem-solving skills, as well as how much of a leader their oldest has already become; taking after her mother. Plus, you see both Adrien's and Marinette's concerns about their parenting and balancing work-life. You just get this great view into their lives, and feel like you more-or-less know everything, as if you were still watching their day-to-day. There's also these really great one-liners... just... go read it. We all need some fluff in our lives right now, to get a brief break from everything, and I recommend this one, even if you aren't already in the fandom.

Sadly, while I got an email alert that zenmisery posted her latest story Dressed to Confess on the same day, and it just got a second chapter either last night or this morning, I haven't had a moment to go through that one yet. Next on the To Do list!
Dressed to Confess Summary: A lonely and forlorn Chat comes to visit his Princess and ends up keeping her company every night leading up to her last-ditch effort to capture Adrien’s attention.
I'm looking forward to getting to this one. Also for Cyhyr's latest chapter of Displaced by Time.

Now, with all of this being said, let's not forget that there are still battles to be had.

Yeah, sorry, I'm taking a turn for the serious again.

Last time I checked, which, to be fair, was Saturday, the cops that killed Breonna Taylor not only haven't been arrested yet, but they're also still on the police force with little to no repercussions for her murder.

Sure, there's now a law making no-knock warrants, like the one that resulted in Taylor's death, illegal in Louisville and it was named after her, but it's not a nation-wide law, and creating a law to help prevent more Breonna Taylor tragedies doesn't give HER justice.

Another young black man - Rayshard Brooks - was shot and killed by police over the weekend after they confronted him while asleep and possibly intoxicated in his car in a Wendy's drive-thru.

The push-back against BLM by trying to villainize George Floyd - as if that justified his death, let alone HOW he died - has been ramping up. There is also confusion and push-back against #DefundThePolice and #AbolishThePolice and #8CantWait.

I'm far from an expert, but here's what I've been able to gather up in SUPER simplified and general terms.

While there may be extremists who do mean that they just don't want the concept of police to exist anymore, MOST people seem to agree that we do still need police, but just on a Much MUCH MUUUUUCH smaller scale than what we see today.

Basically, the idea is that part of the problem with the police as-is is that they just have too much on their plates, and they literally cannot be trained to handle everything they're forced to. They should be reserved for combating violent crimes where they are the shield for innocents most white people believe they are. That, and, of course, detectives to solve crimes that have been committed. However, cops are also called for domestic disputes, non-violent drug violations and offenses, mental health situations, homeless problems, guarding students within their schools, car accidents, and other such situations where an armed person might not be needed, or might actually escalate a situation instead of de-escalate it.

The concept of Defund the Police is pointing out that, in most American cities and larger towns, the police force gets the lion's share of the budget, which leaves less than half to split between infrastructure, schools, mental health services, social services, homelessness solutions, public transportation, etc. Instead, these bloated police department budgets would be cut, and the funds would instead go to those other organizations/departments. Then, those other, now better-funded, organizations can take care of those situations where an armed officer might not be the best idea.

Schools could invest in keeping their students safer, and find alternatives to armed guards patrolling the halls. They can better educate students, and have the means to better handle students that might have hard home lives, or mental health issues, or are neurodivergent and don't learn by standard means. Educating the youth and creating productive after-school programs that are free for the kids helps diminish crimes, and helps lift the entire community.

Invest in the future, and all that.

Mental health facilities can bring on more employees and better training. They could provide free assistance for those who can't otherwise afford help. The police are woefully under-trained for dealing with people with mental health problems, so having people whose whole job is to be specially trained to help these people would also lower the need for cops. And, if the person gets violent to the point where an armed officer might be needed, it's easy enough for the assigned social worker to call in back-up. It could even set up on the same network as the police so back-up can be called in just as quickly as if a cop were the one requesting it.

Drug rehab centers, support groups, and other such assistance can either be better funded or just straight up BUILT to help people recover. And, they can have their own mental health care workers that are specially trained to find the causes of addiction and the best methods to help someone stay sober. Throwing drug offenders into jail - assuming it's consuming and not trafficking - isn't helping them at all, but having these services could very much help them.

