Tuesday, March 16, 2021

Inspiration From Everywhere!

Hey, peeps. Sorry about missing last week again. I ended up working and didn't do proper prep-work to get my post pre-written to make up for it. 

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My manager's daughter - after SIX MONTHS of BS red tape - managed to close on her first home, and my manager wanted to be there to help her daughter and son-in-law move into their new house. The closing was Monday, and my manager had Wednesday and Sunday off, so she asked if we could trade her Sunday for my Tuesday. That way she had two days in a row to help them set up.

I could have - and possibly should have - worked on my blog post last Sunday so it was ready for Tuesday. Instead, I was working on - GASP - fiction writing!
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In my promotion for my March 2nd blog post over on Tumblr, I had tagged carpisuns and linked to her fanart. I had talked briefly in that Tumblr promo how her artwork birthed a few plot bunnies that I was trying to wrangle. Upon reading that, she reblogged my promo for this blog, and added that she would love to read the story if I ever do get around to writing it.

Well, now I was extra motivated! I spent pretty much the rest of the week slowly grinding out the story. It took on many forms and went through many revisions. It also became a much larger story than I intended, clocking in just over 4200 words. Then again, it IS me, so I probably should have expected at least that much....

I had decided to tell the story through Marinette's point of view in a sort of Nick Carraway from The Great Gatsby style of narration. She's not the main focus even though she's who we see the story through, but she also kinda-sorta becomes the main focus??? It's weird. But I think it works.

Mostly, I think it works because Marinette keeps walking into Adrien and Alya's heated debates about who is the bigger Ladybug simp as these debates are already going. This way I didn't have to worry about how any of them start up in the first place, which was one of my big struggles. Also, this way we can get a better sense of Marinette's reaction to people battling over which one is her biggest simp. Something I couldn't really show from someone else's POV because Marinette is (mostly) careful to hide any reaction regarding Ladybug when she's Marinette. On the flipside, since Marinette - as Ladybug - knows that Adrien was Aspik, she can pick up on subtle hints of Adrien nearly revealing his superhero identity. She'd just misinterpret it as his time as Aspik instead of what he truly was going to reveal: he's Chat Noir. Finally, it was fun to have Marinette think and say things with regards to everything Adrien (as a citizen) has done for Ladybug, as well as the effort he put into Aspik, but also have what she said/thought relate to Chat Noir without her necessarily understanding that added level.

It was fun. I did get a BIT angsty with the Aspik bit - because apparently I have to sneak angst in SOMEHOW - but it's mostly fluff.

Ladybug's Simp Squad

Summary: Marinette walks into a heated debate between Adrien and Alya: which one of them is Ladybug's #1 simp.

Rating: General Audiences

Word Count: 4244
                     • On DeviantArt           • On Tumblr
Much like my last story, this one just blew up the first day it was posted. It has since partially died off, only to get another small boost late Friday/early Saturday when carpisuns reblogged the story on Tumblr. After that brief weekend spike, it has again gone down. In the meantime, I think I picked up a few more readers, so that's nice.

My (roughly) 24hr stats:
FFN: ~165 views, 6 faves, 2 followers, and 3 reviews
AO3:
Forgot to Note, 45 kudos, 5 bookmarks, and 4 comments
DA: 
Forgot to Note, no faves and no comments

Total Results: At least 210 views, 51 faves, 7 followers, and 7 reviews

Tumblr Notes: 4 notes; 1 like and 3 reblogs

Reviews:
  1.
A moderately lengthy review from Wildfire's Flame
  2. I love Plage finding the heart, awesome! - Guest
  3. Hi love the story can't wait for more ! Have a great day ! - Retrowolf
  4. A moderately lengthy review from BFG_blueapple303
  5. This is so good!! - ktreereads
  6. This was hella cute! / You broke me a bit when Adrien had to catch himself from throwing down his ace :( my sad boi / But it's okay cuz they're all cute and happy in the end! - Cyhyr
  7. I love the idea of Plagg in a soft pocket. It’s like a purring hamster in a hoodie. - Maggi8noodlesalfredo2lasagne
  8. #this is so good holy shit #thank you so much - miraculousmolls
Okay, so a few disclaimers here. I forgot to note my stats when I hit that 24hr mark. I was going to, but I was at work at the time, and had things to do post-work, and Thursday got away from me. Whoops. Fanfiction.net does have a traffic graph, so I was able to see that I had 165 views on the 10th when I posted. However, I did post after 5pm, so I could have included any views from the 11th prior to then. Problem there is I have no way of knowing how many of my 113 views on the 11th were before 5pm and how many were after. So I'm assuming I actually had more than 165 views within the first 24hrs of posting, but I have no way of knowing for sure. 

I was able to figure out FFN and AO3 24-hr-mark faves/kudos/follows/bookmarks/comments via the timestamp on either the email notifications, or on the bookmarks/comments themselves. However, one of the AO3 bookmarks simply has it listed as March 11th with no time, so I may have actually had 6 bookmarks within that first 24hrs. Also, 17 of the kudos I got were listed as "guest" so, either people from Tumblr that don't have an AO3 account or people who didn't want to log in for whatever reason. I think it would be really neat if I brought in a bunch of non-AO3 readers from Tumblr.




As for those semi-lengthy reviews:
  Wildfire's Flame: Giggles. So cute!,I,loved it. I love Marinette making sweaters. I love the reasoning for Alya not to post any pictures. I love Adriens expression blanching. Very nicely done. The stitched heart... Warm puddles. Such a Marinette thing. I love that place loves it too...
  BFG_blueapple303: hmmmm....honestly why didn't t he bring up that he LITERALLY jumped off a building for ladybug? chatnoir is one thing butthat is REALLY a ace in the hole that alya doesn't have. he did that as a civilian...untransformed and getting no gain from recording. he'll have to be happy knowing he's the REAL ladybug simp.....though.....Ikindof wish he brought up chat noir so even if adrien was considered 3rd after alya then at least everyone could agree that chat is number 1
I feel so silly that I referenced the episode "Gorizilla" in my story AND YET SOMEHOW MISSED THE PART OF THE EPISODE WHERE ADRIEN GLEEFULLY SWAN DIVES OFF THE MONTPARNASSE TOWER, COMPLETELY TRUSTING LADYBUG WILL FIND A WAY TO SAVE HIM BEFORE BECOMING SIDEWALK PIZZA!

