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Monday, June 10, 2024

Burnout Turning Me Feral (Oh, and I Wrote Stuff!)

Est. Read Time: 32 min
This Month's Font: Merienda

It's that time of year again, folks! The weather is getting nicer. The sun is out longer. I can open the windows and spend hours just out on the porch enjoying the breeze and the sun and the warmth.

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And Jonathan Harker again starts his doomed journey to Transylvania.

That's right, folks! Tis Dracula Daily season!

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Although... Not even two weeks in, and I had already fallen off the wagon this year.

*sigh*

Peeps, I am so burnt out! Hence my May blog update happening mid-June... nearly two weeks late! AGAIN! (I've been trying to simply edit this post for 4 days straight now.... TT^TT)

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Work is equal parts painfully slow and annoyingly frustrating due to the added projects I'm given to fill the down time. I mean, sure, the projects themselves are tedious (and might be making me mildly cross-eyed), but they are also sometimes fun. I don't inherently dislike those projects plopped onto my desk (although, it does cut into my "writing while at work" time which adds to this update being late). The PEOPLE, on the other hand, that I have to work with in order to complete the projects?

I'm slowly going feral.... (Kind of equal parts appropriate for this to coincide with Dracula Daily and ironic that I stopped reading Dracula due to said feral-ness....)

Add in that, for almost TWO WEEKS, I had to deal with a mysterious, spontaneous, piercing beeping at work! We could not track down where the beep was coming from because it both sounded like it was coming from everywhere, but also that it was definitely NOT coming from whichever new location within the office that we were currently standing in.

We also couldn't predict when the beep would go off in order to strategically work our way around the office to try to track it down. Sometimes it would be every five minutes. Other times it would be nearly an hour before the next beep. For three days I literally wrote down the time the beep went off in hopes of finding some sort of pattern! Nothing! All we learned was that we were hearing the beep at least thirty times per day.

It was a single, second-long beep that was distractingly piercing (actually hurting my ears on occasion) and it was MADDENING that we couldn't figure out where it was coming from or how to shut it up! I was about ready to start gnawing on cables if it would make it stop.

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Thankfully (??) we DID finally figure out where the beeping was coming from this past Tuesday, and it has since stopped! Seems a colleague that only works in our store once a week hid a device that makes that erratic beeping as a PRANK! It was tucked away in such a small place that we didn't think to look there. Besides, what could possibly be beeping from the wooden countertop our register sits on??? (yes, we checked the register itself and confirmed it wasn't that) They even feigned ignorance after the first week: "Wow! That does sound annoying. How are you guys dealing with listening to that all day?" / "Oh, [LycoRogue] is about to claw at the walls."

AND YET THEY LEFT THE SOUND MAKER FOR ANOTHER WEEK BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUNNY!!!!!!

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If that's not annoying enough, the radio station we usually play at work no longer comes in on the receiver we have. So, in our search for a replacement option, we could only find one work-appropriate station that came in clear. And, lucky me, it's in a musical genre that I'm not particularly fond of.... It also seems to only keep about 20 songs in rotation, so I get to hear the same songs (with a few "new" ones sprinkled in here and there) roughly 7x each throughout my 8hr shift... rinse and repeat the next day... and the next... and the next....

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People are also taking their vacations now that it's nicer out, so I'm working longer stretches in this AMAZING environment between days off. When I do have a day off, I'm either taking advantage of the weather by spending most of the time just on my porch (since we rent I have no outdoor house work to worry about/do), or I'm trapping myself inside but using the newfound non-winter energy to try to catch up on house work.

OOOOR... those people on vacation were also my friends, and my non-work hours had to be scheduled to include time for me to go pet-sit. I think I pet-sat for nearly every friend/family member in the area last month! But, ya know, at least I got to hang out with some animals throughout May, right? And not ALL of them spent the whole time plotting my demise....

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I've also been getting the itch to house-search again. Especially after my sister got a house, the house next to me went up for sale, and younger friends of mine also started looking for their first home. Trick is, every attempt I make to advance the process has been like pulling teeth. I can't just call up or visit my bank and talk to someone - like my friends did - because they don't have someone there all the time. Instead, I had to wait for the consultant to reach out to me, and she would only do so after I filled out finance forms.... which are only available via the bank's app.... and my phone - while still perfectly functional otherwise - is "too old" and "not compatible" with the app.... Thankfully, I have a relatively new tablet that I could download the app to instead. If I didn't have that alternative, though? I'd be SOL. My road ends there until I buy a new mobile device. Time to join the 2020s, Grandma.

I was able to download the app though, so we'll put a pin in that. I go to fill out the form, and the info they needed was more than just "What's your annual income?" which was what I was expecting. Ya know, given that I'm simply trying to talk to someone to get a gauge of what our budget should reasonably be and how much of a down payment I should be aiming to save up for.

Nope. Instead, it wanted to know the cost of the house we were looking at - we didn't have one because we don't know what to budget??? - how much we were going to put down for a down payment - again... I don't know... that's what I wanted to talk to the banker about???? - and the mortgage length we were looking for - again... WE. DON'T. KNOW!

I was also advised to try Credit Karma or Rocket Mortgage. CK simply told me that our finances meant there were no available offers.... That's reassuring.... And I've been getting daily calls from Rocket Mortgage for nearly a week, despite me specifically selecting TALK ONLINE for my option. The consultant keeps calling while I'm at work and can't answer. WHICH IS WHY I SAID TO TALK ONLINE AND *NOT* CALL!!!

Thankfully, my out-of-state cousin works in banking, so he was able to give me some broad-stroke answers instead. Hubby and I now have a plan of attack, which is all that we wanted! But... like... OUR FRIENDS WERE ABLE TO JUST CALL THEIR BANK AND GOT PRE-APPROVED FOR A MORTGAGE RIGHT THEN AND THERE! Why was this so much more complicated for me when all I wanted was answers and a savings plan!?!

Don't even get me started on that whole "your phone is too old and we're forcing it to become obsolete" thing! That BS has affected at least 5 different apps that Hubby and/or I have needed/wanted to use in the past couple of years. Some apps are just games like Pokemon Go. Others are self-care apps like Plant Nanny, which I had used to track my hydration levels. But Hubby and I are also supposed to access our PAYCHECKS via apps! Apps that our phones "aren't compatible with"... Luckily, we can both use our work computers to also look up our paycheck, BUT STILL!!!!! WHAT THE HECK!!!!!????!

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I bought tickets for a Broadway musical to celebrate my 40th birthday. I don't get physical copies of the tickets. I don't even get an email like I did with my Ticketmaster tickets to a concert two years ago. Nope. The show is having me download an app for the tickets.... an app I'm sure my phone won't be compatible for.... So I may be strong-armed into buying a new phone after all just so I can get the tickets to see the show!

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All of that financial stability that I've been grateful for the past couple of years? Yeeeeeaaaaaahhhhh.... the funds, they are depleting. And quickly. Every time I turn around I have to spend money on this, that, and the other thing. So, good luck creating a large enough savings to provide a house down payment, pay for an inspection, and cover closing costs....

Maybe Hubby and I can actually own a home by the time I celebrate my 50th.....

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All of THAT said, I guess it's a bit understandable that I'm both burnt out and not prioritizing Dracula Daily this year. Such a shame, I keep wanting to do it properly from start to finish! That's it. I'm adding "don't fall behind during Dracula Daily" to my bucket list!

I was hoping to be able to force a mental reset once we got to June. At least, with regards to Dracula Daily (hasn't happened yet, but AAAAAAANY day now....). That way it would only be two weeks that I've stumbled with this goal. Although... I've got a LOT going on at the end of June for my sister's wedding, so who the heck knows if I'll miss a couple of days then and fall off the wagon AGAIN?

No! I'm determined! I'll get back on the horse and stay on until the finish line in November!

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I'll keep you updated on how I'm doing for the rest of the novel run-time. Don't forget that you can also poke me in the comments section here to make sure I'm staying on track!

On the plus side - yes, this update isn't ALL doom and gloom - I HAVE hit my reading goal for May, even if it wasn't via Dracula. Seems I've been going hard with those digital comics again.

I am still chugging along with Double the Trouble, Twice as Nice over on Comikey. I read my daily chapter and then watch an ad to read a second one per day. So, that alone is nearly the 15min per day I'm aiming for.

Then it's over to Webtoon for... well... a bunch!

Float concluded for free-readers the first week of May, so there goes my Sunday night reading. Prior to that, though? You guys know how much I enjoyed that story. It even got me back into reading novels, even if briefly. The artwork was lovely, and I'm going to miss those plucky characters. Thank you, yet again, Float webtoon, for introducing me to the book.

I also finished reading Leveling Up My Husband to the Max. Such a good story. The ending was... interesting. Not disappointing, but also.... not expected???? A touch Deus ex Machina, but I didn't hate it??? It kinda-sorta felt earned? Either way, it was a fun read, and I'll miss it as well.

As for the rest of the on-going comics that I'm reading...

Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story updates on Mondays. As does My Husband Changes Every Night. So, I'm set on my Monday reading between those two and Double the Trouble.

Tuesdays, I have three comics to read along with Double the Trouble. I usually start off with Rental Hero to knock out the action comic. Then I'll read I Will Live the Life of a Villainess since the romance is more subtle in that one (although, it has been picking up lately). I'll finish with The Dragon King's Bride, which is the most romance-focused out of the three. So, basically, I'm spoiled for choice on my evenings off (post-9pm). And that doesn't even include yet ANOTHER comic that I've followed but haven't started yet: Office Romance From Hell.