More assistance for those that are homeless - shelters, food banks, job training, job coaches, drug rehab, mental health evaluation and assistance, etc - will help ease the homelessness problem. It will get people help that they most likely aren't getting in jails. It humanizes them instead of criminalizing and demonizing them. It could help them get back on their feet, give them back their dignity, and help them back into productive society.

More money funneling into the DMV will help with road maintenance and can also go towards more traffic signs, lights, crosswalks, etc to help keep people safe and try to minimize the number of traffic accidents that police respond to. Also, if there's a shift so that DMV workers are the ones going to traffic accidents, calling first-responders to the scene, etc, it will cut down even more on what the police have to shoulder and train for on the day-to-day. And, if it's a situation that calls for the police to investigate, it should be fairly easy for the DMV employee to then report it to the cops.

For instance, when I slid off the road last winter, but was otherwise fine and just needed a tow back onto the road, I didn't really need the cops there except for their lights to alert the other drivers to be careful. The DMV could get hazard lights like that. The tow truck already has lights like that.

I could go on, but I think you get the point.

Also, as a post that's been floating around the internet has already said (I'm paraphrasing because I can't find the exact post now):
You are all so enraged by the concept of defunding the police, but none of you seem to mind that they've been defunding your schools for years now.
With regards to Abolish the Police, again, it's a spectrum of supporters. There are those who, again, believe the concept of armed guards patrolling the streets and answering calls about crimes - both real and perceived - is dated and should just end completely. However, it seems most supporters just wish for the abolishment of the existing police, and for a new, better trained and re-imagined department to replace the old.

While it is just one city, and probably shouldn't be used as the Gold Standard of whether or not this concept works, Camden, New Jersey is an interesting case study, as it were.

The police department in Camden was deemed too "far gone" to be properly reformed. The systemic issues - with race inequality and other problems - were just rooted too deep to get the existing officers to comply with any sort of reform. So, seven years ago, the entire police force was disbanded; abolished. The police were re-imagined in an attempt to get them to work alongside the community better and help everyone feel safer. Then, new recruits were brought in. The pre-existing officers were allowed to re-apply for their jobs, and around 100 of them did return to the force. Presumably, after proving that they were the "good cops" that people keep stating exist, and proving that they would gladly embrace their New Normal (see how I brought that back from last week? Eh?).

The police force isn't perfect by any means, and things seem to have taken a turn for the worse in the transitional years between abolishing the existing force and fully staffing the new once, and there's the added caveat that there's a lot of other underlining factors that most reports aren't including, but the criminal stats for Camden have shown improvements since 2013.

Here are a couple of articles and a video I found on the concept of Camden and abolishing the police:
Again, take everything with a grain of salt, because Camden, I believe, is still the most dangerous city in New Jersey, but that's an improvement from being the most dangerous city in the entire country.... Right?

Point is, much like the situation with Camden, the arguments for Defund the Police and Abolish the Police are varied, nuanced, on a bit of a spectrum, but, as a whole, are good concepts and cries for a re-imagining of the police force.

For a much more comprehensive look at these concepts, here are some articles and videos on the subject to help get you started:
Now, the #8CantWait movement seems to lean heavily on the "fully abolish the police; we don't need people with badges and guns" camp, but their list of 8 police reforms that MUST happen NOW is still a good concept that should definitely be taken into consideration, as well as their view on how to prevent or otherwise deal with crimes in communities without a police force. Use that as a guideline to at least - as Dr. Goff mentioned in that Rachel Maddow interview linked to above - reduce the footprint of the police.
Image taken from 8cantwait.org
It is definitely a lot easier to understand what this movement is trying to achieve because they DO have a centralized website to explain it. The link is in the image caption, but I'll put it here as well:


So, the fight continues on. I'm still a bit drained from all of the information I'm trying to absorb and re-distribute. I again own my White Privilege by stating that I was able to grow up not having to know about all of this, or learn how to consume all of this daily. I was raised to be "color blind" to race, and thought that made me a decent and non-racist person. I've since learned how terribly wrong that practice actually is, despite the well-meaning intentions, but, still, I had the privilege to at least BELIEVE that it was a good practice while I was growing up. I also believed that calling America a "melting pot" meant we were unified. (I have since grown to love the idea of America being a salad: each bit is individual and unique, and can hold its own on its own, but makes up something better when combined; with the additions each individual celebrated and enhancing the whole.)