Like.... HOOOOOOOOOW!? How did I forget THAT!?

In truth, I'm not entirely sure how Alya was supposed to beat THAT example of simping, and, based on carpisuns' fanart and background to it, Alya did indeed win out because Adrien couldn't top "I run the Ladyblog" without revealing his secret identity. So, maybe it's a good idea I forgot it? Maybe Adrien didn't say anything because he didn't want to worry his friends with the knowledge (or reminder) that he yeeted himself off a building simply because Ladybug told him it would be alright..... The story would have taken a DRASTIC turn towards angst there with everyone calling a time-out to instead address Adrien's concerning self-destructive actions.....

ANYWAY! Yeah! As for my current (roughly) week-long stats:
FFN: 377 views, 19 faves, 9 followers, and 3 reviews
AO3: 412 hits, 83 kudos, 11 bookmarks, and 8 comments
DA: 276 views, but no faves or comments

Total Results: 1065 views, 102 faves, 20 followers, and 11 reviews

Tumblr Notes: 28 notes; 17 likes and 11 reblogs

New Reviews:
  1. That was a very cute story! Ha, little did Marinette know that a kwami would be taking up residence in that very pocket and discover her secret heart
❤️! Great job! - pkk
  2. A moderately lengthy review from carpisuns
  3. I adore this. So frikkin cute Ohmygosh - Bjurnberg
  4. This is absolutely adorable!! I love the idea of Alya and Adrien trying to out-simp each other over Ladybug! I do believe they each have a case (and a hidden trump card, or two)... / Poor Nino needs a hoodie now. Maybe #1 Rena Rouge simp? - MalcolmReynolds
  5. Asdfghjkl this was amazing!! - jennagrinsoverml
  6. #ml #fic #art #I LOVE THIS - maribat-shenanigans
Six of the Tumblr reblogs had some sort of commentary. Either added comments in the reblog, such as what jennagrinsoverml did, or commentary in the tags section, such as what maribat-shenanigans or miraculousmolls did.

I also got two very lovely comments from carpisuns. The aforementioned moderately lengthy review on my AO3 post, but also when she reblogged my story on Tumblr.
  carpisuns on AO3: hahahaha this was such a fun read!! thanks so much for writing this! it made me laugh out loud a few times :D and omgsh i wasn't expecting to be hit by desperada angst :O there was so much cute stuff in there aaaaa i, like marinette, very much enjoy the idea of ladybug and adrien cuddling while he wears a laddybug simp sweatshirt 😌 i also really enjoyed her acknowledgment that chat noir is the real #1 simp hahaha
and plagg at the end hehe so cute! love the fic <3
  carpisuns on Tumblr: ljkasdflkjsf omgsh i cant believe someone wrote something based on my art aaaa this is great, thank you so much!! Very cute and funny! :D

#fics #<3 #nice things
EEEEE, it is so awesome that she liked my story this much! I am always dumbfounded in the best way when people gush like this. I mean, it was THEIR work that inspired ME. *I* was the one who is but a humble servant as I briefly whisk their Muse away for a one night tryst. This is true for carpisuns, as it was with Taurus Pixie and even my Wonder Twin Ronoxym, let alone my own IRL Muse: my husband.

You all crawled so that I might run. Thank you!
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Anyway, it may or may not be related to all of the love from piggybacking off carpisuns' art, but I did get another follower over on Tumblr. I've also had three new people favorite me - as in, the author - over on FanFiction.net, and two of those three also started following me. 

So, uh, yeah, that's super exciting! Also, to keep up with my muse-abductions that seem to be working for me, I've swiped some new plot bunnies up from the comments on my story. For instance, I'm debating if I want to do a more angsty companion story where Plagg asks Adrien why he didn't bring up the impromptu base jumping in his battles with Alya. For Plagg, it's almost an insult that Adrien isn't the "#1 Ladybug Simp" ESPECIALLY since Plagg knows everything Adrien does as Chat Noir, and got a feeling of everything the kid did as Aspik (I'm assuming, since he said the same thing to Adrien over and over again, that Plagg isn't part of the time loop and therefore won't remember anything that happened while Adrien was the snake superhero). I could even finish it off with how Adrien truly doesn't care. He just had fun debating with his friend and remembering all the interactions his civilian self had with Ladybug. Also, he knows that Alya can't be Rena Rouge anymore, so he probably figures Alya needed this win. To prove that she's still helpful to Ladybug even if she can't be a superheroine.

There's also another plot bunny of Marinette making Nino a "#1 Rena Rouge Simp" sweatshirt so he wouldn't feel left out. Neither Nino nor Alya would know that Marinette knows who Rena is, so the two of them might find it a nice in-joke between the two of them and Ladybug. It could also be a real sweet surprise to Alya about how devoted to her Nino is. It could also have its own sprinkle of angst as Marinette feels guilt over making this sweatshirt for Nino knowing full well that Alya could never be Rena Rouge again for her own safety. (Then again, even with everyone - including Hawk Moth - knowing who Queen Bee was, Chloe still got her Miraculous back a couple of times; so it's not entirely hopeless for Alya)

A third companion story/continuation could be a cuddly Ladrien story where Ladybug, now knowing how large of a "fan" Adrien is, visits him. They could start pseudo-dating and ALLLLLL the fluff.

OOOOOOR, I could go the opposite direction. Based on a short story I read the other day - Comfort from Each-Other by ScarletRedfox - I could have the Love Square completely crumble in on itself with ALLLLLLL the angst! The concept of ScarletRedfox's story is that Ladybug, for fear of Adrien getting hurt if the world found out they were together, as well as feeling it unfair that he date Ladybug when he doesn't know she's Marinette, rejects Adrien's love confession. It wasn't safe or right for them to be together that way - a superheroine and a civilian - and it shattered Marinette's heart to reject Adrien as much as it broke Adrien to have Ladybug turn even his civilian half away. Chat Noir then goes to Marinette for comfort, and they both talk about how their hearts were broken that day.