The premise of that last one?

Dumped by her boyfriend and fired from her job, Jineon, her family's breadwinner, has no time to cry over the spilled milk. She must find another job and fast. Enter The Hell, a mysterious company with great pay, excellent work-life balance, and an easy commute! What more could she ask for? Or so she thought. Little did she know, she had walked into hell—literally. How will she navigate the harrowing journey in the hellscape of her new job with King Yeomra, her stunning new boss, further complicating everything? Could love blossom in this pit of hell?

I dunno. I'm just curious as to what the hecken is going on. But that's for Future Me to sort out. I already have enough on my Tuesday evening plate....

That said.... last month I was talking with MostLovedGirl (more on that later). As we were chatting about isekais and Webtoon reading lists, she suggested YET ANOTHER romcom to me: Retired Demon King. It's currently on hiatus, so now's the perfect time to catch up. But, as I mentioned, I'm overbooked with stories on Tuesdays, so I just haven't started it up yet. MLG adores it and finds it hilarious, though, so it is higher priority on my "To Read" list. Also, the premise DOES seem fun. I'm excited to get around to sitting down with it.

When the Demon King feels challenged by the hero to find love, he infiltrates the school for human adventurers where romance thrives the most, only to find that the school is under the holy church... which main purpose is to kill the Demon King.

Getting back to the stories I DO read, though, my Wednesday reading list only has Mythic Item Obtained. However, I still haven't gotten back into that one. I SHOULD though, since it's one of my lightest reading days. Or, maybe I don't read Office Romance From Hell the day it updates and save it for Wednesdays instead??? Or use Wednesdays for Retired Demon King? Or both? All three?

Thursdays I have nothing on Webtoon yet... but now that I KNOW that... looks like it's time to find ANOTHER villainess isekai and/or Generic Romance story that uploads on Thursdays!

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Or I could use Thursdays for that "To Read" list that's piling up....

Friday nights is only The Fateful Invitation. Another light day for reading. Another contender for catching up on those surplus stories like Demon King.

Saturday I have two new reads: The Duke's Teddy Bear, and I've finally started up Lore Olympus. Actually, I've waited so long to start up Lore Olympus that it concluded before the end of May! So, now I can just sort of plow through it. That said, there's nearly 300 episodes to go through! So, I'm sure I'll be reading that for a while. I can also now just read it whenever? So... daily, if I wish.

For a refresher on the series, here's the summary of Lore Olympus via Webtoon:

Witness what the gods do…after dark. The friendships and the lies, the gossip and the wild parties, and of course, forbidden love. Because it turns out, the gods aren’t so different from us after all, especially when it comes to their problems. Stylish and immersive, this is one of mythology’s greatest stories -- The Taking of Persephone -- as it’s never been told before.

It was a slow start for me. The modernization is neat, but, twenty episodes in, I felt like not much had really happened. Especially compared to the 20-some episodes of Punderworld that are live. I also didn't find myself itching to go back and read more at first. I mean, I found the Eros-and-Psyche b-plot more engaging than what was going on with Persephone.

That is... until I got to THAT episode (IYKYK). There was a hard-hitting episode, and THAT brought me in. I needed to see how the trauma was going to be handled and resolved. On top of that, I was developing a lot of eye fatigue while doing my data-entry project at work. When the fatigue got too much, I would take breaks by bringing up Webtoon on my phone and reading through a couple of episodes of Lore Olympus (along with walking around and stretching a bit) since Lore Olympus had more content that I could just tear through. I was able to semi-binge about 40 more episodes over the weekend that way!

In other words, I'm starting to get the hype. Hermes is a glorious himbo king. Eros had a problematic intro, but has since become a fabulous sass king that I adore. As for Hades and Persephone? There must be something in the myths that I missed when I read them as a kid. I just find it amusing that both Rachel Smythe, the creator of Lore Olympus, and Linda Sejic, the creator of Punderworld, came to the same conclusions. Hades is a lovesick precious bean; a socially awkward man beyond smitten the second he first sees Persephone. A complete nerd. Then, you have the poor naive and sheltered cinnamon roll that is Persephone. Granted, the Lore Olympus version is vastly more unsure, naive, and trying to figure herself out. Punderworld's version of Persephone is more self-assured of who she is, or, at least, who she wants to be. Both are still fiercely powerful women who can hold their own when pushed hard enough.

Completely contrasting their agreed views of Hades and Persephone, Smythe and Sejic went completely polar opposite with their depictions of Apollo. Lore Olympus went with the pinnacle of toxic masculinity and manipulation. He's almost exclusively referred to as "Asspollo" in the comments. Over on Punderworld, on the other hand? HE is the glorious himbo king. He basically plays the "guy best friend" role for Persephone that Eros/Hermes tag-team in Lore Olympus.

On top of the characterizations though, I do find the art style of Lore Olympus unique. Just... not as breathtakingly gorgeous as everyone else seemed to believe. That was one of the reasons (besides it being a Hades/Persephone story) that it pinged my radar: because everyone raved about the art style. At least, for the first season. It is stunning. That's the point. Smythe commented on how she purposefully created dramatic angles first and then worried about anatomy later. It shows, but it's also... a bit... MUCH for my tastes. I get why others found it breathtaking though. It's just not for me. Especially with the dramatic coloring that sometimes makes it hard to catch what is going on in the scene. And the fact that the character models seem to shift depending on what Smythe needs for her dramatic poses. Hades' nose becomes longer and more pointed in some scenes and short and rounded and more human-like in others. Persephone's face goes from round with baby-cheeks to more slender - as does her whole body - depending on the dramatic pose she needs to be in. The way hair is drawn shifts. Everything shifts. It's hard to tell which god is which on silhouette alone sometimes. You have to rely on coloration. But even that can be deceiving since Smythe makes sure to also have hereditary coloring. Such as Artemis and Apollo - since they're twins - being the same shade of purple... but also having that shade perfectly match their father Zeus. It's a neat way to show family ties, but also... Aphrodite is ALSO purple... but a slightly lighter shade???? And Apollo and Eros have similar silhouettes, but Eros is more of a dulled magenta compared to Apollo's purple... but based on the lighting Apollo could look like a lighter shade of purple and Eros could look like a darker shade....

On the flip side, I just find Linda Sejic's retelling of the myth of Persephone's kidnapping a lot more compelling. You have the mystery of the unknown deaths and Persephone commenting on how the earth doesn't feel "right" anymore. Which leads into Persephone's "kidnapping" and Hades trying to escort her out of the underworld. But then it cuts back to that "something with the dead just doesn't feel right" B-plot to keep the action moving and the mystery top-of-mind. Also, while the actual interactions between Hades and Persephone are adorable in Lore Olympus, there's just something... MORE with the Punderworld version for me. I don't know if it's because Punderworld is more comedic whereas Lore Olympus is more dramatic, and that's why I like Punderworld more? But the plot just feels like it is fuller and moves faster for Punderworld. More seems to have happened in Sejic's nearly-30 episodes than Smythe told in the 70 that I've read so far.

Beyond the plot, there is NO problem with recognizing a character off silhouette alone with Punderworld. While I praise Smythe for having The Big Three - Zeus, Poseidon, and Hades - look similar due to being siblings, I feel it just added to my "they have same-face" issue. Sejic, on the other hand, recognized that, while the gods may be considered siblings in the myths, they are also essentially shape-shifters who decide what their physical form will look like. So everyone looks distinct. Their outfits also signal who the character is. For instance, Hera's outfit is designed to look like a peacock, her favored animal. Demeter's dress resembles a watermelon. Zeus has a single-shoulder toga, which stresses his sexual nature by him showing off more skin than the other characters, and its blues and yellows encapsulate the essence of a lightning-filled sky. Hades' look is dominated by blacks and grays, and is much more somber/formal looking. Persephone wears a youthful, flowy, petal-like, knee-length sundress in spring-time greens.

Hades is pale and lanky with long, bone-straight hair. Persephone is petite, a little curvy, and has wavy hair that falls mid-back. Zeus has shoulder-length wavy hair and goatee. He's also muscular and tan. Demeter is also a bit curvier than, say, Artemis or Hera. Her long hair is kept in a braided bun. Artemis has that classic 90s Popular Girl look with luscious long hair typically kept in a high ponytail. She also has the classic "cheerleader" body: lean, muscular, but barely any hips, butt, or chest to speak of. Charon is a muscular black woman with short hair who crossdresses as a man for the spirits. Thanatos is also black-coded (being Charon's brother) even though his complexion is more gray-tones, and he has wings and keeps his medium-length hair in braids.

If those aren't enough distinguishing features, each god also has their own "crown" that reacts to their emotions. Hades has a bone-spike crown that grows and becomes more intimidating when he's mad, or shrinks and dulls if he's more sheepish or playful. Zeus has a crown of lightning that shifts as he gets cheeky ideas or wants to be aggressive. Demeter grows barley when she's pleased or fiery-red chili peppers if she's angered. Persephone grows thorns when threatened or angry, flowers when happy, pollenating blossoms when aroused or romantically flustered, and the plants wither when she draws into herself. (I will say, I like that Lore Olympus's Persephone also manifests a flower crown when happy and her hair grows uncontrollably when she's stressed. Similar vibes again). I dunno, I just prefer Sejic's character designs.