I hope we don't let up quite yet. I hope everyone keeps fighting and meaningful changes do happen.

I also hope we remember to keep fighting for the LGBTQIA+ community as well. There was a major blow to the Trans community by way of Trump revoking their health protections, allowing health care providers to deny service to transgendered peoples. On the plus side, though, the Supreme Court ruled that the Civil Rights Act also prohibits employers from firing someone based on their sexual orientation or for being transgender. So, kind of a mixed bag of news there....

It also reminds me, with all the craziness that's been going on in the world this month, I totally forgot this:
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While there have already been such highs and lows this month, and it may seem awkward to be joyous and proud with everything going on right now, I want you do it up anyway.

Be proud. Be joyous. Enjoy who you are and help others embrace themselves as well.

Know that I love you, and I will Mama Bear for each of you.
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To finish off this crazy post, I want to warn everyone that I might have to find a way of reviewing comments before they post. I haven't found that option on Blogger yet, but I'll have to look further into it.

This past week I've been basically deleting a new spam comment on my posts daily. I'm actually up to 9 spam comments since the start of June, 7 this past week, and friggin' FIVE the past two days alone! It's the same spam message each time about "finding out your true name" or "find the true meaning of your name" or something like that.

There's supposed to be a fail-safe to make sure bots can't post comments, but clearly that has eased up, or the bots have been programmed smarter than the fail-safe. On the plus side, at least my blog has enough visibility for bots to find and attack it? Yay?

Oh well. I'm gonna end on a high note with these two pictures:


Tuesday, June 5, 2018

Feeling the Love

Being a new member of Tumblr means I pretty much can't scroll down my dash without getting a reminder that June is Pride Month!

So, if this applies to you, then you be proud of who you are! If you broke firmly out of the closet, be loud and don't back down. There is nothing wrong with you.

If you are still closeted, maybe use this month to find the support you need to bust out and show the world who you really are. You don't need the stress of hiding and always wondering if someone else will out you. Come out on your terms.

Finally, if you're closeted, and prefer to stay that way, know that you're not weak, nor are you fighting against progress for equal rights. If anything, not being "out, proud, and loud" is MORE equal than anyone else. If I don't have to go around posting everywhere and telling everyone "I'm a cis-female who likes males" then why do you have to go around quantifying yourself? So, just chill in that closet if it makes you feel better. You can still be proud in there.

Also...


And now back to our regularly scheduled program.

I was in a bit of a funk over the weekend, which meant I pretty much read the entire time, instead of writing. Thankfully, a couple of days of moping, reading, snuggling the hubby, and sleeping - coupled with some really awesome reviews on "Peeping Tomcat" - helped perk me up. Although, it did leave me a bit behind on my editing.

Not that it really matters. First of all, I have the chapter at about 90% where I want it to be anyway. Secondly, apparently I'm a lazy bum that waits until the last second regardless.

Yeah, the latest chapter of PT was very much like the akuma attack in the previous one: working on the prep-work all week, but didn't start actually WRITING until Thursday. I even purposely neglected writing Wednesday by spending the whole evening playing Mario Odyssey with Hubby. We hadn't played a video game in a while; we needed a date night.

Waiting until Thursday - partially because I lost track of what day of the week I was on - meant another chapter where I wrote until I fell asleep at my laptop, woke up to go to bed, and then got up at like 6am Friday morning to get the finishing touches done. At least this week I had Friday off, so I could crash again once the story was up.

The major snafu this time was that Hubby needed a ride into work, and I needed to get some maintenance done on my car. My mechanic is basically in the same shopping plaza as Hubby's work, so I figured I'd drop him off, then the car.

Thing is, Hubby needed to be at work by 8am, and I really needed that extra half-hour until my normal 8:30am updating time in order to finish last-minute edits. I figured I could take my laptop with me, drop Hubby off, go into the store to use their wifi to finish updates and publish, and then drop the car off.