Anyway, much like with Ronoxym's Devon and Willow story all those many many MANY years ago (dear lord... like... SEVEN YEARS!?), I adored Comfort from Each-Other but still felt that a simple tweak of one element of the story would take it on a new road, and I kind of want to explore that. It could be hurt/comfort all on its own, or I could build off that Ladrien idea of Ladybug snuggling with Adrien post unofficial Ladybug Simp contest, only to break the relationship off knowing it's "not right."

In a sort of adjacent vein, I had a godawful day Friday after an EXHAUSTING battle with my internet provider for the better part of a month. This terrible day was followed up on Saturday by me tripping when my right foot hooked the cuff of my left pant leg. Not only did I trip, I tripped in front of my customer and her son. Not only THAT, but I happened to trip on the TOP STAIR OF AN 18-STEP STAIRCASE!
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Thankfully, much like Marinette, I've always been gracefully clumsy. I tripped off the landing, missed the next step, caught my foot on the 2nd step long enough to adjust my weight, hopped down the next two steps, and caught myself about five or six steps down from the landing. Heart pounding in my ears, but otherwise fine.

My point being, I've had one heck of a weekend where virtually everything I did had SOMETHING go wrong. I know that "nothing can just be simple and/or go right for me" days are some of my most frustrating and exhausting. The days that break me the most.

Yet this doesn't seem to be the basis of akumas in Miraculous Ladybug, at least, not yet.

GUYS! MY CRAPPY WEEKEND INSPIRED ME FOR AN AKUMA! I haven't figured all the details out yet, but the character would basically be Jinx from DC comics. There have been tons of other superheroes/villains in the show inspired by DC and Marvel comics, so it can't hurt to do the same thing again, right? I will probably have to think of a name other than "Jinx" for her, but otherwise the build is more-or-less set. She was frustrated that nothing seemed to go right for her that day, so Hawk Moth akumatized her with the power to mess up everyone else's day. She then goes around causing mischief, similar to Troublemaker, but it's more bad luck curses than pranks.

I'm still trying to figure out where the akuma would be hiding, what her outfit would look like, whether or not it hits our superheroes, and both the Lucky Charm Ladybug would get as well as how she'd use it. There's still a lot of planning to do, but still. I have a baby idea I could nurture into an actual akuma to use in a story! Look at me go!

I still have so many fanfics to read on my list. I can't wait to see what stories those could ignite in me.

Stepping away from the Miraculous Ladybug fandom for a beat, though. Last week Hubby and I finally got around to watching the cooking action anime (yeah, you read correctly) Food Wars! It's... it's a bit much to get into, but you get hooked pretty quickly.

Anyway, about half way through the first season - maybe a little sooner - we're introduced to the character Alice. This is Alice in seasons 3 and 4, but her hair was more-or-less the same (just a touch shorter) in seasons 1 and 2.
Alice created by Yūto Tsukuda and Shun Saeki

Between the hair style, the white hair, and her overall personality of flipping from playful and childish to dead serious and brilliant; all of it just reminded me of my OC Willow. In fact, flip the image and add the aquamarine eyes and she's a good reference picture for Willow.
Maybe I should have darkened her skin
a touch. Willow's not quite THIS pale....
Also officially introduced in season 3 of this series, was the top student of the entire culinary school the show takes place at: Eishi Tsukasa. And holy heckens, this character is pretty much EXACTLY how I have always imagined Shawn to look. This shot specifically made me think of Willow's brother.

Tsukasa created by Yūto Tsukuda and Shun Saeki
Tsukasa's normally this fairly chill guy who has seemingly random anxiety attacks and OCD. On the occasions when he gets serious, however, he gets a bit scary.

This still isn't perfect because Shawn goes full-blown homicidal maniac, but this is probably the closest I could find "in the wild", as it were. Once again, all I really need to do is switch out Tsukasa's eye color and you have my mental image of Shawn.

(Fun factoid: Food Wars! was first printed in Japan November 2012, I was playing around with what Willow's brother would look like around September or October of 2012. So both the manga's creators and I just happened to luck into the same character design for one of our side characters.)

To compare, here's my first attempt to create visuals of Willow and Shawn from when I was using the ChaZie online doll makers way back in 2012. (Shawn had more emo hair here, but the above shag of Tsukasa's hair is more of what I had pictured)

Naturally, having characters in an anime I'm watching reminding me of some of my OCs has got me thinking about X-Future and Glitches again. So..... ALL THE BRAINSTORMING! It didn't result in any fiction writing THIS week, but who knows where The Muses will take me?

I'm excited to see what this week brings, how about you fine folks? I guess we'll have to wait until next Tuesday to see. Until then, take care, friends!

Tuesday, March 2, 2021

Little Flashes of Writing

I did it again. Just completely ignored this blog last week. Even though I AGAIN had actual writing to promote.

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I don't know why I keep doing this. It also kept me two full hours of having Blogger open this morning before I started working on this post. I just have been struggling hardcore with starting any sort of writing lately. Once I get those first couple of sentences down I can go OFF for hours; gladly lost in a craft I enjoy. However, getting the motivation to put those sentences down, or even forming sentences in the first place? I dunno, guys, it's still rough going for me.

I mean, I know I stated last time that I need to give myself another break; that I'm clearly more burnt out than I keep giving myself credit. So, I'm sure you fine folks didn't bat an eye about the fact that I missed last week.

The irony there though, was that I randomly wrote a little vignette pretty much right after saying I need to be on a writing break. I published it online. I've had a fair amount of positive feedback - which I'll get into in a little bit - and I was feeling pretty good about my writing after that. I was all pumped to tell you guys about it, and I'm back to having my Tuesdays off. I really had no reason to NOT write up the post. Instead, though, I just... sat on YouTube catching up on my subscriptions list and playing on my Switch.

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During the first few days of my "writing hiatus", I decided to focus on reading fanfic again. I was looking for fluffy pieces to maybe inspire me for a belated Valentine's Day piece or a way to FINALLY get the "Your Voice" prompt from last year's Fluff Week to form into a publishable story.