All-in-all, I am enjoying Lore Olympus. I mean, I'm 70 episodes in and itching to get back into it now that the drama is finally building. I just... I still feel like Punderworld is better, but it only gets a fraction-of-a-fraction of the love Lore Olympus has received. Tis a shame. Truly.

(And, yes, I do understand the irony of me preferring Punderworld, which gets less love, and thinking that it's simply an underrated gem... meanwhile, I will see the hit/view count on my fanfics vs popular fics and I'll wonder if it's because I'm just not as good of a writer as I think/was informed. The double standard I put on myself is not lost on me....)

As for The Duke's Teddy Bear? Well.... it's about as unhinged as My Husband Changes Every Night was when I first started reading it. Here's the Webtoon summary:

What if your soul could leave your body and possess people -- or even animals? Thanks to an incident in the past, that’s what happens to Marshall Lidiance every time she passes out or falls asleep. No one knows her little secret, but things become problematic for Marshall when she gets absorbed into a teddy bear owned by the icy-cold Duke Ludvillian! Will Marshall be able to figure out what caused the soul absorption while still keeping it a secret from everyone?

Hooboy! These names! I'm assuming the female lead's name is pronounced "mahr-SHALL" as opposed to "MAHR-shuhl" like I originally thought. But also.... Duke LudVILLIAN? Really? So close to "villain"? I looked up the surname to see if I was mocking someone's actual family name. Now, it could just be because search engines are now trash (because the internet as a whole uses S.E.O.), but searching for the surname Ludvillian only brought up links to or about The Duke's Teddy Bear. So.... I'm assuming it was made up for the story????

Also... the female lead Marshall just.... possesses the Duke's teddy bear against her will.... She goes to sleep and wakes up in the bear's body. She can move and talk, but she also kind of has to pull a Toy Story and try to avoid others discovering that this teddy bear is possessed. Especially when the duke himself tried to exorcise her from the teddy after she attempted talking to him. When the exorcism didn't work, he dropped her out of a fourth-story window to try to rid himself of the "cursed" plushie. Luckily, being a teddy bear at the time, she wasn't hurt.

There's now these weird romance shenanigans going on around Marshall. She is an introvert. She's also the second - and illegitimate - daughter of a noble. She doesn't see herself having any value in being married off, and her little introverted self isn't really interested in interacting with anyone in order to start up a romantic relationship. Meanwhile, while at a festival in the nation's capital to celebrate a long-standing war finally ending (which is when she possesses the duke's teddy), there are already three different gentlemen flirting with our fair lead.

She is not having it and tries to pawn the men off on her older half-sister instead. In turn, said sister is tickled that Marshall potentially has marriage prospects, so she keeps trying to convince Marshall to give the poor guys the time of day.

Instead of dealing with all of that, Marshall goes to bed, only to wake up as the teddy bear again. She then gets to witness the relationship drama the poor Duke is caught up in as he's forced to play nice with someone he was at war with for YEARS while their nations celebrate their peace treaty.

As I said, it's kind of an unhinged story, but I AM intrigued to see how the story will play out.

It's kind of the same reason why I still read The Fateful Invitation: to see more of Emperor Ebenezer's attempts to woo protagonist Hillaria. I'm still not a fan of Hillaria herself, but seeing her getting flustered by Ebenezer is fantastic! For those who know the anime/manga Death Note, Ebenezer is L to Hillaria's Light.... but with romance instead of a mass homicide case.... Anyway, the art style for Invitation is also GORGEOUS. Especially the details in Hillaria's dresses and fingernails! Another reason to read more.

Going back to The Duke's Teddy Bear, though. It is one of two stories that I'm reading that actually uses Daily Passes. These work like the keys on Comikey. I can use a free pass daily to read an episode that stays unlocked for 14 days. So, even though it updates Saturdays, since I'm a decent number of episodes behind, I CAN opt to read a new episode daily via the pass. The pass prevents me from binging the story in one sitting (without spending money, at least), but it does kind of incentivize me to read the story daily in order to catch up. So, I can fill those lower-volume days, such as Thursday or Sunday, with more of The Duke's Teddy Bear until I've caught up. One way to make sure I still get my 15min/day in.

The last fic on my list that updates on Saturdays is Obsidian Bride. I don't know why, but this is another story that I keep holding off on starting. Maybe it's the number of stories I have for Saturday already (or in general... it IS a lot to juggle)? I'll have to see if mentally shifting my To Read date to, say, Sundays instead of Saturdays will help me finally snuggle in to read it.

Finally, unrelated to all of the weekly updates, I have another completed story that I've started reading: Answer Me, My Prince. Much like Leveling My Husband Up to the Max, the story was completed before I even found it. Unlike Leveling, I can't just binge the story despite its completion. This is the second story I'm reading that uses Daily Pass to pay the creator. So, again, I can only read one new episode daily without paying the app. Before I get further into it though, how about a refresher of the premise:

Cordelia Grey, an editor at a publishing company, is given a manuscript of the sequel to The Princess and the Knight along with a vintage chest. But when she wakes up the next morning, the manuscript she placed in the chest is gone -- a letter is in its place. It’s from none other than Prince Archie Albert, the handsome playboy and protagonist from the novel. What begins as curiosity morphs into a deep friendship, but can they stop themselves from developing feelings for one another, and will they ever get to meet in person?

The correspondence between Cordelia and Archie is absolutely adorable. They are both so playful but also vulnerable. They quickly fall into a pattern of giving both themselves and each other nicknames as they come up with fun ways to open and close their letters.

It feels a little like You've Got Mail with how the leads communicate in their letters. It also feels a little like The Lake House with regards to the magic behind how Cordelia and Archie can become pen-pals in the first place. Actually, the mystery of how the letters teleport to each recipient, as well as the time differential between Cordelia and Archie, has had me thinking so much about The Lake House recently that I kind of want to have a rewatch of the movie. I mean, Hubby, Aurora Morgen, and I have wanted to do a Keanu Reeves marathon anyway. Might as well add this one to the Watch List, right?

The main mystery of Answer Me is, of course, that of the book chest and how it "delivers" the letters to each of the leads (along with other things; the two frequently send books back and forth to each other like the nerds they are). The other main mystery though? What happened between the events of the in-universe book The Princess and the Knight and the sequel manuscript that Cordelia is supposed to be editing.

The main plot of The Princess and the Knight tells the tale of a heartbroken princess and her knight, who had fallen in love with her. The princess was given advice to have the knight do something hard but trivial to prove that he truly loved her. She tasked him to simply stand outside her window for 100 days (presumably the man could eat, sleep, and go to the bathroom, but otherwise spend his waking hours doing nothing but standing outside her window... but also, it was a fairytale, so... maybe not???). On the 100th day, when the princess would finally accept the knight's declaration of love, he gave up on his task and wordlessly walked into the sunset, never to be seen again. The distraught princess, realizing her love for the knight, chases after him, and the story ends. A sort of The Lady, or the Tiger? style of ending, as Cordelia tells it. Why did the knight give up just before completing his task? Does the princess find the knight and live happily ever after? Does she never find him? Does he reject her outright (hence him giving up on her challenge)? Does she return home and marry another? The reader never knows.... at least, until the sequel that Cordelia is editing.

In the sequel, it is revealed that the princess's fate is also unknown to her father, and he instead appoints his niece as his successor. It is the niece's son - Prince Archie - who eventually discovers that the princess did indeed find the knight, and that they lived together in secret within a small cottage in the woods. There, they had a son; the true heir to the throne. In the manuscript, Archie discovers the princess's and knight's gravestones, but their son is nowhere to be found. Archie's older sister, who is the crown princess and the villainess of the story, stops at nothing to hunt down this threat to her inheriting the crown.

When Cordelia discovers that the prince is real, she helps him in his attempts to placate his sister, find the lost prince, and negotiate a peaceful solution that also solidifies his sister's claim to the throne.

We, the reader, know that the runaway princess and her child are both redheads. We also know, via Archie's correction of events - for instance, his mother was the runaway princess's best friend, not cousin - that the manuscript isn't a perfect one-to-one of the facts of Archie's life and world. Add in that Cordelia's also a redhead, as is her mother - who also implied that she (the mother) was reverse-isekai'd - and a LOT of readers are speculating that the "lost prince" is actually a lost princess... and that said princess is Cordelia.

The story isn't terribly action-packed or overtly romantic, but it IS intriguing. So I'm enjoying myself with my daily reads as I make my way through the story.

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The various webcomics aren't even everything that I read in May! There's also fanfiction.

Yeah! I got back into reading fanfiction. Sorta...

Earlier I had mentioned chatting with MLG. Well, that's because she came out of her own writing hiatus in order to participate in MariChat May. Basically, a month dedicated to the Marinette and Chat Noir corner of the Love Square. She wrote exclusively ficlets that ranged from 500 to 1700 words. Still, the fact that she wrote FIVE new pieces of fiction in quick succession after a writing hiatus is impressive. Doing so within the same week!?! Incredibly inspiring.