Which would have worked perfectly, and mostly did, if it weren't for the fact that the wifi randomly had Archive Of Our Own blocked. I could get onto FanFiction and DeviantArt easily enough to update the story there, but AO3 was just straight up blocked for some strange reason.

So I updated on FFN and DA before dropping off the car. I'd have to update on AO3 once I got home.

Thing is, the mechanic has a bit of a pathetic waiting area, no free wifi to connect to, and tends to get overwhelmed with the number of cars he has to get through, so he never knows how long anything is going to take.

In truth? He never touched my car on Friday. I had to grab it to do Friday evening runs - including going to a D&D session - and then drop it back off so he would have it first thing Saturday morning. Thankfully, Hubby was off Saturday, and I can walk to work.

The other issue was in regards to where the mechanic is in relation to my house. While Omnibladestrike agreed to follow us to the mechanic from our D&D session, so he could then bring us home after we dropped the car off, I didn't have anyone during the day who could follow me around.

So, after dropping the car off in the morning, I walked the mile home. Meaning it was a little after 9am before I had internet access again and could post the latest chapter of PT on AO3. And then I had to walk a mile back Friday evening to pick up my car for my evening errand runs.

I then had to walk back to the mechanic one last time on Saturday, while firmly in my funk, in order to pick the car up after work. FUN!

At least I got some exercise in, right? Gave me time to ponder the rest of the story and what I need to do to finish it up before getting to work on the sequel. Something I'll talk about more in a minute, but first, how about I share the latest chapter of "Peeping Tomcat" with you guys?

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My original draft of the story had the latest chapter as the closing portion of the akuma attack chapter. However, Terravenger was running a bit long, and where I stopped just seemed fitting.

I was wondering if I should then inflate this 10th chapter to the normal 3000-word minimum the rest of my story has had thus far, but it didn't feel right. I didn't want to add fluff just for the sake of word counts. I mean, I re-hit my NaNo goal as it is. This chapter didn't even have 2000 words, and I am now up to 50,696 words overall. With five more chapters to go until I'm done. At LEAST five more; I might have to expand again depending on how the edits go.

So, to not add words just for the sake of adding words, I left this "baby" chapter. I had hoped those who had waited a week for an update and were used to a good 20-minute read would be alright with the short update and another week-long wait.

Based on the 24-hr stats, I did pretty decently with the "baby" chapter.
FFN: 617 views, 1 follower, and 3 reviews
AO3: 203 views, 7 kudos, 2 bookmarks, and 1 new review
DA: 18 views

Total Results: 838 views, 7 faves, 3 followers, and 4 reviews

Tumblr Notes: 1 like....

Reviews:
  1. "Non-existent crush my left foot."
  2. "Aw he gave her a hug... but poor Adrian! Also if he only knew how much Marinette actually watched him..."
(another Cassy1994 comment)
  3. "I love this fic so much right now! I tore thru all 10 chapters in about a day. ❤️❤️❤️ Can’t wait to see what happens next!"
  4.
See below for Jowy's review
Before getting to Jowy's review, I'd like to note that the one above with the hearts in it was on AO3, where I posted late, and that comment was posted at about 4:30 that same day. So "in about a day" was actually a span of 7-some hours, give or take, depending on when they found my story and/or if "about" a day meant they found it before the 1st and only just finished it at 4:30 on Friday.

Anyway, Jowy's review was as lovely as ever:
Jowy's Pixie: Awwww, poor Adrien. I just wanted to leap into the story and give him a huge hug. His mind is playing tricks on him, it wasn't his fault that he didn't make it to the akuma as things started heating up, but I can imagine as a superhero, he would feel responsible for not 'being there on time' and all that jazz. It must be extremely difficult for him. I can understand why he might feel inadequate compared to Ladybug and feel like he isn't needed and just gets in way, but it's still completely untrue. I just hope that he realises his worth soon.
          It was a really touching moment when Ladybug dashed over to comfort him. They were so in character for that entire scene and it was amazing to read. Also, it was quite funny to read Chat Noir noticing the similarities between Ladybug and Marinette, especially with the freckles. I was screaming at him, "come on, Chat, you're smart, work it out!" I just hope Ladybug can help snap Chat Noir out of this feeling of inadequacy if he can't snap out of it by himself.
          This chapter was awesome to read and I enjoyed every word. I can't believe there's only five chapters left now; that makes me sad. But still, I look forward to seeing how this story is going to end. I'm so excited for your next update! Keep up the great work!
Jowy's really knows how to motivate a gal. The encouragement didn't end there. On Sunday I received two more reviews, but let's see how the week looks thus far.
FFN: 1068 views, 2 faves, 6 followers, and 5 reviews
AO3: 279 views, 11 kudos, 3 bookmarks, and 2 reviews
DA: 21 views and one new fave