I can't quite recall anymore which story did spark something, but all of these identity reveal/love reveal/Love-Square becoming a couple stories made me want to write my own. I think one of the stories had Adrien so excited to find out that Marinette loved him that it took all he had to not just literally sweep her off her feet or something? 

Anyway, I couldn't figure out a full story, but I did have a scene that needed out of my head, and so I complied.

There is a much larger story here. I know there is. Mostly, I don't don't know where Adrien and Marinette are in this vignette, or why she suddenly decided it was time to abruptly (and kind of aggressively) confess her feelings to Adrien. I also don't know how the story concludes; how it resolves whatever conflict has Marinette confessing in the first place. There's so much that could bookend this scene to build it up into a full story, but, whatever.

I didn't want to sit on a scene that I enjoyed but had NOTHING for what came before it or after. At least other scenes I have waiting in the wings have surrounding stories I'm trying to form - mostly just threading those scenes together for One and the Same - and so sitting on them makes sense. This, though? To pull my hair out to force myself to come up with the surrounding story? Or to shelve something I enjoyed because it's incomplete, and who knows when I will complete it?

Screw that! This is my way of being self-indulgent: just go ahead and post the thing; let the readers sort out the details surrounding it. I mean, fan-artists do it all the time with concepts surrounding a single image, right? I'll actually touch on that in a moment.

So, anyway, I went ahead and posted my vignette of less than 1000 words (I know, right!?) up on Tumblr as one of my few Tumblr exclusive drabbles. I mostly do that because I don't like posting incomplete stories/drabbles up on FFN or AO3. However, I had torn through so many stories that were either around or under the 1000-word mark leading into that spark of inspiration. So, ya know what? Let's do this. Everyone else posts short little blips, why shouldn't I?

It kept me until the 24th - about a week after publishing to just Tumblr - but I finally went ahead and published in my normal spots as well.

So, for your consumption, I give you

Is It True?
Summary: Marinette instantly regrets confessing her feelings for Adrien. He decides it might be time for a confession of his own.

It's been about a week since I published to FFN, AO3, and DA, so might as well check out my stats. This story truly has blown up. I get it though. It's suuuuuper short, especially for me. It's a love confession. It's Adrienette fluff. If ANY of my stories were going to blow up, I'd be surprised if it WASN'T this one.

Also, reminder that the story was up only on Tumblr for nearly a week before I published to the other sites, so the stats for Tumblr is actually for the 2 weeks it's up. That said, it wasn't until I reblogged the story with the links to the off-site publications (and remembered to tag discoveringmiraculouswriters) did I get most of the notes. That first week, I only had 7 likes and one reblog.
FFN: 508 views, 27 faves, 9 followers, and 7 reviews
AO3: 664 hits, 115 kudos, 6 bookmarks, and 6 reviews
DA: "1k views" but no favorites or comments*

Total Results: 2172* views! 142 faves, 15 followers, and 13 reviews
      *I don't know if it's exactly 1000 views on DA once the site switches count to 1k. For all I know, it could be 1010 views, but DA just keeps it in a "1k" category.

Tumblr Notes: 31 notes; 22 likes, 8 reblogs, and 1 comment

FFN reviews:
  1. This was sweet. I love the mutual love without identities coming into play. Great work.
- sparklehannah
  2. Great one-shot. Thank you for writing it.
- Agiani
  3. Ahhh. So cute! Marinette running away is so like her. Very nicely done. But you're right. I sense a larger story... Lol thank you.
- Wildfire's Flame
  4. Holy crap this was so cute ;w;
- puppydogs68
  5. Great! Adrien is so cute that he was desperate to kiss her after her confession.
- CharlieBoneFan
  6. Awwww so cuuuuteee
- Marichat.crazed
  7. Cuute
- Wrightless

AO3 reviews:
  1. That was very sweet. It gave me cavities.
- GalaxyWanderer
  2. Ooooooooh this was great!!! Sometimes, we just need fluff and self-indulgent love confessions.
- P_Artsypants
  3. This was cute!
- mayuralover
  4. Marinette's fear of rejection is borderline crippling. She even suffered under its weight as Ladybug in Origins.
- AFWebster
  5.
"Almost all the time." Smooth! / They're so cute. 💕 - chatonne-rousse (thefullbeaumonty)
  6. Aw, so sweet! Very nice story!
- pkk

Tumblr comment:
  - THIS IS FANTASTIC
😭👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 - rikareena
The fanfic promotional blog Ladynoir Feed also shared it once I published to AO3. Their promotion on Tumblr on the 25th has garnered an additional 19 likes and 1 reblog as of this writing. The story itself isn't shared to Tumblr with this promotional post, so those were at least 19 people who were directed to my AO3 publication. Likewise, 5 of my reblogs were either directly or indirectly connected to discoveringmiraculouswriters, allowing at least 4 new people (5th reblog would be DMW themselves) to see my story. Thanks for the assist, guys!
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Also, one of the bookmarks of my AO3 post included "THIS IS SO CUTE / I LOVE NON-OBLIVIOUS ADRIEN" in the notes. So.... yay!

It's been a nice week to get so many emails and alerts to let me know someone new liked, favorited, reblogged, or commented on my story. Heck, I think even I have re-read this short vignette about 2-dozen times by now.

If only I had more of the story to build off of it....

Which brings me back to what I was saying before about fanartists capturing a small scene - such as my vignette - and just leaving the core story behind it open for the consumers to figure out.

One of the people I follow on Tumblr - carpisuns (formerly chatnoirinette) - had posted some fanart of Alya and Adrien in matching red sweatshirts with "LADYBUG SIMP" embroidered on the front. She also included the caption:
they battled fiercely for the title of #1 ladybug simp but in the end alya won because she pulled the “i run the ladyblog” card and poor adrien was unable to play the “im chat noir” card so he had to graciously accept the #2 slot. and then they had a photoshoot in their custom-made hoodies
 Carpisuns then reblogged with a screenshot of the tags someone included. She added the comment:
#marinette totally made those for them #mari totally embroidered a secret heart on the inside of adrien's
can pieces of art have backstory canon....if so I declare this canon thanks @miraculousmolls
So, right out the gate, a single scene, captured by fanart and a caption about the backstory to it, birthed a deeper story.

And I want to keep digging.

I haven't figured out whose POV I should use for this story - Adrien's, Marinette's, or 3rd omniscient - and I don't know how to start the argument between Adrien and Alya about who is the #1 Ladybug Simp. I'm also trying to decide if Adrien should find the hidden embroidered heart... or maybe Plagg finds it and keeps that info to himself????

There's so much potential here that I can't quite lock down, but I WANT TO.

So, I'm again on a bit of a writing break - in part because work has been crazy - as I let that stew. 

My point, though, is that, much like how fanart captures a single moment, ignoring the bigger story surrounding it, and forces the consumer to try to figure out the surrounding story, my doing the same with my vignette should be fine. I don't know why I can't embrace that more frequently, though. Why must my stories be complete? Why can't they just be small moments?

In a similar vein, I did mange a little bit more writing as recent as yesterday. One of the writing blogs I follow on Tumblr had reblogged an ask list for writers about their OCs. The way this works is a person reads the list, decides which questions from it they'd like the blog owner to answer, and sends them via the Ask feature on Tumblr. Usually the questions are accompanied with an emoji so the asker doesn't have to worry about rewriting the question they want to ask.

It is very rare that I find people - on both Tumblr and Facebook - who will actually play along and ask me the questions from these lists. But I've also noticed that I'm over 300 followers on Tumblr, and I received something like 6 new follows this week alone - probably because of my Adrienette story? - so I figured, "what the hey?" Not even 24hrs later I did indeed get an ask! It was by someone not even on my Following list, nor do I recognize their handle as someone who has liked/reblogged my posts at all recently. I honestly have no clue where this person came from, but they asked, and so they received.

When I reblogged the initial list of questions I had added a small bio of sorts of my 7 most fleshed out OCs that people could ask about:
  1. Amara Yori
  2. Lia Madrox
  3. Willow Driver
  4. Trish Morrison
  5. Jolene Crislebaulm (I think that's how I spelled her last name? Why the heck did I come up with a last name I can never remember how I spelled????)
  6. Kriv Myastan
  7. Emerald Gaze
That way people could ask me about any of these OCs, even if I haven't really talked about them much on Tumblr. The ask was for Lia and Trish. The questions are a bit involved, but the long-and-short is asking how they handle being scared, and how they handle being sick/cared for. Fairly easy to know the answers to those questions for both of these ladies since those exact situations more-or-less already canonically happened within the X-Future roleplay game. 

If you want to know my answers, you can read them on Tumblr here.

So, uh, yeah. I've actually had quite a bit going on with writing, so I have no clue why I skipped last week, or why it kept me just about all day to get around to writing this week's blog. I'm just glad to be writing ANYTHING again though. Guess that's a start, right?
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Let's keep this train a-chuggin' along. Hopefully it will keep chugging right into an on-time blog post next week. We'll see, I guess.

Tuesday, February 16, 2021

Fun With Fandom Essays

 Sooooooo, about that "positive turning point" I talked about last time..... 

Yeeeeeaaaaaaaaaah.

I don't know what it is, but I've just been avoiding my blog for a while now. I enjoy writing this. I like talking to you guys about what's been going on in my life and how that's been affecting my writing. I like promoting my own stories here, and promoting stories I read, and helping myself figure out writing issues that have been bogging me down. The more I talk here about what my issue is and why it's an issue, the more the problem unravels in my brain. 

I also enjoy having a time that's always dedicated to writing.

I truly do love having this blog, and I'm proud this one actually lasted for years on end (as opposed to my first 3 attempts to start up a blog that all crashed and burned within the first couple of months).

But, lately? I haven't been the biggest fan of waking up at a decent hour on my Tuesdays off so I have time to work on my blog in the morning, post by noon, and then have the next ten hours or so to do other things for my day off. Instead, I just want to lay in bed, snuggling the hubby until noon. Or, I get up by 8am, but then drag my feet and don't start actually working on this blog until closer to 10am. At that point, especially with my track record of taking 4 or 5 hours to write up my weekly post, edit it, and promote it, I wonder if it's worth starting my post. It won't publish until after noon, and I'm now cutting into the rest of my day off.

That might be the biggest thing: for whatever reason it takes me HOURS to write these weekly posts. I love writing them. I do. I promise you I do. I guess I'm just down on myself that they take SO. LONG. to write and post. Especially when I feel like I'm barely saying anything in them anymore. It's been rare, particularly this past year, to have any writing to talk about. 

Plus, we're creeping up on a year since we started socially distancing. We haven't seen most of our friends that whole time, and I haven't seen my side of the family since. Also, aside from the occasional quick talk with Hubby's work friends while at the store, or attempts to chat with my coworkers, or a short yell across the driveway to Dragnime the few times we catch him outside, or the one time Rozsavaria popped by to gift us our belated Christmas gifts, we haven't socialized with anyone in person since Christmas. I'm a social person, and I guess I'm having a rougher time with this than I originally thought (especially since we didn't socialize with ANYONE outside the times I popped by the grocery store for TWO MONTHS when our state went into lockdown last year, so this isn't as bad comparatively). Instead of working on my writing, or concentrating on these blog posts, or even trying to catch up on my reading, I've been spending a LOT of time lately just lurking on Facebook and Tumblr. Just CONSTANTLY refreshing and scrolling through my news feed and dash. Leaving comments EVERYWHERE in hopes of getting some sort of contact back: a reply, a reblog with added commentary, comments on my stories that I can respond to. Anything, really.

Which, I mean, both kind of baffles me with regards to missing last week's post, as well as explains it?

The baffling portion is that I had FINALLY finished publishing Perfect Doesn't Need to be Perfect. So you'd think I'd want to be here to rejoice that my Christmas-themed story was done.

On the flipside, I saw a post on Tumblr complaining about a plot point in one of the episodes. I thought I had a simple thought about why that was and why I wasn't annoyed by that writing choice. I had seen these two users in particular having more and more conversation threads within the fandom, with other members chiming in, and I craved the possibility of being included in these kind of discourses.

Plus, added bonus, if I could become more active in these kinds of discussions, I might be more recognized within the fandom, which could possibly bring my Tumblr blog more followers, which, in turn, could mean more readers for my stories. It was a way to network within the fandom community while also helping me with my lack-of-socializing problem.

Win-win, right?

Weeeellllllll. Apparently, I had more than just a few thoughts on why it made perfect sense for Marinette to reveal she was Multimouse in front of Chat Noir SPECIFICALLY so Ladybug would have a reason to not give Marinette the mouse miraculous again. I'll get into a bit more detail in a minute for those who don't know the show/episode, but my point is that, instead of working on this blog post last week, I spent my four or five hours working on this 4700-some word meta essay about the episode and series in general.

If you care enough to read my essay, you can do so here.

So, a few more details about the initial post. This does contain spoilers for the season 3 episodes "Ikkari Gozen" and "Kwamibuster", just an FYI.

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Okay, so in the episode "Kwamibuster", Adrien's and Marinette's science teacher spotted Plagg eating cheese she had set out, as well as Tikki trying to stop Plagg. She went on TV to announce her discovery, however, since technology can't register magic, the teacher wasn't able to get any recorded proof of the kwamis. Instead, she drew crude drawings of Plagg and Tikki.

Adrien and Marinette, recognizing the kwamis and knowing they were both spotted in their school, begin wondering if that means their partner is also one of their classmates. Adrien almost INSTANTLY figures out that Ladybug is Marinette, but Plagg brushes him off and reminds him he's not supposed to know. Meanwhile, Marinette is too focused on "Chat Noir could be a student here, and what if he tries to figure out who I am" (which is, to be fair, EXACTLY what's going on) to bother trying to figure out who Chat Noir is. Regardless, both heroes know they need to think of an explanation to throw their partner off their scent.

Chat Noir tells Ladybug he has no clue what his kwami was doing "at that elementary school" which was enough to throw Marinette off his trail. She believes that since Chat Noir doesn't know it's a high school he must not go to it. On the flipside, Marinette goes a more complicated route, as she usually does.

The teacher had been akumatized into Kwamibuster, and has the ability to vacuum up kwamis into her magical backpack. Yes, this is intentionally a nod to Ghostbusters. Anyway, this magical vacuum can even pull kwamis out of powered up miraculouses, instantly taking the hero's powers away and detransforming them. So Marinette, after Tikki was stolen, has to find a way to get from the battle to Master Fu to try to get some other miraculous. That way she has the power to get Tikki back, and can then cleanse the akuma from there. Marinette picks the mouse miraculous (or rat, if you're truly going by the Chinese zodiac). It has the power to split the user multiple times, but shrinking them each time they split. Marinette wears all of the available miraculous, splitting herself enough times for each piece of herself to go with a different kwami.

There's a bunch of strategy here about purposefully getting herself captured in order to get Tikki and Plagg back, but I won't get into that. It's not important. What is important is that, after the akuma is broken out of the object and Kwamibuster reverts to the science teacher, Marinette uses the many bits of herself to temporarily trap the akuma (instead of cleansing it), and then uses one of her clones to create an illusion. She does this by pairing the mouse and fox miraculouses together so she could still be split, but also use Trixx's Mirage power.

For this illusion, she creates Ladybug getting Tikki back, powering back up, cleansing the akuma, and restoring everything via her Miraculous Ladybug power. Now that it looks like the battle is fully won, as it always is, an illusion of a full-sized Multimouse - the name Marinette gave herself as the mouse superhero - walks up to Ladybug, and takes off her miraculous to give it back; revealing herself to be Marinette. Now Chat Noir has "seen" Ladybug and Marinette standing side-by-side; "proving" that Marinette isn't Ladybug. The Ladybug illusion then tells the Marinette illusion that her identity has been compromised, and so she can never be Multimouse again. This is clearly Marinette's way of explaining away why Ladybug and Multimouse could never work together again; preventing Chat Noir from ever suggesting it or wondering why Ladybug would pick a different mouse bearer in the future.

It really was quite clever. EXCEPT, instead of Illusion-Ladybug telling Illusion-Marinette that the science teacher now knows her identity, and so Marinette can never have the miraculous again, for her own safety, Illusion-Ladybug implies that Marinette can never be Multimouse again because CHAT NOIR now knows who she is.

Admittingly, that's poor writing on the creators' parts. The added sting, though, is that, in the episode "Ikkari Gozen" Ladybug tells Kagami that she could never be Ryuko again specifically because HAWK MOTH knows who the dragon-themed superhero is. Same reason why Ladybug can't give Chloe back the bee miraculous.

So, now this Tumblr user Infinitysgrace is all bent out of shape that Illusion-Ladybug stating Marinette can't be Multimouse again because Chat Noir knows who she is puts him on the same threat level as Hawk Moth. Another user came in again questioning the need for the secret identities between the heroes. That's when I wanted to step in to explain how the writers actually did set it up in-universe very nicely to explain Marinette's logic in not letting Chat Noir know.

OKAY! SPOILERS OVER NOW! YOU CAN START READING AGAIN IF YOU SKIPPED THE LAST PART!


Anyway, I put in a LOT of time - and paused to rewatch certain bits of the show to make sure I got my wording right - trying to write up this comprehensive essay explaining why Marinette implied what she did about trusting Chat Noir with the identities of the part-time heroes. I was pretty proud of my work. It was a bit lengthy for the kind of conversation the users typically had, so I wasn't sure I was going to be able to continue a discussion as I wanted, but still. 

What I did not expect was to get a response like this:

Let's just zero in here to the part that really surprised me:

They then went off about how the rules established within canon - within that very season - didn't line up with the "Chat Noir is the same threat level as Hawk Moth" outside of this one episode. Something I had addressed in my essay.

Then they stressed, "As for the fact that he often gets controlled by Akuma victims, that isn’t a good enough excuse." First of all, I know this person SUPER sympathizes with Adrien/Chat Noir, but... uh... yeah? Yeah it is? Regardless, I also addressed that in my essay. 

Then they finished with "But no. There just isn’t good justification for him not to know who the part-time heroes are that can’t be matched with not just things in the show that contradict why he can’t know but also better justifications for why he should know." Again, things I believe I had addressed in my essay. If there were things I had missed, and Infinity had pointed them out - "what about this scene, or that scene, and I think you misinterpreted this scene" etc - I would have been fine with that. It would be the discussion I was craving. A true back-and-forth analysis.

However, the fact that they claimed that they were tired and "can we please not?" as if my essay had irritated them something fierce, but then wrote back a comment that makes me wonder if they actually bothered READING my essay!?

And then this person also came in with something I HAD ADDRESSED IN MY ESSAY (like, I get it, it was LONG, but if you're going to comment on something, at least read it first????):
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I'm still a bit salty about this. I've also avoided anything else involving Infinitysgrace because clearly you cannot change their opinions on how the shows writing is "clearly terrible." I mean, they love the show and the characters and are "anti-fandom-salt" but still just HATES on the writers for their poor writing. And, I mean, I get it. There are parts where I too am like "you lost the character there, writers. What are you doing?" but....

I dunno. Point is, clearly writing the essay instead of my blog post last week was time well spent.
Sooooo, how about what I WOULD have talked about last week? 

Yeah, let's go back to happy thoughts: I FINISHED MY CHRISTMAS STORY! Wooooo!

I had failed miserably with getting it done within the timeframe I had wanted, but I WAS able to edit, publish, and promote my story throughout Super Bowl Sunday (which was February 7th, for those who didn't know). It kept me darn-near twelve hours to post the last five chapters, but it was done!

I was then too exhausted to keep track of my stats for that week mark, but here's where we are now:
FFN: 1743 views, 7 faves, 12 followers, and 15 reviews
AO3: 321 hits, 21 kudos, 4 bookmarks, and 30 comments!
DA: 10,415 views!? 5 faves, but no comments

Total Results: 12,479 views, 33 faves, 16 followers, and 45 reviews

Tumblr Notes: 47 notes; 31 likes, 13 reblogs, and 3 comments

Reviews:
  Actually, most of the reviews are fairly lengthy, so you can just hit up FFN and AO3 to read them if you really want.
So. Hold up. Let's, uh... let's check out the actual breakdown of the individual DA chapter views, because over 10,000 hits on flippin' DEVIANT ART is blowing my mind.
  1. "1k views" - which, side note, is, I think, the first time anything I've posted has hit the thousand-views mark???
  2. 280 views (and 2 faves)
  3. 139 views
  4. 327 views
  5. 777 views (and a fave)
  6. 189 views
  7. 1k views again (and 3 faves; one was a person who faved one of the earlier chapters as well)
  8. "5k views"!!!!! Like... WHAT!? (no faves though)
  9. 398 views
  10. 348 views
  11. 143 views
  12. 814 views
THIS IS ON DEVIANT ART, MIND YOU! I feel like I can't stress that enough. Meanwhile, some of these chapters got more views than the entirety of the story over on AO3. Ya know, a place PEOPLE TYPICALLY GO TO READ FANFIC.

The bots must have really loved my story over on DA, huh?




Honestly, I'm not sure what I could have included in either the story, the notes, or the tags to have attracted the bots, but I'm pretty sure that's what happened there. The only hit counts I remotely trust are all of the ones under 400. Still, it's a nice little ego-boost to know my stories are even getting that much love over on a mostly visual-art site.

Another thing to note for those view counts is how I batch-published chapters. Day 1, I uploaded chapters 1 thru 3. Next were chapters 4 & 5. A few days later I published chapters 6 & 7, and then on a Sunday I published chapters 8 thru 12. 

Either way, if you're one of my DA viewers, please let me know in the comments. I've love to meet you.

And if you want to join the masses, but haven't yet, here's one last reminder of where you can find my story.

Perfect Doesn't Need to be Perfect

Honestly, I'm just happy that Taurus Pixie got so much joy out of the story. It was, in part, to help me get the story out of my head after re-reading Pixie's story had birthed the idea, but it was also largely a way of helping perk her up after a super rough year. So... yay! Glad I was able to help at least a little.

With that project done, I was planning on working on a fluff story for Valentine's Day, or at least finish off the final two prompts from last year's Love Square Fluff Week. Sadly, I have done neither. A year later and I STILL can't get the prompt "Your Voice" to form the way I want it to. What I had written up - Marinette and Adrien doing trust exercises in phys-ed by taking turns being blindfolded while the other walks them through an obstacle course through verbal instruction alone - is sweet, but also feels a bit... I dunno. I think it would work better as a form of visual media than prose. Plus, I don't really have an ending for it? Also, it was supposed to be a set-up scene for the core story of Ladybug and Chat Noir recognizing each other's voices after a day of paying extra attention to Marinette's and Adrien's voices respectively. But the obstacle course bit is already about 8 pages long! 

Soooooo, yeah. I still don't know what I'm doing for those last two prompts, and I never did get anything written for Valentine's Day.

I guess I'm still more burnt out than I gave credit. So, looks like I'm gonna put myself on another mini-hiatus. We'll see how a week of that goes.

Hopefully, I'll catch you guys next week.
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Tuesday, February 2, 2021

Positive Turning Point (hopefully)

Hello, all, and happy Groundhog's Day!
Will Mr. Resetti see his shadow this morning?

Between all of the snow and the fact that the
light is in front of him, it's pretty unlikely!
With the big Nor'easter that just blew through the United States yesterday/last night, good luck even finding poor Punxsutawney Phil!

Oh! Oh wait... nope. Nope, Phil DID see his shadow. I DON'T WANT SIX MORE WEEKS OF WINTER!!!! 




Welp. Guess it means I'm still stuck inside, which is probably for the best because I've been SUUUUUUUUPER slacking on both writing AND reading!

I mean, actually, I haven't been slacking too much on the WRITING bit, but I haven't stuck to my schedule as tightly as I would have liked, and yet ANOTHER self-mandated deadline came and went.
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I had hunkered down and REALLY got to work on those last five chapters of Perfect Doesn't Need to be Perfect. Yeah, I got distracted playing more Going Under or Animal Crossing or Ori and the Blind Forest, or staying up-to-date with my Tumblr dash for the first time since last March, but I did put in some effort to get the story done before midnight on January 31st.

I got up to chapter 11 of 12, if that helps.

Worst part is, I had chapter 8 done, like, a week ago. However, the publishing format for each of the sites I use are almost completely different, so to tweak the word document for each one to make sure things like italics (of which I have a lot in this story in particular) are properly included takes a LOT of time. Posting each chapter and giving it one last quick review to make sure it's how I want it takes anywhere from 40 to 70 minutes total. I had figured I could use that time to try to crank out the next chapter, and when I was done with chapter 9 I thought I should keep going. I figured, at this rate, I could just do a mass-dump of the final five chapters before midnight on the 31st and call it good.

"Hey, folks, sorry I keep pushing back when I'd be posting/finishing this story. So here's the second half as one huge upload to make up for it. Have fun!"
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It also occurred to me that I wanted to include something in the chapter 6 author's notes that I forgot about at the time, so I'm debating going back and adding it in now so any future readers get the notation....

Anyway!

As of last night, I have chapters 8 through 11 written, edited, and ready to be published. At this point, though, I might as well wait for that final chapter to be done. It feels a bit pathetic to STILL be working on a Christmas story now that it's February (especially since the last time I was still working on a Christmas story post-December I was able to get it finished within January). However, as ChibiSunnie keeps reminding me: "Candlemas is February 2nd, so you're still technically in the Medieval Christmas time and still not late." So, I still have until midnight tonight! (Also, I had been getting notifications all of last year that people were reading Woven Heartstrings, so I guess not too many people restrict their reading of seasonal stories to that season...)
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Guess what I'll be doing after this blog post is published!

Especially since we're kinda-sorta snowed in. The roads are clear enough that we can leave if we needed to, but I think we're gonna stay safe and just postpone grocery shopping and laundry for another night....
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Looks like a pajama day to me....

Sooooo, yeah, I know how I'm spending MY day.

One more chapter! I got this! I can do this!
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Weeeeell... maybe TWO more chapters. Technically, Taurus Pixie's story has 12 chapters - one for each Day of Christmas - buuuut, I do have an Adrienette subplot I stumbled into, so I miiiiiight do an epilogue???? I mean, I have the subplot wrapped up the way I have it, but I also kinda-sorta want to put a bow on it still. Ya know? We'll see how I get along today.

Because, frankly, part of my "problem" with this story is that, while Pixie only gave herself less than 24 hours to write, edit, and publish each chapter - posting a new one every day - I'm giving myself ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD to get these chapters where I want them. Which, of course, means I get to spend some time with the environment Pixie set up, and dive a bit further into Ladybug's thoughts on everything. It also means that silly Adrienette subplot was able to creep into my story.
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So, while Pixie's chapters would average about 2000 words... mine are all closer to 4500 words long.
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I mean, come on. Were you folks expecting anything else with me, though? Now, let's see, averaging about 4500 words per chapter.... at least 5 chapters must be up before midnight tonight... so... uh... yeah, expect a good old 22,000+ word-dump - er, I mean UPLOAD - when you wake up tomorrow (if not before going to bed tonight; I hope it's this one, honestly).

Huh. I mean, it's not the excellent start to 2021 I had hoped for: getting this story done within the actual 12 days of Christmas, as intended. Or even getting the story done before the end of January, as I had aimed. But still, when the story is already over 14,000 words long and I'm going to add probably another 22,000 words on top of that? Especially when the source material was 23,500 words long to begin with?

Not too shabby for someone who spent most of last year going "what are even words?" Right?

Heck, if I'm feeling super ambitious, maybe I'll even try to think of cover art (this story and my Love Square Fluff Week story are the only multi-chapter ML fics I have that don't have cover art). BUT FIRST, I want to FINISH WRITING THE DANG STORY. We'll build from there.

Also also, while Love Square Fluff Week was over darn-near a YEAR ago now, I still have two more chapters/prompts to write to finish that story off. So, guess what my next big task will be. Maybe I can get that done by Valentine's day????

PLUS, I was supposed to help my mom out with something important last year, but then... well... 2020 happened. I've already delayed her enough as it is, so I really need to focus and get started on that project.

It's a new month. Our work schedule is FINALLY  back to a regular rhythm for the first time since March! *knocks on wood* Pending anyone taking vacation time, I'm back to two days off a week, with my longest working streak being my normal once-a-month Wednesday through Monday stretch. And that's because I'll have a Sunday off, then my normal Tuesday as my second day. Which means I'd have to then wait for my normal Tuesday again the following week for my next day off, and my second day off that week will usually be Friday. 

Added bonus, though, due to how the manager is now scheduling my coworker's work weeks (upon request), I tend to get Saturdays off the weeks that it's my coworker's turn to get Sunday off. We've also somehow fallen into a rotation where I get my Sundays off the week after my coworker has her turn, so now I randomly get weekends off once a month???? Neat.

I'm hoping all of this is a positive turning point, and I can truly start making my climb back to normalcy in my life. Get back to having enough mental stamina to Adult properly. Get back into writing regularly. Get back to reading regularly. Get on top of this project for my mom. Really get back into a proper schedule to keep myself even keel. 

We've got this, peeps! We can make it over this mountain. And we'll be stronger for it.
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I guess I'll catch you folks on the other side. In the meantime, stay safe and stay well. Sending you guys supportive hugs.
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Oh, speaking of! Sending some extra love out to Wolfhearted to wish him a happy belated birthday.
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And, with regards to my "need to get back to reading," Cyhyr posted the latest chapter of her story Displaced by Time the other day. If you're into FFXV, or want an emotional, action-packed, time-shenanigans story (trust me, you don't actually need to know anything about FFXV to enjoy this story), then go check it out.

Finally, happy Black History Month. May we put in the effort to learn about Black excellence all year round, not just in February!

Love you guys! Catch you next week!
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