If you want to check out MLG's MariChat May fics:

  • Bread and Honey
    After the death of his cousin and his cousin’s wife, Adrien finds himself the father of two small children. Not wanting to force sudden parenthood on his girlfriend, Adrien breaks up with Marinette and moves to London for the twins. Marinette, stubborn to the last, won't let Adrien give up on their relationship that easily. When she can't convince Adrien that she'll stick with him through thick and thin, Marinette forces her way into Adrien's life in the way he needs most at the moment—as the twins' nanny. Not that she's making life easy for him. Whatever happened to the sweet girl he'd known in their teen years?
    TL;DR Marinette is temptation, and Adrien is losing his sanity.

    *LycoRogue's Note: This is a flash fic less than 500 words long
  • Midnight Snack
    Chat Noir finds his good friend Marinette crying on her balcony. She’s sorry, but she’s so hungry.

    *LycoRogue's Note: A bit of a supernatural twist to the superhero canon.
  • Dendro Problems
    They're like champagne problems, but Alhaitham flavored.

    *LycoRogue's Note: References a Genshin Impact character
  • Ice Cream (and Revenge) Are Best Served Cold
    Chat Noir drops by Marinette’s place for ice cream and cuddles after a rough evening. Marinette does not take it well.

    *LycoRogue's Note: Spy x Family inspired
  • Ha! You Think That’s Embarrassing?
    Marinette is on a bad date. Adrien notices and sends his very good friend Chat Noir to the rescue.

    *LycoRogue's Note: What if Adrien and Marinette didn't meet as their civilian selves until they were adults?

That last one, in particular, really struck a chord with me for some reason. I don't know if it's because it was the longest out of the five. Or if it was because it was closest to canon while also.... not? Adult Adrien and Marinette were reverted back to their awkward season 1 personalities, which was fun since I do miss those characterizations a bit. There was also more playfulness in that last story compared to the previous four. Finally, while the story was told from Marinette's perspective, it very much felt like Adrien's story.

I couldn't help myself. I gushed in the comments section about how I saw Adrien's side of the story. MLG responded in kind. And I was done for. I knew I couldn't let it go unless I went ahead and wrote out this story.

My dudes.... I NEARLY QUINTUPLED MLG'S STORY!!!! How do these stories keep running away from me like this!?

I just had too much fun messing with poor Adrien. I finished writing my companion piece five days after MLG had published her story (I think it was only two days of writing, though...). It... then kept me another four days to figure out what to title the darn thing....

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Much like with You Pretended Not to Care, I was probably way overthinking my story title options. In the end, I decided to just title the story off of the song I was listening to on repeat while I was writing it: I Think I Like You by The Band CAMINO.

I Think I Like You (Maybe More Than I Should)

Summary: Adrien is intrigued by one of the junior designers at his father's company. Maybe more intrigued than a few passing interactions with Marinette would warrant. At least, that's what Plagg jokes when Adrien notices Marinette on an abysmal date and decides to intervene... as Chat Noir.
  • Rating: General Audience
  • Word Count: 7,974
  • Est. Reading Time: 40min
  • Status: Completed one-shot
• On ArchiveOfOurOwn               • On FanFiction
• On DeviantArt               • On Tumblr

This story got so much love, and it is still rolling in. Thank you, to all of my readers. I'm glad my thieving of MLG's story was so well received. My building off of her hard work tends to net me a lot of love, if I'm honest.

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24 Hour Stats

AO3: 267 hits, 31 kudos, 3 bookmarks, and 4 comments
FFN: 88 views, 3 faves, 4 follows, but no reviews
DA: 72 views, but no other engagement

Total Results: 427 views, 34 kudos/faves, 7 bookmarks/follows, and 4 reviews

Tumblr Notes: 8 total; 3 likes off my post, another 2 likes off Ladynoir AO3 Feed's post, 2 reblogs off my post, and another reblog off LN AO3's post

AO3 Comments:
  1. AAAAA so so so so cute ♡ I kinda want more of this kind of AUs
  2. *MLG's Review: See Below*
  3. Oooh, I love that this story is from Adrien’s perspective, usually I see this kind of thing from Marinette’s. Adrien’s so smitten with Marinette and neither of them seem to realize it - at first, anyway XD
  4. They are so adorable. I think Adrien thinking Marinette’s awkwardness as cute is one of my favorite things. 💚💚💚

MLG had so many emojis in her comment! I loved the love! I truly did. I'm glad she enjoyed my take on her story.

MostLovedGirl: So many moments had me grinning and laughing. 😂 Loved it! These two are such dorks and are so gone for each other. I especially appreciated the emphasis Adrien gave to wanting to get to know Marinette better instead of the cliche “love at first sight” trope. Much healthier (despite all the low-key stalking 🤣). Poor boi is so infatuated and so screwed. 😂 At least Marinette is equally awkward and out of her depth. They are well matched. Marinette is going to be *pissed* as Ladybug (due to embarrassment) when the identity reveal happens. “I was in love with *you* all this time?!” “Wait. You love me?” And then they get married a year later. The end. 😆

Due to the aforementioned burnout and delay in publishing this update - despite working on it daily since May 30th - I completely blanked on taking my Week 1 stats. Which means we get to just jump ahead to the current stats of the story. I'm surprised at how much it grew in the 20-some days it's been live.

Current (at time of publishing) Stats

AO3: 611 hits, 66 kudos, 7 bookmarks, and 8 comments
FFN: 178 views, 8 faves, 5 follows, and 3 reviews (first one came in just past the 24hr mark)
DA: 258 views, but still no other engagement

Total Results: 1047 views, 74 kudos/faves, 12 bookmarks/follows, and 11 reviews

Tumblr Notes: 10 total; 5 likes off my post, plus the previous 2 likes off Ladynoir AO3 Feed's post, 2 reblogs off my post, and another reblog off LN AO3's post

New AO3 Comments:
  1. This is sooo cute! I need more of this story!
  2. *Another lengthy review: See Below*
  3. THIS IS SO GOOD / Amazing writing <3 <3 <3
  4. *Third semi-lengthy review: See Below*
FFN Reviews:
  1. Bet you ten bucks that as soon as he hears about the date, Gabriel will send an akuma to interrupt it. / He's a jerk like that.
  2. oh my goodness. this was so cute!
  3. Hah! That ending with [Redacted Due To Spoilers]! LOL! / I really loved it, no surprise. I always enjoy your work. I read the work that inspired this one first, too. It was fun to get both perspectives! Thanks for sharing, it was so nice to see a new story from you!

Lots of love to those comments. I know I'm pulling out the longer ones, but that's because they are too lengthy to include in a bulleted list without it becoming overwhelming. Please know that if you simply leave me a single emoji as a comment on my stories I will still love and cherish the fact that you felt compelled to interact with my writing.

Thank you. I love you.

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As for those pulled reviews though....

Lengthy Review #1:
Oooh soooo sweeeet!!!!
I love the fact that Adrien just start adoring Mari from the first sight. And her just randomly
[Redacted Due To Spoilers] 😂😂😂 They are just mix of sweetness and chaos xdd

I got so scared for Mari there!! I was scared that date with the dude was him making her go on the date or he kick her out or something. I was just really scared that he had some power over her. But then it turns out it was
[Redacted Due To Spoilers] 😭😂😂😂

Adrien/chat constantly thinking that Mari is cute? I live for it😂😂💖💖

Also love the end!!! I love our sunshine boy being just too excited to [Redacted Due To Spoilers]!!!

Great work!!!!!💖💖
Lengthy Review #2:
        Well, given that canon is largely from Marinette's POV, combined with the fact that Most Fanfic Writers Are Female, the comparatively little Adrien POV we get shouldn't be much of a surprise. That only makes it more precious to me.
        I like that you had him nervous even though
[Redacted Due To Spoilers]. I think most women don't realize what kind of risk a man is taking when he puts himself out there like that. If he's a decent guy, he has lowered his defenses, and he doesn't know whether she's going to take that opportunity to hurt him.

I agree with a lot of my reviews. This AU is too adorable with awkward Adult Adrien and Marinette stumbling their way into a relationship. I don't know if I can push through my burnout to write more within this universe, but I kind of want to.

My new story isn't the only one getting love lately, though.

I'm super excited - but also a touch embarrassed, simply due to the rating of the fic - that my Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story fic is still very regularly getting love. Not so much with comments, but I'm getting kudos nearly daily still! I also got two reblogs on Tumblr!

Here's the stats.

Stats from Last Update

AO3: 197 hits, 22 kudos, 2 bookmarks, and 4 comments
DA: 118 views, but still no interaction (probably never will get any, if I'm honest)

Total Results: 315 views, 22 kudos, 2 bookmarks, and 4 reviews

Tumblr Notes: 2 likes and 1 reblog

Comparitively, here's my stats now!

Current (at time of publishing) Stats

AO3: 627 hits, 62 kudos, 7 bookmarks, and the same 4 comments as before
DA: Now up to 131 views; probably will never get any other interaction on the story, if I'm honest.

Total Results: 758 views, 62 kudos, 7 bookmarks, and 4 comments

Tumblr Notes: 4 likes and 2 reblogs

I... The GROWTH! The NYTRS fandom must be thirstier than I thought. I was NOT expecting my smut story to be getting such regular reads and kudos! I'm glad that I apparently did a good enough job to warrant this love. Also, due to the subject matter and how people don't necessarily want it tied back to their account, I get why most of my views/kudos are from guests instead of named accounts. Likewise, I get why my comments section is relatively bare. I'm still thrilled to have this much love.