Total Results: 1368 views, 14 faves, 9 followers, and 7 reviews

Tumblr Notes: Still only that 1 like...

FFN reviews:
  1. "uffff I feel so anguished while reading this, great fic, really good"
  2. "Ohhhh so much pain!"


  - See below for the longer AO3 review
I have to say that the AO3 review was another one of those gushy comments that makes my heart swell up!
FlamboyantTurtledove: Okay wow...just wow...
          I AM COMPLETELY WITHOUT A DOUBT IN LOVE WITH THIS FIC AAAHHHHH
          No but seriously I can't stress how much I love it so far! Everything is just as it is on the show!! I love getting to listen in on Adrien’s inner thoughts. It’s rare that we get to see things from his perspective but you captured his personality perfectly! Alya once again playing match maker with Nino supporting her and her antics was executed flawlessly and omg Marinette’s rambling ugh I love her rambling in this so much it’s like I’m watching the actual show! Lastly I loved the Akuma scene it was so well done! their banter was absolutely spot on (no pun intended). I can’t wait to see where this goes! Have a great day!
They commented on the 6th chapter, so I'm not sure if they finished reading all 10, but still... EEEEEEEEEEE
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Because I'm not already fired up enough to FINALLY get to the chapter that started it all. Yup! That's right. That "writing practice" I did during last year's Writers' Huddle summer writing challenge? The one that became the teaser chapter that I put up last fall? Yeah. FINALLY getting to posting that chapter this Friday!

I have some tweaking to do still now that I've thrown way more existential crisis and inner turmoil at Adrien. Namely, I realized that I solved the "do I chose Marinette or stick with Ladybug" crisis in my current draft, but I didn't touch:
 - Adrien's sense of inadequacy as Chat Noir
 - Adrien hiding from Marinette that he's been spying on her
 - Adrien's offer to show Marinette's portfolio to his father

Soooo I should probably work on tying those lose ends up too.... Not all in the next chapter, obviously, but I need to set it up for the following chapters. It will be tricky to work them in somehow, but all of my chapters from here on out are struggling to hit my average 3000 word count anyway, so I have room to grow.

Then again, I've been getting probably the most love on this "baby" chapter, so maybe I DO write too-long chapters.

Do readers like quick 2000-words-or-fewer chapters that they can breeze through? Do they prefer nice, larger 4000-word chapters after waiting a week, so it feels "worth" the wait? Does the word count not matter and everyone is just in love with the low-point anguish?

It really doesn't matter what the answers are, because I'm going to write how the story needs me to write, but it would be interesting to know.

Also, fun side note, my average weekly review count is about four or five, with two of them being my repeat readers cassy1994 and Jowy's Pixie. The only time I surpassed five reviews for the week was when I had nine that first week. I'm already up to seven reviews for the week. We'll see how much more love I get between now and the next chapter going up on Friday.

OH! Speaking of love. The fanfic that Omni's been working on to help him rework his writing muscles is up. We finished the edits on Sunday, so if you see any typos you can blame me as his beta-reader....

It's within the Touhou Project fandom, but I was intrigued even without knowing much about the games. Go give the man some love.


Now, I don't know if he's going to read that at group tonight, but I know for certain that I have no clue what I'm going to read. My chapters are super long, and so I take up so much time if I read off my chapters. Besides, the chapters I'd read to keep the group up-to-date have all been published already, so their comments would be a bit moot. I have already read the upcoming chapter to them before posting it back in September, so even though I've edited it, have I done so enough to bother re-reading? Especially since it was apparently so impactful the first time that one of the members gets confused that everything else I've read since then have been precursors to that chapter. She just keeps focusing on what I read in September.