Especially since my first published smut - Sparks for the Moment - is nearly 5 years older, but doesn't even have 2x as many views, has an equal number of comments, and has fewer kudos and bookmarks. Could be a fandom differential, considering NYTRS is still on-going and Bitterblue was already an old book when I wrote my story. Still. It's nice to have that reassurance about a type of writing (smut) that I wasn't sure I was good at.

For oh-so-brief of a time in May I actually rode that writing high from getting so much love on my stories.

I published I Think I Like You (Maybe More Than I Should) on the 18th. The following day, Hubby and I watched the season (series? I hope not, given the cliffhanger) finale of Hailey's On It! The finale really cranked up the dial on the romance of the show. I was excited, but also nervous that the show would be cancelled before we get a season two and a conclusion to the cliff hanger. At the same time, though, I was a bit disappointed in myself. Back in, what, November? I had thought of that HOI fanfic of Scott confessing his feelings to Hailey. I had slept on actually writing that fic though, despite writing out an outline for it in January/February. After watching the finale, I feel like my story would have killed it. Did I miss my window?

I checked the show tag on both AO3 and FFN. Sadly, the show did seem to be dying. The finale only sparked one new story, as opposed to easily a dozen in the Miraculous Ladybug fandom with any given season finale. As for the show tag as a whole? There was only a couple dozen stories total on each site. I tore through most of the stories available (adding to my overall impressive - for me - reading time last month), and kind of scratched my head about how FEW Scott/Hailey stories there were... given her kissing Scott is kind of a key plot point of the series.... Scott's younger sister Becker clearly stole the show in the eyes of the fandom. So, even if I did publish, would I get any views? The fandom seems to be dying/non-existent, and most people seem to either not ship Hailey with Scott or only ship her with Scott if it's a polycule.

Then again, I didn't think I'd find any Bitterblue fans left when I posted my smut, and I still got 1300+ hits over the past 5 years. Maybe there's other Hailey/Scott shippers like me who are craving for content.

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Screw it! I wanted to write this story for over half-a-year now! Even if there are 5 other Scott/Hailey shippers left in the world, I want to write this story!

Write for myself, right?

With renewed interest in the story, and new determination to get it written, I started churning it out. I got about 1/2 way through the story, and about 2200 words in, before I hit my wall.

Between using the nice weather and renewed energy outside of work to try to catch up on housework, running out of down time at work because of the new projects, enjoying my front porch while trying to catch up on Dracula Daily entries, and pausing the story so I could instead work on this blog update.... well, my "Hailey's On It! story posted timely after the finale's cliffhanger" plan turned into my "I'll.... finish it before the end of the summer?" plan.

Let's hope I can break through this burnout and can find the time and energy to get back into writing. My latest story awaits! Do you peeps think I can get it done before the end of June so that I have a new story every month for the 2nd quarter of the year!?

I'm taking bets.

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Saturday, February 10, 2024

Head Empty; Time for a New OC

Est. Read Time: 30 min

Well, if this isn't an encouraging start to the year... publishing my first update - my JANUARY update - OVER A WEEK INTO FEBRUARY! Yup. Excellent start. (Do I get points for chipping away at it daily since January 30th?)

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I'll be honest. I hadn't thought of this blog or my New Year's Resolutions at all last month (minus the last two days because I was trying to make my January deadline). This is the main reason I'm still using Josefin Sans for the text font. I just couldn't find the energy to even begin to narrow down which font to permanently keep. As for writing itself, I only ever-so-briefly gave that any thought. Yup. This is an awesome start of a new year for a writer. Why am I STILL so burnt out!? (We'll get to that...)

Anyway, how about a quick refresher on the resolutions I came up with for 2024?

  1. Take another run at posting at least one blog update every month; 12 updates in total before the close of 2024.
  2. Read an average of 7.5hrs per month (that's the equivalent of 15min per day for a 30-day month)
  3. Write Plagg-centric stories for the two Friday 13ths this year: September and December
  4. Publish at least one narrative each quarter of the year: 4 stories total; once every 3 months.

How am I doing on those? Well...

1. I'm publishing January's post a third of the way into February. So, I'm clearly doing amazing with this goal already. I'll get more into the "why"s below. Regardless, I'm not letting that defeat me, and have been working on it steadily (albeit minimally) for the past 12 days. I'll consider that a little win.

2. I..... forgot to record how much I've read last month. I have no clue how close I got to this goal, but I can safely bet I wasn't close at all. I haven't read nearly as much as I would have liked. I've been so burnt out that I haven't even raced to instantly read the latest updates to those webcomics I started following (and excitedly talked about last post). It... it's been rough. This month hasn't been encouraging either given that I have barely cracked open any printed narratives a week into February... sooooooooo.... yeaaaaaaaah....

3. I have time for this one, but I have NO ideas on what the story plots would even be yet.

4. Head empty. No thoughts. No plots. I'm already fearful about hitting this "stretch-goal"....

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Hubby and I tried. We looked up a list of "20 good luck foods to eat at New Year's". We had at least half of them. We even stood on only our right foot at the strike of midnight so we could start 2024 off "on the right foot".

Maybe we overcorrected for 2023 and ended up jinxing ourselves????

To be fair, the year has at least been kinder to us than it has been for many others that we personally know. Unfortunate for us, that still resulted in adding a lot to our plates. For example, my poor manager ended up losing two loved ones within the same week, and then had a major health scare with one of her pets. She thought she was going to lose him too. Thankfully, he pulled through, but she still had to call off of work the next day to monitor him while he was recovering. So, I had a couple of work days where I was running the shop solo. Weeeeee.

One of those days was the highest sales day of the week. Of COURSE everyone decided to come buy the day I'm alone. Sheesh.

On top of that chaos, Manager was sick for the better part of a week (probably due to a weakened immune system brought on by the stress of all of the above). Then it was Biker Coworker - whom, from now on, shall be simply known as Chatty... because... boy howdy is she! - who was sick for the week. She kept saying "It's not covid! It's not the flu! It's just my annual sinus infection!" The frequency she stressed this though almost makes me question it.... And my throat has been a bit scratchy lately.... yay!

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On top of that, I got into a.... bit of a verbal battle with my General Manager a couple of weeks back. Argument over paychecks and how a sale's payout should be handled. This resulted in GM having to have A Talk with Manager. Said talk was during Manager's Hell Week, so she ended up UNLOADING. It was very much needed and I'm super proud of her. It ended up leaving us in a weird limbo with the GM for the rest of the month, though, and I think he's lowkey avoiding talking to any of us now....

Although, he HAS been a little heavy-handed with the "really appreciate you!" and "Good catch!" and "Keep up the good work!" and "This really helps, thank you so much!" emails this past week, so....

On top of all of that, the work projects keep piling up on my desk. Both figuratively and literally. Before I can complete one I have two more to sort through. When I left work last Saturday I literally had three different piles of projects organized by priority. Meanwhile, both of my coworkers' desks were virtually empty....

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If I don't already have enough going on at work, I'm also apparently an unofficial copyeditor for other companies. For two different manufacturers that our company works with, I've had to go through different marketing material. One was price cards for the current national sale. The other was the merchandizing catalog for customers to flip through. The price cards had multiple typographical errors (such as incorrect pricing) and formatting issues - such as a text box being too small so it bumped the last letter of a word onto the next line - that I had to sort out. I also needed confirmation on a few things.... things the manufacturer sales rep has YET to respond to me about, and it's been two weeks! For the catalog, there were pages that we just got last week that were printed in October and were depicting items that were discontinued in July.... so.... I needed to figure out what to do about those.... There was also a catalog page where the item identification number had a typo in it. If we looked up the item based on the catalog's ID number we wouldn't be able to find it in order to price it up. After confirming that it WAS a typo - as opposed to a new model that we didn't get pricing for yet - I had to break out a permanent marker to manually correct the ID on the catalog page. Real professional looking.

Then, for our OWN company, we use a marketing company to produce our advertisements. I don't know what the hold-up was, but they were a week behind in getting our sale price tags and promotional flyer to us. They prioritized posting the sale on our website first. Fine. I printed the flyer off of the website in order to know what items are on sale for the month. I noticed that one of the items pictured didn't have the proper description. I emailed the GM asking which was the error: the description or the product item? Turns out it was the description. I got one of those "Great catch! Thanks for the help!" emails from him before he emailed the marketing team to fix the flyer online ASAP. On top of that, GM didn't even know what I was talking about at first. He forwarded me the email the marketing team sent him with a proof of the email blast flyer, and the item was properly described there. So.... THAT was a thing....

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Guys (manufacturers). I am begging you. I already have enough on my plate. Could you maybe hire your own copyeditors (and/or get your acts together) so this is sorted out BEFORE it gets sent to your retailers? What are the other retailers doing when they get these messes? Do they have people in their stores catching these errors as well? Or are they just unknowingly running with them?

I haven't even mentioned the cranky, demanding, and entitled customers. The whirlwind customers who can't be bothered to listen to your answer to their last question before they jump into another one. The customers who need you to explain/demonstrate something 3x because they aren't paying attention to you despite specifically asking for that explanation/demonstration. The customers who are told they are already getting an item 40% off and STILL ask "can't you do anything better about the price?" The customers who can't make up their mind, so they buy a product, only to cancel the sale and buy another product, only to cancel THAT and buy the original product again, only to cancel AGAIN and buy something COMPLETELY DIFFERENT from what they came in for. The customers who are incredibly incorrect in the information they got from "researching on the internet" but are convinced that YOU are the uninformed one and/or you're simply trying to swindle them. The customers who "have spent a lot of money with this company" and so they feel you should just "throw in" $400 worth of items for free! The customers who specifically tell you that they do not want X, Y, or Z for the product they're looking for, so you avoid showing them items that include X, Y, or Z, and then they demand to know why you didn't show them those products - as if we're gatekeeping or something - and then COMPLAIN about how the product is DEFINITELY not something they'd buy when they try it out, how dare we show it to them! The customers who decide, four months after getting their item, that we clearly gave them the wrong item and we should correct this.

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When I get home my head officially turns off. There's just too much going on at work, and my brain taps out after that 8hr shift. I can't even really enjoy recreational things if it requires any semblance of brain power. I'm actually a touch grateful that Hubby hasn't started his D&D campaign back up yet. I have no clue how good at roleplaying I'd be right now. Ironic, since that's the limited amount of "writing" I've done in January. I'll explain in a bit.

But first! We need to power through a bit of an info-dump to properly set the stage. Join me as we sift through the drama that is

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As you could probably tell from my last update, I've been sucked down the NoPixel rabbit hole. More accurately, Hubby has. I'm just along for the ride. Mostly because it (a)allows me time with Hubby, and (b)requires virtually no mental effort on my part to enjoy.

While the main focus for us last year was on Ray__C and his character Raymond Romanov, the 4.0 launch brought back Sykkuno to NoPixel, and Hubby has been eating this content UP! There's an ongoing joke that Sykkuno himself has Main Character Energy (while still being humble and a little self-deprecating) and is protected by Plot Armor. This has resulted in the NoPixel running joke that Sykkuno's character Yuno Sykk is the "shadow leader" of Los Santos. Yuno's return to the server seems to prove that he truly is the Shadow Leader. He's already started, left, and joined at least four different "gangs" and has an apparent platonic harem.

My last post, I had introduced you all to Yuno's first gang "The Company". He was an original member and co-founder, but he pretty much did everything he could to not actually run it. While the other 5 founding members each had an executive branch they were in charge of - CEO, CFO, COO, etc - Yuno begged them to just let him have the humble title of "janitor" within The Company. We'll stick a pin in The Company for a beat as we move to Yuno's second "gang".

Fellow Company member Benji, played by Lysium, had a LOT of personal drama in the 3.0 era due to his messy love life. Because of this, Benji spent the in-universe five years between 3.0 and 4.0 to self-reflect. He decided to take a self-vow of celibacy. He wasn't going to let himself be messed up by carnal desires again. Benji and Yuno then met up with Tommy T., played by Zerkaa. Tommy had also decided to be celibate for 4.0. Add in Yuno, whom, much like Sykkuno himself, constantly claims that "girls aren't into me". Since a prominent gang in 3.0 was "Chang Gang" (aka CG), Yuno joked that they were the new CG: Celibate Gang. He then ran around the server recruiting any of his friends that also decided they weren't going to have any romance RP with their character, ergo the character would be celibate.

The main problem with Yuno co-founding Celibate Gang is that 4.0 somehow brought about "Yuno's Harem Arc". Sykkuno has always felt more comfortable having a bunch of female friends, and so Yuno likewise routinely hangs out with a bunch of female characters. He's also somehow both subtly and INCREDIBLY charismatic, so he's unintentionally wooing ladies left and right. But "Girls just aren't into me," so Yuno (and probably Sykkuno himself) has no clue these ladies have crushes on him. The main "totally not a love interest" is the character Lottie, played by MinksOfMars.

One of the big social "problems" of the 3.0 server was how easily characters could just adopt each other. It resulted in Yuno's 3.0 family tree turning into more of a family web.

Yuno Sykk's 3.0 family, as presented on the NoPixel wiki

Now, it's been pared down DRASTICALLY for 4.0, but Yuno still has his twin sister Ray Mond, played by Valkyrae, his adopted older brother Gloryon, played by Garek, and his adopted younger sister Raia, played by LadyDima. Although, a new server rule that just went into affect in February limited everyone to just one adopted kid, so Yuno isn't allowed to call Gloryon or Raia his siblings anymore... it's a whole thing...

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Along with Yuno's adopted-but-no-longer-adopted siblings, Yuno is an adopted cousin to Lottie. Or... used to be? Lottie's adoptive mother is Yuno's adoptive mother's adoptive sister. So, since Yuno's and Lottie's mothers aren't allowed to be adoptive siblings anymore Yuno and Lottie may not be adoptive cousins anymore??? Like I said. It's a whole thing....

Regardless, back when people could still have adoptive siblings and Yuno and Lottie were cousins, neither Yuno nor Lottie knew their familial connection when they started hanging out. They just really clicked and instantly became besties. Then his friends started teasing that Yuno and Lottie were an item. The two sorted out that they were related, and so Yuno would correct everyone shipping him with Lottie, letting them know/reminding them that he and Lottie were related. To which, Lottie kept reminding everyone "not by blood".... For a while a LOT of people leaned into this joke. Even setting up a wedding for the two, much to Yuno's embarrassment and chagrin. Benji and Tommy T. were some of the biggest offenders, teasing that they had to kick Yuno out of Celibate Gang. Yuno would then counter by pointing out how much Benji was flirting with Ray Mond, and how HE was the one who should be kicked out of CG.

As of this writing, all three founding members of Celibate Gang are still holding strong, but they also all still tease each other (or, more accurately, tease Benji and Yuno) about having to be kicked out of the group.

Especially because Yuno's "harem" also includes Ray Mond's best friend Gigi Costello, played by AngelKnivez. Gigi hated Yuno at first, but instantly fell for him when he went out of his way to make up for a wrong against her (despite Yuno not really having anything to do with the griefing). His adopted sister Raia, despite already being married, also wants to monopolize Yuno's time in a manner that may not be strictly platonic/familial.... The "most eligible bachelorette" on the server also has a passing crush on Yuno. Finally, there are a few female co-workers throughout the many jobs that Yuno works that also seem to have at least minor crushes on him.

But, according to Yuno, "Girls just aren't into me". Uh huh. Sure. It's endearing that the poor man has no clue when someone is flirting with him. And he has no clue how smooth he actually is. I'd give examples, but when I did that to poor Aurora Morgen ne ended up having a novella's worth of info-dumping to sift through, and this is getting pretty hefty already. So I'll spare the rest of you. If you're truly interested, you can check out Sykkuno's VODs on YouTube, or peruse some of the highlights on Sykkuno's side channel: Daily Sprout Clips.

There were also two dating-related events hosted in-game. The first was a fundraiser where people offered to be auctioned off for a date with the winning bidder. The second was a dating game with a potential cash prize. For the auction, those being auctioned off for dates were given 10% of their winning bid. Because Yuno has Main Character Energy, Gigi convinced the hosts of the event to give Yuno an exclusive deal: he got half of his winning bid. Gigi knew it would convince the founding member of Celibate Gang to participate (his main focus is to get more money). He ended up being one of the highest-going dates, with his sister Raia winning the date after an intense bidding war for Yuno (a bidding war poor Gigi got outbid in right out the gate). As for the dating game, a bachelorette (the aforementioned "most eligible bachelorette" who had a crush on Yuno) held a series of quick games and challenges to narrow a pool of contestants down to one. Then they would have to decide if they would split the $5k cash prize or if they would try to steal the whole amount from the other. Through a series of Plot Armor-infused events that I won't get into here, Yuno did end up as the winning contestant. The bachelorette sniped the money from him in the end, but watching him somehow sneak his way through the game was quite funny.

For those interested in killing about 20 to 30min each, here is the video compilation of the winning auction bid for Yuno, and here is one for the dating game.

So, as Yuno is going through his "harem arc" and is joking around with CG, he's also struggling to find traction in The Company. It feels like more drama than it's worth as 6 strong personalities clash against each other and half of their days are spent having meetings. Meetings that bore Sykkuno and that he feared were poor content for his streams anyway. On top of all of that, it was the actions of The Company - without Yuno's involvement - that caused Gigi to be mad at Yuno in the first place, because 98% of the drama on the server is simply due to miscommunication. The whole thing was starting to crumble around Yuno and it wasn't the healthiest environment.

Meanwhile, his in-game best friend and former gang leader Lang Buddha, played by Buddha, discreetly created his own gang, unofficially called OldBois; spiritual successor to his 3.0 gang Cleanbois, which itself was a spiritual successor to his 2.0 gang Leanbois. Yuno fairly quickly jumped ship on The Company and joined OldBois instead. Then, completely unrelated to Yuno (maybe a liiiiiiittle related to Yuno?) The Company and OldBois went to war with each other. It was actually pretty funny to see the extent The Company members went to in order to keep Yuno out of the war and to avoid being aggressive towards him despite Yuno technically being part of the opposing gang.

Plot Armor.

The final "gang" Yuno is a part of? Well, as I mentioned, he does a lot of different jobs to grind out money. His main job is Gruppe 6 aka G6. Basically a NoPixel/GTA parody of those Brink's security trucks for money transfers. Due to the nature of the job, and the fact that most non-cop characters on the server didn't have access to guns yet - including the G6 workers, ironically - G6 workers get robbed pretty frequently. On January 30th, Yuno was doing a job and was the victim of one such robbery. Later that same day, while doing another G6 run, he became involved in a full-on brawl between three or four G6 trucks - with roughly 3 workers each - and a gang of at least 6 robbers. Roughly half of the Gruppe 6 workers were downed and the robbers ended up getting away. All the while, despite 9 different G6 workers calling in-game 911, not a single cop responded. We later found out that they were all busy trying to stop the bombing of a prominent city business. At the time, though? The lack of cop presence to protect the workers, combined with the G6 workers not hesitating to come to each others' aid, sparked Yuno's desire to keep his coworkers safe. For his next job, Yuno teamed up with Raia, her husband Jason, played by Nmplol, and their roommate Clayton, played by Boruleum. They also called up Lottie for extra backup. Yuno, as a joke, convinced the team to don his signature cat-ear motorcycle helmet and glowing shoes, each in a different color, that way they would look like the Power Rangers. They dubbed themselves the "G6 Rangers".

L-R: Jason as the Pink Ranger, Raia as Purple Ranger,
Yuno as White Ranger, Clayton as the Red Ranger (Leader),
and Lottie as Green Ranger

My favorite part of that picture is that Yuno is the only one looking at the camera and he wasn't even the one who took the picture. Raia was.

The G6 Rangers' mission was to do all they could to keep their coworkers safe, and to promise to come to any G6 worker's aid. As the group did their run they actually did manage to scare away some would-be robbers, which inspired more G6 workers. Within 24hrs there were already G6 Ranger impersonators and G6 workers who wished to officially join The Rangers. Within three days, there were 22 official members of the G6 Rangers! The cat-ears motorcycle helmet and glowing shoes are included as an official G6 Ranger uniform within the Gruppe 6 employee handbook! And Yuno/Sykkuno only created them as a passing joke!

Main Character Energy.

OK, so, what's my point with info-dumping all of this about Yuno and NoPixel? Well, we've circled back to what I said about the limited "writing" I did in January and the irony of it being RPG-based given how I'm probably too burnt out to play D&D.

The more that Hubby and I watch the NoPixel content - mostly via Sykkuno's VODs, but also sometimes catching Ray__C's or MinksOfMars's streams - and the more miscommunication there is between characters, the more I think of what I would have said to try to clear things up a bit (but not SO much as to kill the content).

In January, I found myself fantasizing about joining NoPixel and interacting with these characters. Being part of these storylines somehow. It was almost a PAINFUL amount of fantasizing. I seriously had to take a step back and not watch as much of NoPixel with Hubby. It was getting a bit... unhealthy... the amount of time I spent fantasizing and how pained I felt when I realized the minuscule likelihood of me not only getting onto the server but also running into these characters with any sort of regularity... like I said, I had to take a mental break from this obsession.

Before I did though? Well, I can't fantasize about playing on NoPixel if I don't have a character, right? I mean I COULD just picture a self-insert character, but I don't know if I'd want to do something like that in an RPG. I'd want to run a CHARACTER; not MYSELF. What character would I play on NoPixel though?

I debated bringing in manic arsonist and psychopath/sociopath (? I'm still not sure which one she is) Trish "Lighter" Morrison. She's proooooobably not the greatest option for a starter character, though. Trying to sort out how to even play the game and create connections while cursing up a storm, dropping f-bombs (which is totally out of character for *ME*) every other sentence, and being as destructive as possible..... it would be A LOT. I don't know if it would even bring me the sort of attention I would want as Trish. I'm sure it would bring in both the hardcore fans and the vicious haters, and I don't have the skin for the haters. Not yet, at least. I also don't know if I would be able to build the character connections I would want to establish for myself on the server. Ignoring all of that, I have no clue if I would even be able to do Trish justice if she was my first character out-the-gate. I mean.... how do you even DO arson in GTA???

I then debated importing Jolene. She'd be a great fit. Sexy. Slinky. Sneaky. Manipulative. Constant flirt. Man eater. Seductress. Cat burglar. Her backstory has her constantly run out of town once her prostitution and thievery is noticed by enough people, so there's my reason for her to be new to Los Santos: running from wherever the hell she was last. Her personality means it should be relatively easy for her to make connections with a bunch of people. Perfect!

Except.... April Fooze, played by Fuslie, is already RIGHT. THERE!

"Siren"
Song by April Fooze (Fuslie),
feat Ryan King and Hubcap Jones

April's also just the character that I'm most familiar with. She's a full-on trope on NoPixel: man-eater manipulators that make money via Sugar Daddies. Jolene would just be another dime-a-dozen. Probably not the best option. Plus, I never remember how I spell her damn last name. So I'd have to either (a)keep a reference sheet on me, (b)constantly look at my character's ID, or (c)accept that I'd be misspelling her last name all the time....

OK, so Jolene's out.

Willow's essentially Jolene-Lite, but with super powers. So, without her powers, I don't know if she'd be able to get around the same issue I was mentally having with placing Jolene in Los Santos. She's out. Lia is just a meeker self-insert of me once you take her powers away. So she's out. Amara is anti-social, so probably not the best choice for a starter character. Plus, I'm White. I don't know if I'd feel comfortable playing a mixed-race character with internalized racism towards both of her heritages because they each traumatized her one way or another. Also... survivor of massive physical abuse....

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Yeeeeeaaaaaah... let's avoid Amara for NoPixel.... Probably best to keep her in the safety of my own private playgroup until I can sort her out more. And if I do ever officially write out Amara's story, you know for SURE that I'll be going through a plethora of sensitivity readers before posting anything publicly.

Moving on! How about my info broker Maggie (aka Magpie) from Scum & Villainy? Again, I don't really know the game's mechanics well enough nor would I have the connections needed to actually GET the secret info to broker. At least, not at first. I COULD still use her in my mental exercise of building a NoPixel character; trust that in my mental mock-up I could succeed in gathering important info. The character Gigi Gambino (different from the one referenced above), played by GEEGA, was able to essentially do what I was picturing for Maggie. Namely, just sit and patiently people-watch to get the tea. Too many characters are "loud" about what criminal activities they're trying to do or what their drama is. Add in some Yuno-like charm where Maggie tries to be friends with everyone, and: boom. Info broker.

However, I have two issues: (1)Gigi is already doing more-or-less what I would try to do, and she has more practice at it, so she's going to be more skilled. Why would characters come to Maggie instead of Gigi? (2)If I'm playing through these mental scenarios under the guise of prepping myself for it to come true - manifest it - then I'll have to accept that maybe Maggie CAN'T be a good info broker. I mean, it's largely dependent on my OWN skills.

One of the main downsides of this style of roleplay, as opposed to my normal stats-driven RPGs, is that dependence on my own, actual, IRL skills. When I'm playing D&D or Scum & Villainy or Blades in the Dark or whatever, I don't have to be skilled at, say, lock-picking for my character to be a master at breaking-and-entering. I don't have to be a good musician for my character to move people to tears with their song. My own personal charisma won't help nor hinder my character's attempts at selling snake oil. I have a stat. I tell the game master what I'm planning to do. I roll the stat. If I roll high enough I'll succeed. If I roll too low I fail. Easy. For NoPixel, however, my character is only as skilled and gifted as I am. I could have plans for Jolene to be a master seductress and cat burglar, but what happens if my charisma fails her seduction attempts? What if I personally suck at anything dealing with the various crime mechanics in-game? What if I'm not as sneaky as I'm mentally picturing Maggie? What if people don't open up to her as much as I need them to? What if no one cares about the information she gathers, or she's late to the party and everyone already knows?

If I magic my way onto the server with these character tasks in mind, and I suck at them - at least, at first - what do I have to fall back on for my character until I can get her to where I envision her?

Tanuki Facebook sticker
by Yanare Ku

So, there goes most of my established characters. It would probably be safest to think of a brand new character for GTA anyway. One that could grow and evolve with my gameplay, instead of trying to import a character and HOPE I could be skilled enough to do my character justice. What would I do for a new character though?

Head empty. Remember? Nothing but rattling going on up there. And I'm now tasking myself to come up with a NEW character!? For a game I have no clue if I'll ever play???

But try I did. First up: a name. I did that with Jolene, and her whole personality grew from her name. Maybe it could work for this hypothetical character too. But, what do I even use for a name?

There are a fair amount of characters with pun/joke names on the server. Such as Ash Ketchup played by Ash, Penelope "Penny" Farthing played by raine, and Whippy's two characters Irwin Dundee and Crocodile Steve (if you can't tell, Whippy's Australian). You also have a lot of streamers - especially within Sykkuno's circle - that just do a nod to their streamer name. Sykkuno himself created an Asian character (so the family name is technically first) named Yuno Sykk; said correctly, his name is Sykk Yuno.... April Fooze is played by Fuslie, whose streamer name is sometimes shorted to Fooze. Ray__C plays Raymond Romanov and Raycardo Flick. Buddha plays Lang Buddha. Valkyrae plays Ray Mond. New player Ellum, after two failed character attempts, ended up landing on Eli Lum. Prominent player Ssaab had the characters Al Saab and Sam Baas. Former Cleanboi and current OldBoi member Tony Corleone is played by AnthonyZ.

You get the idea.

I'm not the greatest at pun names, but I COULD maybe do a play on my online handle!

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Who's ready for some lore drop?

While it's not the reason I had originally included it into my handle, "Lyco" could be a reference to wolves. I am also routinely describing myself as a Mama Wolf and do have a bit of a penchant for the pack animal. I also included "Rogue" in my handle for two reasons: (1)it is my favorite D&D class. I have such a love/hate relationship with the Rogue class mainly because of how diverse the class is. It is the Communications Degree of D&D classes. You can be a Rogue and then make your character be just about anything you want. It's amazing. But also a bit overwhelming if you don't know which direction to take your character... hence the "hate" part of the relationship I have with the class. My second reason for adding in "Rogue"? (2)Rogue is my favorite X-Men. Well... she's kind of tied with Wolverine, but over the years I've definitely leaned more into Rogue. And that TOTALLY has NOTHING to do with Hubby's favorite X-Men being Gambit.....

Point being, while Rogue exclusively goes by her nickname, she DOES have a canonically-known birth-name: Anna Marie. Coincidentally enough, in the Bryan Singer X-Men live-action trilogy, Rogue was played by Anna Paquin. So, if I were to name my hypothetical NoPixel character after my online handle, and therefore after Rogue from X-Men, she'd be Anna Marie. Even if I went an extra layer deep and used the actress's name, it would still be Anna. Alternatively, I could go with the original voice of Rogue for me. In other words, her voice actress from The Animated Series: Lenore Zann. I think I'd be more likely to respond to Anna Marie than Lenore, though... So that locks "Anna Marie" in. I would just struggle to not accidentally say my name was "Anna Maria" since I've already mentally made that mistake. Or... do I lean into it and change it to Anna-Maria instead of just Anna Marie??? Either way, I'd probably make sure to hyphenate her first name. Then you add in that wolf reference and, boom!

Anna-Marie Wolffe.

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Man, if only I could get onto the NoPixel character creator to just generate Anna-Marie, even if I wouldn't be able to actually play her. It would be so cool to see what she might look like if I could make it onto the server. Just get that visual so I could have a proper mental image. The best I had access to, though, was good ol' Hero Forge. It may not be the NoPixel/GTA model, but it's also not too shabby of a recreation of my Bitmoji self. Right?

Maneuvering the braid so it would go over her shoulder was tricky, but I like how it turned out. Also, a rose-wrapped sword was my wedding motif, so the second I saw that it was a shirt detail option I knew that I HAD to include it! Not to say that I could create this outfit at all in NoPixel, but it was still fun to try to generate my Bitmoji Me on Hero Forge. Give me some sort of mental image of what Anna-Marie could look like in GTA.

The more I look at the side-by-side the happier I am with my end result. It was a fun way to fill some of my "brain empty" time.

I also played with the idea of adding Rogue's signature white-bangs. It's fun, but probably not a feature I'd keep. What do you guys think? Hypothetical yay? Nay? Add it specifically for Anna-Marie to make her a bit more distinct from my LycoRogue Bitmoji self (to make her less self-insert-y)?

I still don't know much about Anna-Marie. I started up a few character-building questionnaires, but... "Head Empty" and all that. So, I didn't get terribly far in any of them yet. Maybe that will be one of the things I work on for the rest of February.

In the meantime, the bits I have at least semi-figured out are as follows.

  1. I think I'd have her be roughly my age IRL. Perhaps a touch younger.
  2. I'd probably lean into the Wolffe last name and have her be a Mama Wolf on the server. Maybe even see if I could convince people to just straight up refer to her as Mama Wolffe.
  3. She'd be part-Yuno: friendly with just about everyone on the server; trying to make connections; trying to build up her "pack". She'd also be part-Raymond Romanov: viciously protective of said pack; her found family. She'd also probably be part Gigi Gambino: sneaky and discreet info-gatherer.
  4. If you hurt someone she cared about she wouldn't overtly retaliate like Raymond. I am not nearly good enough with aiming (in games or otherwise) to attack the way Raymond would. Therefore Anna-Marie wouldn't be terribly skilled at personally physically retaliating (at least, not at first). Instead, Anna-Marie would find sly ways to hit you where it hurts, or just persuade you into making up for the slight. She'd probably be a bit like Mickey Sinclaire, played by Blau, in that regard.
  5. I don't know enough of her backstory yet to know why, but Anna-Marie, much like most of Los Santos, moved to the island city in an attempt to start anew. She felt like it was time for a change in her life, and she saw opportunity in the rebuilding of this once-great city (assuming my mental roleplaying is happening this first year of the server, when everything is still new and building).
  6. She has no intentions of participating in criminal activity (not that she couldn't be persuaded/corrupted into doing them eventually). She has no qualms, however, at being "criminal adjacent". Being "in the know" and being a look-out or whatever, but purposefully tries to keep herself the clean face for any criminal friends/found-family she may make in Los Santos. A way to casually chat with the cops and maybe try to throw the scent off of her friends.
  7. Her main goal in Los Santos would be to earn enough money to get a nice, large house that people can just crash at. If you need a place to stay and shelter in, you find Mama Wolffe. She is Sanctuary.
    • 7b. My personal "main goal", if I ever were to truly make it onto the server, would be to interact with Raymond Romanov in such a way that Ray__C nearly breaks character as he does his classic "No way!" yell at his chat as he walks away from his desk. If I could interact with this man and garner this sort of response, I will consider it a Bucket List item checked off.
      ....
      Maybe that's what I should aim to do for my 40th. I've got 5 months to find a way to set up a gaming PC, purchase and play some GTA V Online to get used to the gameplay, apply to NoPixel, get approved, bring in Anna-Marie, meet up with Raymond Romanov, and get him to crack. Think I could do it?
      (Probably not with my current chaotic scheduling.....)
  8. She'd probably excitedly try to sign up to be a G6 Ranger.....
  9. She'd probably try to stick to the "Blue and Yellow/Gold" color scheme I have going for my LycoRogue persona.

Aaaaaand that's all I have right now. It will be interesting to see what kind of backstory and/or personality I can come up with for her. I'll have to touch base with you fine folks later about that.

While I was on Hero Forge anyway, working on building Anna-Marie, I got the itch to use the site to come up with minis for some of my other OCs. Some of them are still works in progress. The more features the site adds in the closer I can get to making these characters how I actually picture them.

First up was my black panther Tabaxi Emerald Gaze.

My Hero Forge recreation of the drawing I did of Emerald Gaze back in 2019.

I wish I could give EG rounder cheeks and make her a bit more muscular. Her variant of black panther is designed off of a jaguar, which are chunkier bois than their leopard counterpart. I'm also not sure I like how shaggy the fur on her forearms and hands are when the rest of her body is short-hair. But, for what I had to work with, I'm happy with how faithful I was able to keep the design.

Next up is my eccentric theater nerd... I mean bard: Bronze Dragonborn Myastan Kriv.

My Hero Forge design of Kriv vs the official D&D 5e image of a Bronze Dragon

I tried to recreate elements of a Bronze Dragon within my boy. I was able to find a beaked dragonborn head. Unfortunately, it had spikes down the back of the skull instead of smooth like the other dragonborn head options. I also couldn't give Kriv the Bronze Dragon boney finned cheeks, but I was able to find finned ears with little spikes at the end of them. I tried dropping the ears down enough to look more like the finned cheeks of the dragon. I think I'm close, but I feel like it needs tweaking still. I also couldn't add the fin down the back of his head and neck, so I gave him a green mohawk instead. Canonically, he does have the fin though. I was able to use the bronze metal coloring for Kriv's skin tone. I then added tiger stripes and colored them green to match the dragon. You can't really see here, but I also made his chest and palms that lighter silvery color the dragon has on its neck, chest, and belly. Kriv also has the dragon's green eyes and black horns on the crown of his head.

Kriv probably needs the most tweaking, given the limited selections I had for him, but I'm still proud of what I was able to build in the meantime.

My final D&D character would be good old Jolene.

My attempt at recreating my OG inspirational image of Jolene.
Original image is a character design by Grafit Studio
for an undisclosed Game Insight! game.
I doctored Grafit Studio's image to give Jolene purple hair and eyes.

Poor Jolene looks like she's 10yrs older in my Hero Forge version. Oh well. Grafit Studio's version is just Jolene in her 20s while Hero Forge Jolene is pushing 40.... Posing her to match her pose in the Grafit Studio image was soooooo tricky, but I think I did a pretty decent job.

Side Note: back when I first grabbed Grafit Studio's image and doctored it to be my visualization of Jolene, I had found it on Pinterest. I didn't bother to backtrack the image to the artist at the time. Dumb move. Bad form. I knew I needed to track down who actually drew the original art and at least link back to them. It kept me AAAAAAGES to track the image down! It was a TRIAL, but I managed it! I'm so glad to be able to now link back to the studio, at least, if not the actual artist.

Anyway, back to my Hero Forge depictions of Jolene. In truth, I can't really have Jolene without also showcasing her possessed version, so here's poor Jolene possessed by the Prime Evil Deception.

Canonically, she was terrified and tried to pretend nothing was wrong with her (only feeding Deception further.... not the smartest move on her part). It's more fun, though, to pretend her possession also started to turn her evil. More compelling imagery that way. Also, I couldn't showcase that Jolene's tongue became forked and snake-like. So... pretend that's there too.

I started working on building Trish from the X-Future canon, along with Hubby's character Chayse. I haven't perfected them yet, but here's some starter images of them.

Clearly, I am doing some important writing work here....

Anyway, that's what limited "writing" progress I've done in January. And... the first week of February, I guess.

Considering how long it kept me to write this update, I guess I better stop here so I have time to get started on the next one. Hope to see you a second time this month! Until then!

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