So... win?

Also, no one seems all that invested in hearing fanfiction if they aren't in the fandom. As evidenced by one of our newest members reading off his Star Trek fanfiction. He got pretty much the same reaction as me: "um... yup.... that was good..."

I tried branching out a bit by reading off "Stranger in a White Dress" last time, but everyone picked up pretty quickly that it was a Miraculous Ladybug fanfic even though a) I didn't tell them it was, and b) neither Ladybug nor Cat Noir showed up anywhere in the story. In fact, the story takes place years before either are born.

So, do I just say "screw it" and read off the two other shorts I wrote for Tumblr? Or maybe the one writing practice I did during a writing date with Omni about a month ago?

Oh, and speaking of my other Tumblr exclusive shorts, pretty much since I've published it, "Kisses" has been my number one liked/commented on/reblogged post.

That is, until a couple of days ago.

Disney Channel created an original movie a few months back called "Z-O-M-B-I-E-S." It's a cute movie where, through technology I won't get into here, zombies are capable of living like normal humans, and so they are doing a trial integration run: the neighborhood zombie teens going to the human high school. Zed the zombie football player and Addison the human cheerleader have a sort of star-crossed love while zombies struggle to become accepted. Mixed within all this chaos is the football coach, who is probably my favorite character in the whole movie.

The lines this guy has are all gold, and the actor's delivery is beautiful. The whole thing just reeks with Millennial Life Struggles, and it is beautiful. Here's just a taste in probably the best scene this man has:
I loved this guy's lines so much I pretty much transcribed all of them into a Tumblr post. It has taken on a life of its own since then. The DCOM fanbase is rabid and spreads anything within the fandom just about as quickly as a zombie outbreak. So not only are people liking and sharing my post off my Tumblr, but they are reblogging off of someone else's reblog of someone else's reblog of my post. It's up to 48 notes - a combination of likes, reblogs, and comments - since I posted on May 26th. Comparatively, I posted "Kisses" on May 17th, and it also has 48 notes.

I guess I have to up my game and come out with a new exclusive short to dethrown my ZOMBIES post. I'll add it to the list of Writing To-Dos.

Speaking of... I signed up for July's Camp NaNoWriMo. I'm going to use it to really lock down the sequel to "Peeping Tomcat" so it could be ready for release by end of August/beginning of September.

In truth, I really wanted to have a seamless flow from PT to OatS. Posting the conclusion of "Peeping Tomcat" on July 6th, and then the first chapter of "One and the Same" on July 13th. Huh, another Friday the 13th....

Anyway...

I haven't even started writing the sequel though. Getting PT ready to publish has taken more time and effort than I originally thought. Besides, having six months anticipation since I posted the teaser for PT seemed to have really gotten hype up, so maybe having to wait a couple of months for the sequel will do the story good. Build up anticipation.

Point being, I'm going to try to use Camp NaNo to really get myself teed up for that sequel. July is probably more chaotic than November though. Between Independence Day, summer get-togethers, my birthday, and my nephew's birthday, I'm going to be on socializing overload in July. Especially since a cousin who lives on the other side of the country, and I've literally only seen about 3x my whole life, is coming out to visit his East Coast family. So my week vacation will pretty much consist of me driving to Pennsylvania, spending time with the cuz and his fam, celebrating my birthday with my mom and sister, whom I haven't seen in person since January, visiting my PA bestie and my godson, both of whom I haven't seen in close to a year, driving home, visiting our nephew for his birthday, and doing any socializing my friends here at home want to do for my birthday. Not to mention that two of my friends have their wedding anniversary at the end of the month, and another two of my friends have their daughter's birthday, although I don't know how involved in those celebrations I'll be....

There will be chaos, but I'm going to try to use Camp as a reason to hide in the corner and write at least for an hour or two each day.
Ending lines of the editing project Bright Wolf.
A lot of production students have to go through
editing this trash. XD
Well, speaking of writing chaos, I need to get to work on finishing up this week's chapter, as well as figure out what to read at group tonight. We were also asked to bring in our favorite writing quote, and I think I'm going with this one: