Showing posts with label Anna-Marie. Show all posts
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Monday, April 29, 2024

My Over-Analyzing Era

Est. Read Time: 28min
This Month's Font: Josefin Sans

Well then. I started this blog update on the 17th with so so SO much hope that I would get it done before the end of the month this time. I managed it! Win! But it still kept me 11 days to actually have this written up (and an extra day to edit).

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What happened to my weekly updates where I wrote up the post within the 6hrs or so that Hubby was at work???? Are my updates really THAT much longer now? Am I getting interrupted that much? Is my brain now too scattered to focus on something long enough to complete it within one sitting anymore? What's even going on???

Anyway, you might have noticed that I've switched up the font again this month. Going back to Josefin Sans so see how I feel about it. I dunno. I just can't find one that makes me think "That's it! That's my new font!" I may have to full-on go back to the drawing board. Maybe search for some new font options. See if I can find one that better fits what I'm looking for. I'm just nervous about finding one, only for it to be moot since most of my readers won't have access to that font on their devices.

Is that's what's been going on this whole time anyway???? Is that why no one has commented on their font preference for the past 16 months???? Does the font just change to some default like Ariel or Times New Roman or Calibri or something when you bring up my updates? Am I toiling over something that most of you can't even see???

If so... that tracks. I've been WAY over-analyzing lately, apparently.

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Oh... quick side note, since I'm talking about features readers may not even see. I spent a LOT of time last update putting in alt-text descriptions for all of my images. When I published, however, the little "alt text" clickable link that shows up on images elsewhere - such as Twitter or Tumblr - didn't show up at all. I clicked on the images and.... nothing! Does the alt-text code not work? Is it only for screen readers, and there is no other way to access the alt text???? Do I have no way of double checking on the code without using a screen reader myself?

So disappointing....

I've tried, but if the alt-text code isn't working I just don't have the energy to fruitlessly describe every image I put on this blog. If you use a screen reader or otherwise need that accessibility feature - and if you either were able to get the alt texts last post or know of an alternative way for me to include them - please let me know. I want to make sure I'm accessible to my readers, but I'm not going to make the process of writing each update needlessly longer by writing up descriptions no one can see anyway. So, in the meantime, I think I'm going back to not describing the images. Sorry....

Getting back to where I was originally going with that "over-analyzing" thought process, though. I managed to finish the smut fic that I talked about last update!

To be fair, although I do describe the full sex act between the characters, I focus more on them kissing on each other and their hands roaming each other's arms and backs and the like. I also zoom in on their thoughts and motivations as the night progresses. So, it IS technically explicit, "smutty" material, but it's not really "pornographic." So... it's like... 25% smut?

Anyway, I'm just so proud of myself. As I mentioned last update, between the two published stories I had in 2023 (totaling 1870 words) and whatever prose writing I might have done for Seduce with Caution in the past year or so, I've barely written 3k words since December 2022. Want to know how long that smut story turned out? OVER 7200 WORDS LONG!!! That is more than what I've written since June 2022!

HOW!?!

It's amazing! I feel amazing! I am GLOWING with pride and excitement over this story. Between edits and just genuine enjoyment, I must have reread this beast about a dozen times since I've completed writing it two weeks ago.

But, then comes in the over-analyzing....

I was excited about this story. I told you all last update that this story had a chokehold on me and I was writing with a renewed vigor. It kept three days of chipping away at it - March 24th, April 9th, and April 11th - but I had it done and edited on the 12th. Once completed, I was itching to publish it online.

Then I remembered that Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story is an adaptation of a webnovel. Basically, webnovels are what gets hosted by sites like FictionPress or Wattpad: typically amateur original writing published online for free consumption. Point being, it already was a novel, and yet I'm here "novelizing" the webcomic.

The whole thing felt very The Producers (2005): a movie musical adaptation of a Broadway musical adaptation of the original Mel Brooks movie from 1967 (about a fictitious Broadway musical...).

Was there even a point in publishing this story now? Was what I was craving - filling in the gap of the mental state and emotional shift within the main characters during their first night together - already available for me via the original author's novel?

It kept a little bit for me to track down, especially since I was looking under the wrong title, but I found a copy of the English translation of the original webnovel. I'm not sure how the webcomic landed on the title Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story, but the webnovel used a more literal translation of the Korean: I Thought It Was A Common Transmigration.

There's two different uploads that I found, each with their own slight translation interpretations and errors, but you can still get the basic idea of the original novel and what author Lemon Frog wanted to say.

On Moonlight Novel
On Guava Read

There were quite a few translation/localization changes between the English webnovel and the English manhwa that I found amusing. For one, Rigelhof (as it is spelled in the webcomic) was spelled Riegelhoff in the Guava Read version of the webnovel translation. For two, the butler Rhynon (webcomic) had his name spelled Renan in the webnovel translations. Then, we had the two biggest changes. The Duke's family name in the webcomic is Rudwick. In both English translations of the webnovel? Ludwig.... Finally, while the Duke's ward is Rhyse (pronounced 'Reese') in the webcomic, in the webnovel her name was apparently Lizé.

So, I guess that's one reason to go ahead with publishing my story. Like a novelization of a movie adaptation of a novel, there's going to be changes to the adaptation from the original novel. Therefore, even if the original author Lemon Frog did write up more about Edith and Killian's mental states during their first night together - if not straight up write out the sex scene - it still could have been different than how it would have played out in the webcomic version. And so, I would still be filling in that blank spot for us Webtoon fans.

Regardless, I was still curious about how Lemon Frog handled that main plot point. Yes, my story was based off of the webcomic, which was a bit different from the webnovel. However, I didn't want to publish something that majorly contradicted the webnovel (specifically, character motivations and/or mental states). At least, I didn't want to publish it without a disclaimer that it was novel non-compliant.

I flipped through the chapters real quick, and found the seduction scene in the webnovel. Turns out that Lemon Frog did the same thing as the webcomic. Killian was successful in seducing Edith. They start making out. He starts lifting the skirt of her nightgown up her legs. Hard-cut to Edith waking up in Killian's bed the next morning, still beaming about the night she had with her husband.

I even had a chuckle when I saw the comments section of the Guava Read upload that included comments like "i can never forgive the author for not giving us the full details about the night, IM CRYINHGG[sic]" and "author, think there is a big chunk of this chapter missing please fix the error asap" and "Author-nim, there is so much lacking in this novel. The details of their first night! Why?!"

Seems I'm not the only one who was like, "NOOOO! The censoring!!!!"

The comments were also either from late last year or as recent as this past February. The webnovel - at least, the English translation of it - is still relatively new! So, there were potentially others who read the webnovel translation who were still hungry for that "missing" content. Not to mention the webcomic fans, such as myself.

Lemon Frog didn't already canonically describe what I had just written out, AND there was potentially an audience for my story still! It was DEFINITELY worth posting (as opposed to just keeping it to myself).

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Added bonus? The inner monologue that I said last time was implied but not expressly stated? The focus on Killian's motivation and thoughts on losing his virginity? Edith's confusion about Killian's seduction? All of that unsaid stuff that I included in my story? It was almost all accurate, apparently!

For instance, based on how the comic artist A-jin drew Killian when he first caught Edith in his room, he didn't give off "I just got woken up" vibes.

Scene from episode 20
Story by Lemon Frog
Art by A-jin

So, I had Edith silently panicking that Killian had only been pretending to be asleep when she kissed him. Lo and behold, if you go to the novel, you have the kiss played out from Killian's point-of-view because he 100% was pretending to be asleep, just to see what Edith would do.

Again, just from studying Killian's character and the catalysts leading to him seducing Edith, I had him becoming lustful because he doesn't have to fight for Edith's affection; she'd give it freely if allowed. Plus, he felt guilty about Edith fainting and sliding into a coma for two days, which is why he didn't go to see her when he heard that she had woken up earlier that day.

Jump over to the novel, and guess what Killian's motivation for both seducing Edith and not going to see her when she woke up earlier that day were?

Quite frankly, the only thing that truly differs in my story compared to the webnovel is the amount of time they had sex together. Minor spoilers here, but, the webnovel concluded the seduction scene with, "After that, Killian couldn’t control himself. It was just the beginning of a night dominated by passion, instinct, hot body temperature, and slippery sweat." Despite going on for 7200+ words, my story definitely didn't have them go through "a night dominated by passion", etc. I did manage to work in the passion, instinct, elevated body temps, and sweat on my own. Just... not a full night's worth....

Regardless, I'm stoked that I was able to pick up on the crumbs that the adapter and illustrator left us readers, and used them to lead me to the exact character motivations and growth that Lemon Frog had for Edith and Killian.

I'm actually SUPER proud about that.

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OK! That over-think was out of the way. I was definitely publishing this story. I would then have to hope it does well within the fandom. Now, time to sort out a title for it. I couldn't just leave the file name as the title: Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story Smut....

Juuuuust.... needed an actual title...

AAAAAANY sort of title...

Once I have the title I could post the story....

Title...

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I was stumped. Nothing came to mind. There wasn't really a THEME for me to build a title off of, like Rolling Thunder or Cataclysm the Doubt. I couldn't think of a fun summary title/play on words like Peeping Tomcat or Woven Heartstrings or Prescription for Love or For Whom the Bells Toll or my last smut story Sparks for the Moment. The story wasn't based off of a song like I Don't Care or RE: Your Brains. Although, I did try finding songs that matched the vibe of the story and maybe title it off of those.

The ones that fit the best, for me, were the Dua Lipa songs "Fever" and "Pretty Please" as well as the song "Obsessed" by EMDI featuring Veronica Bravo. All of which had song titles that just felt too generic for a story title.... Although, given that Suna was isekai'd into the story Don't Obsess Over Me, Brother, perhaps calling the story "Obessed" wouldn't be too terrible....

Anyway!

Maybe the tried and true "use a line or bit of dialogue from the story to title it" method would work better?

I had three potential candidates. All were lines from Killian's canonical dialogue. All had pluses and minuses.

First potential was Killian's first line in that webtoon episode/webnovel chapter. The one showcased in the above panels: "You pretended not to care this whole time."

Edith had just kissed Killian while she believed he was asleep. She then expected him to wake up, just like he did in the novel, and throw her out of his room in disgust. Instead, he catches hold of her arm, smirks at her, and comments, "You pretended not to care this whole time," before teasing her about her lust being too great to pretend any longer, and how he's fine to let her have her way with him.

Which leads me to my second potential dialogue-turned-title: "Seduce me like the Rigelhofs taught you."

When Edith still resists Killian, he takes her hand and runs it up and down his bare chest while continuing to basically tell her to do whatever physical depravity she wants with him. He then asks her my third potential title: "...Are you happy now?"

Now, the main pro of that first option was that it felt very on-theme for the story. Both Edith and Killian pretended to not care about the other. Even to themselves. Edith pretended to not care about Killian, or about Killian's affection for Rhyse, or what Killian and his family thought about her (Edith), or that her life was fated to be tragic, rough, and end by her husband executing her. Killian pretended to not care that his father favored his older brother (for obvious birth-order inheritance reasons), or that he'd soon inherit land that was going to be removed from his family's dukedom and he would have to move out of his childhood home, or that Rhyse seemed to also prefer Cliff, or that he (Killian) was potentially the cause for Edith fainting and falling into a coma. He pretended to not care about Edith at all, let alone what his family negatively thought of her. Killian also pretended to not care about the rumors that Edith is having an affair with butler Rhynon. There is just so much pretending to not care throughout the canonical story. Alternatively, in my fic, those façades come down and they finally admit - even if briefly - that they DO care.

Another pro? That line kicks off the whole seduction scene, so fans should be able to know exactly where this fic takes place within canon. Simply based off of the title.

The con of this title? It felt a bit "angsty" for an otherwise "fluffy" little sex scene where two people finally see each other, come together, and just let go. If people saw the title "You Pretended Not to Care This Whole Time" (or, the shorter alternative "You Pretended Not to Care"), would they think "ooo, that's a fluffy smut fic"?

The pros of the second option? Well, for one, just like the first option, it would be a dead giveaway for fans as to when my fic takes place. Maybe even a more obvious "hint" on when the story takes place.

A second - and the main - pro? I mean, it straight up includes the word "seduce" within the title, so it would DEFINITELY give off the right vibes: "this is a smut fic, folks!" Killian asking Edith to "Seduce me like the Rigelhofs taught you" also gives off the vibes of the sex scene itself: sensual but also a bit clunky and goofy. On top of that, while the line is Killian addressing Edith, I thought it was equally appropriate the other way around. The irony of KILLIAN being the one to seduce EDITH the way that he believes the Rigelhofs had taught her. All-in-all, this was one of my favorite title options.

The cons though? For one, "Seduce Me Like The Rigelhofs Taught You" felt too long of a title. Despite liking isekais, with their notoriously long titles, I have always preferred short titles that are easy to remember, quick to say, and quick to type. However, simply shortening this option to "Seduce Me" then felt like I fell into the same "too generic" title category as "Fever" or "Pretty Please" or "Obsessed". Also, "Seduce me like the Rigelhofs taught you" felt very "Draw me like one of your French girls." Yeah, I mean, that's kind of the vibe, but it also feels a bit extra goofy???? I dunno. Secret third con? Well, I've been working on Seduce with Caution for damn near four years now. Only to then post a DIFFERENT smut story with "Seduce" in the title? It just felt like, if/when I finally publish SWC it would then read like I can only come up with smut stories with the word "seduce" somewhere in the title (Sparks for the Moment not withstanding). It was a weird block, but one I faced nonetheless. I just couldn't lock "Seduce Me Like the Rigelhofs Taught You" in as the title of my fic because of those cons.

The final option? Well, the pro is that both Edith and Killian do wonder "Are you happy now?" at the end of the story. They are metaphorically asking that question both of each other as well as of themselves. Plus, it's the shortest option out of the ones I was toying with.

The cons? The title again felt kind of generic. As well as potentially sarcastic and/or angsty. It also didn't quite catch the vibes of the story the same way the other two options did.

As I was pondering those three options, I did think of a fourth: "Forget About Rhyse."

It wasn't really a line from the story, but I did have that sentiment a couple of different times throughout the narrative. Edith wonders if Killian could possibly forget about his feelings for Rhyse, or if he'd regret sleeping with Edith. Meanwhile, Killian is already pushing his feelings for Rhyse to the side and needed Edith to be the one who forgot about Rhyse. Forget about how her husband was in love with Rhyse. Forget about her friendship to Rhyse and whether or not sleeping with her own husband is somehow a betrayal of Rhyse.

There was a lot of focus on "we need to forget Rhyse exists right now" for a portion of my story. And them following through with sleeping together seemed to confirm that they did indeed forget about Rhyse, even briefly.

Plus... short title. Win!

My problem with this title, though, was that it felt like it incorrectly signaled to the potential readers that the narrative would be focusing on Rhyse in some form. She wasn't even in the story outside of Edith and Killian briefly talking about her and Edith having a throw-away line about wondering if Killian was picturing her as Rhyse. Also, "Forget About Rhyse" again falls into the "does this title make it feel like an angsty story" conundrum.

I just couldn't decide on what to title this story, and so I ended up not publishing it on the 12th after completing it. Maybe if I slept on it a good title would pop in my head.

No such luck. So, I spent the rest of the weekend pondering. Reading, rereading, and re-rereading my story to try to see if the right title vibe would show itself to me. I asked two different people if they had any ideas on which of my titles seemed best, or if they had any alternative suggestions.

One of them teased that I was definitely reading too much into my potential titles, and that my readers wouldn't be putting nearly as much weight into what the title alone could mean for the story. Yeah. I was over-analyzing again.

Still. I feel like if was doing this, there MUST be others who would as well. Titles are important, after all.

In the end, I had to make the decision myself.

It kept me until after 6:30pm on Sunday, April 14th, but I finally locked in my story title.

Despite the "potentially angsty vibe" downside, I landed on my first title option:

You Pretended Not to Care

Summary:
      When Suna Choi reincarnated as Edith Rigelhof, the villainess of the novel Suna read the night before she died, she knew she had to do everything possible to avoid Edith's cruel execution at the hands of her own husband. Seemed easy enough to avoid the pitfalls that led to Edith's demise. She attempted to befriend the novel's protagonist Rhyse Sinclair. She refused to be her despicable father's spy. Most importantly, she wouldn't fall in love with her husband Killian Rudwick. His heart already belonged to Rhyse, and his arranged marriage to Edith wasn't going to change that.
      Despite her best efforts, Edith is still being forced down the same path as the original novel's plot. At least, that's what it seems like. But when Edith finally waves the white flag and decides to just follow the plot after all, the novel again has other plans. Edith steels herself for the next main plot point: a failed attempt to seduce her husband... except... this time it isn't going to fail....
  • Rating: Explicit; due to a descriptive sex scene
  • Word Count: 7,228
  • Est. Reading Time: 36min
  • Status: Completed one-shot
• On ArchiveOfOurOwn       • On Tumblr       • On DeviantArt

I was shaking as I posted it to AO3, DA, and Tumblr (due to site restrictions, I can't post my smut on FFN). Don't get me wrong. I get a little nervous each time I publish a story; of course I do. I worry that people won't like it. People won't even SEE it. That I'm just screaming out into the void.

I mean, sure, "write for yourself" and all that, but what's the point of then publicly sharing said story if not to attract an audience for it?

When I share my smut, however? Hooooooboy! That is another level of nerves. Will people think poorly of me for even writing smut? Let alone sharing it? Does my sex scene read as authentic? Does it read as goofy and cliché? Does it read as bland and generic? Does it read as juvenile? Will people like it? Will they find it cringe? Will I be thought of as a weird pervert? Will people use how I wrote out the sex scene as proof of my own kinks or what my own sex life looks like?

I anxiously awaited my 24 hour stats.

24 Hour Stats

AO3: 13 hits, 2 kudos, no bookmarks or comments
DA: 13 views, but no interaction

Total Results: 26 views, 2 kudos, no bookmarks, and no reviews

Tumblr Notes: 2 likes

Not the greatest stats in the world.... But, considering I didn't know how big this fandom was, there were no other smut options for this fandom on AO3 for me to gauge off of, I didn't promote the new story on my socials (aside from Tumblr, obviously), and it IS smut... getting any kudos/Tumblr likes at all was an accomplishment! There were people on AO3 willing to read my smut - or, at least, open the tab....

I'll take it!

Then, roughly an hour after I grabbed my 24hr stats, I got my first review! The exact type of review I was hoping for:

THANK YOU!!!!
I've been waiting for someone to fill in these blanks that were left in the original story. Your contribution is greatly appreciated
💜
- Megra

That review managed to rejuvenate my faith in myself, my writing, and the fact that I had an audience. Emboldened, I tweeted out about my new story, as well as posted about it on FB. I have no clue if those "promos" really did anything for my readership, but the readers started rolling in regardless!

Current (at time of publishing) Stats

AO3: 197 hits, 22 kudos, 2 bookmarks, and 4 comments
DA: 118 views, but still no interaction (probably never will get any, if I'm honest)

Total Results: 315 views, 22 kudos, 2 bookmarks, and 4 reviews

Tumblr Notes: 2 likes and 1 reblog

Reviews:
  • THANK YOU!!!! I've been waiting for someone to fill in these blanks that were left in the original story. Your contribution is greatly appreciated 💜 - Megra
  • This is good. Extra kudos. - Elf_Kid
  • This is absolutely what this fandom has been needing. While I hope this won't be the last fic written to fill in this particular blank, you can rest assured that you have set the bar for it really frickin high
    edit: oops it is now 3 am goodbye sleep schedule

    - EvenstarFalling
  • This was SO GOOD!! 💖
    I love how you wrote their actions and the alternating POV was really nice; it's great to be able to contrast Edith and Killian's thoughts and feelings through the story.
    - ZenPudding

I know it feels so weirdly small of a number to be happy about, but roughly 11% of people who read my story on AO3 left a kudos! And nearly 18% of those who left a kudos also left me a comment! Those are insane stats, actually!

Comparatively, let's look at my other smut story Sparks for the Moment. Only about 4% of that story's readers left a kudos. And only about 7% of people who left a kudos also left a comment.

What about my most popular single-chapter, non-smut, big-fandom story Could Your Paradise Also Be Your Hell? Only 6% of those readers left kudos, and, again, only about 7% of those who left a kudos also left a comment.

Granted, the data will be skewed by how long the story has been published. For instance, a person who rereads any of my stories will add hits but can't give me more kudos. Which then throws the kudos-to-hits ratio off, but it's not for lack of love for my story. You know?

That said, for now, I'm basking in the glow of a surprisingly well-received piece of my work.

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Oh! Fun side note? That smut story is also the 50th story I've published on AO3. That's... a neat milestone...

Now to just write another smut story for Edith and Killian's second night together. Then to jump over to Leveling Up My Husband to the Max and write up smut for Amber and Carlyx's first night together.... And then another one for their night together after Carlyx saved Amber... and then again for their last night together before Carlyx went off to war... and then their reunion over a year later....

Goodness! I really AM reading the manhwa equivalents of classic Harlequin romances, aren't I? Well... I guess I AM within that target demographic now, huh?

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On the non-smut side of things, I toyed around with my mental build of NoPixel character Anna-Marie Wolffe (maybe I could manifest her if I do this often enough?).

The more I thought about how I would love to play her as a sort of Mama Wolf (hence the last name), I realized there's no way I could play her as someone in her 20s. I mean, I KNOW there's 20-something "Mom Friends". I used to be one of them. But it just isn't the right VIBE for her. I want her to be Protective MamaTM because she has that experience under her belt. Therefore, I'd probably keep her about my age.

 That's one thing sorted out.

I then wondered why Anna-Marie would be moving to Los Santos.

Most people move due to housing reasons: improved housing, being able to own instead of rent, cheaper housing options, improved neighborhood/less crime, better school district, was forced to move (eviction/foreclosure), etc. Quite frankly, due to NoPixel characters starting in a tiny studio apartment within a Los Angeles-like city - one that has MORE crime due to it being a GTA game - me thinks that "moving for basic housing reasons" doesn't really apply for Anna-Marie.

MAAAAYBE the foreclosure/eviction reason? But... then why go out to Los Santos to try to start anew if your finances are that poor? I mean, it WOULD explain the starting character account of only $500 dollars.... MAAAAAYBE this could be an option then? She lost her family home, heard that people were starting over in Los Santos and that the renewed economy meant that anyone could make it big on just $500, so she decided to try her luck???? Eh. It's in the running, I guess. What do you folks think?

The next biggest reason people move is for family: again, better school districts, change in marital status, wanting to establish one's own household, living closer to/further from family members, taking care of ailing family, assisting family in other ways (such as helping raise children), etc. Because I don't personally know any of the other NoPixel players there is no way to establish any of them as Anna-Marie's family that she moved to Los Santos to be with. Unless Hubby joins me with his own character on NoPixel, I can't say that Anna-Marie moved there with her family for x-reason. I could maybe establish that 40-something Anna-Marie moved to Los Santos to give her kids a better life, but.... then where are her kids? Did she go ahead of them in order to set up a home before they move in? If that's so, and I manage to play throughout the many years that 4.0 is live, why hasn't her family moved to join her in the months or YEARS that Anna-Marie is in Los Santos? Seems weird to create lore that she has kids but then never introduce them or be forced to come up with lore as to why they never joined her in LS. And, given the motherly demeaner I would love for her to have, it doesn't make sense to make her a neglectful mother of her own kids.

The only "for family" option that I could think of that might work here is either 1) trying to get away from existing family; poor family home life, or 2) change in marital status. Given that I'm pulling a little from X-Men's Rogue as inspiration for Anna-Marie (see: her name), I can see her having a need to get away from her family. I cannot see her getting a divorce. Maybe she's a young widow? Or her and her beau didn't marry before he broke her heart. I think that's my frontrunner: she was devastated by an ex and she moved to Los Santos to get as far from him as possible; starting anew.

The third reason given by people who have moved is employment: new job or job transfer, having an easier commute, retirement, or better opportunity to find a new job.

Obviously Anna-Marie wouldn't have a job right out the gate. That's part of the fun of the game: finding ways to earn money. I could maybe come up with some BS job within the city and then say that it fell through once she moved. A new job that fell through? A transfer that ended up getting cut?

Maybe, since Los Santos is supposed to be like LA, and there IS a movie studio within Los Santos, Anna-Marie moved for the same reason a LOT of people move to LA: to get a foot into the film industry. Maybe I could have her be an actor or writer or even a film editor? It would be so fun to use Anna-Marie as an excuse to get back into editing so she would have a resume reel. However, I've been out of the game for so long. I am INCREDIBLY rusty. So, unless I get back into editing before this dream-inclusion on the NoPixel server, maybe I just leave it to skills I know I'm better at right now: acting and writing.

The final main reasons for moving, according to the census, are: relationship with unmarried partner (i.e. moving to be closer to them), attending/leaving college, health reasons (e.g. - my uncle's ex-wife got crippling migraines in the Northeast humidity, but they all-but-vanished when she moved to the desert), change of climate (i.e. Northerners moving south to avoid snow... or my uncle's ex-wife again), or avoiding/escaping natural disasters.

That first reason is again nixed. I would be going in without knowing anyone personally, and therefore I couldn't roleplay that Anna-Marie moved to be closer to any of them. Having her move to be closer to an unnamed/unseen relative or partner MIIIIIGHT work... Treat them like an unseen sitcom character, such as Niles' first wife Maris from Frasier, Howard's mother from The Big Bang Theory, Lieutenant Columbo's wife from Columbo, or Karen Walker's rich husband Stan from Will & Grace. Again, if I were to actually make it onto NoPixel, it's a high probability that Hubby would as well. In which case, coming up with an unseen partner would be out. Maybe a cousin, aunt/uncle, or grandparent???

There is a college campus in Los Santos. So Anna-Marie moving to LS to attend college as an adult student wouldn't be too far fetched. However, it would be hard to roleplay since the college is little more than a set-piece. I could maybe use that as an excuse as to why my character is unavailable during the times that I'm not playing. However, they already have the logged-off mechanic worked in: "Asleep". If someone isn't currently logged into NoPixel you say that character is currently "asleep" and that they "wake up" once the character is logged in. If someone goes a long time without playing, you say they are "traveling outside of the city" and that they have "returned to the city" once they log back in. You can also complain about how long of a wait the queue to log in is by grumbling about your "train ticket" causing delays. All that said, me saying "I was at my night classes" doesn't fit the already established vernacular. So I can probably nix that as an option.

I could maybe play around with those final three options: moving for health reasons, for a change of climate, or to avoid/escape a natural disaster. Despite Los Santos being a GTA version of LA, it doesn't really experience earthquakes. Although, you might be able to joke that all of the noclipping glitches are due to earthquakes.... Also, to have an immersive in-universe reason for the servers kicking everyone out of the game a couple of times per day for updates, the players refer to the system resets as "tsunamis" or "storms" that flood Los Santos and washes everyone out of the island-based city for a few minutes. These are usually timed "storms" so people can make sure to go for cover (aka - save your progress) in time. So, they're manageable disasters. However, still feels a bit much for someone to deal with if they've moved to LS to AVOID natural disasters. So, I think that option's out.

I have nothing either for or against the other options of "health reasons" or "change of climate". They can remain in the running, I guess.

So, to recap, here's some options for why Anna-Marie moved:

  1. Down on her luck. Just got evicted from her home (figure out reason later). She heard that the island city of Los Santos is trying to revitalize its economy and has government funding that allows every citizen to receive free housing, and there are a plethora of job opportunities in order to make a fortune. It required Anna-Marie to sell all of her belongings to do so, but she was able to fund her travel across country (starting on the east coast somewhere) and got a small studio apartment in Los Santos with $500 remaining to her name.
  2. Similar to - and possibly building off of - option 1: Anna-Marie finally raises enough money to get out of a toxic or abusive home. Whether that home was with her parent(s) or a lover TBD. She runs across country to try to get as far away as possible from that toxic/abusive environment. Once she is done running, she has but $500 to her name, but is able to get a small studio apartment for free thanks to the government assistance in Los Santos.
  3. A new job opportunity - be it a new career/company, a new position, and/or a job transfer - opens up in Los Santos. When Anna-Marie gets to the city she discovers that the job fell through. She has "secretly" been in the city for a couple of weeks (so, she was in LS for weeks prior to me officially playing as her; "secretly" explains why none of the player characters have bumped into her). She struggled to find other employment within x-industry (figure out later) over those few weeks, and eventually failed to secure anything. Now, with only $500 left in her account, Anna-Marie downgrades to the government-funded studio apartments and starts looking for work in more labor-intensive jobs, such as towing, package delivery, secure money transfers, or fast-food work.
  4. Similar to option 3: Anna-Marie got laid off from her old job, considered it A SignTM, and decided it was the perfect chance to move to Los Santos and attempt to get a foot into the film industry as a writer/actor. Sadly, as all know fairly well, the job offers won't come right away, so she's living in her government-funded studio while working odd jobs until she gets her big break.
  5. Generic "She moved to a new climate". I have no details for this option yet.
  6. Generic "She moved for health reasons". I have no details for this option yet.
  7. Anna-Marie's relative (TBD) lives in Paleto Bay, north of Los Santos but on the same island. The relative would always be an unseen character that I reference, but no one ever meets (unless it's handwaved that they met "off screen" like when players have their characters sleeping with each other... it's never ACTUALLY played out; it's just spoken into canon). This one would be tricky since there are already some player characters who have homes in Paleto, and they actually have a couple of gang HQs in that area. So I would have to find an address that isn't available to purchase. If it opens up for PC purchases, I could say that the relative died or needed to move, which is why the house was now on the market. Hopefully, by that time, Anna-Marie would be established enough within the city that it would make sense that she didn't move away with the relative no longer in Paleto.
          Not a bad option, but a touch more complicated. Especially since I'd have to come up with a second character while finishing my build of Anna-Marie.
  8. Vague "She just needed a new start". This one could be a bit fun. I thought it would be neat to have the other players kind of build up Anna-Marie's history for me. I would have Anna-Marie be vague and mysterious about why she moved to Los Santos or any past experiences she has. If anyone decides to fill in the gaps with their own theories or rumors, I would then vet them to see which ones I think work for the character, and then confirm those. Deny the ones that definitely won't work for the character. Refuse to either confirm or deny any I'm on the fence about.
          This is a great way to "Yes and..." my way into a character build. It's also a neat way to kind of form Anna-Marie's backstory organically. Finally, it would be able to take into consideration how my character presents to other players. Trish is fun and all, but I can't play her as intimidating as I wanted her to be. Lia ended up more meek than I had planned. Jolene got too attached to the adventuring party too quickly for her backstory. One of my old Vampire: The Masquerade characters had her whole backstory fleshed out just from how I fidgeted in the local park while waiting for a meeting to end. So, realistically, this might be my best option for Anna-Marie. It's still fun to come up with a complete character ahead of time though, especially since I'm daydreaming here. Which brings me to....
  9. Building off of option 2, my favorite option is probably that Anna-Marie was living with a boyfriend who broke her heart and devastated her. Considering the crime in NoPixel, I'll probably avoid her being mad at him simply for being a criminal. I think I'm leaning towards "she found out that not only was he cheating on her, but Anna-Marie was actually the secret 'kept' woman of a married man with kids!" Yeah. I think I like that. Being cheated on is one thing. Discovering that YOU are unintentionally and unwillingly the Other Woman makes it so much worse. THEN discovering that you're helping him betray his wife and abandon his kids!? When Anna-Marie herself wants kids (and he probably keeps shooting her down precisely because he's already a neglectful father)!? Ooof. Yeah. I like the spice of this one. I could see her feeling guilty enough to want to run as far away from him and his family as possible to no longer interfere, and not really having any personal possessions if it was his secret second home. Would a cheating husband be the one to pay for a secret second home???? Would he be mooching off of her home???? I dunno. Thoughts in the comments, please. I'd love to see what everyone thinks of this option.

Actually, I've love to hear thoughts on ANY of the above options. Were there any that resonated more with you than others? Do you have an idea for the "for health reasons" or "climate change" options? Do you have a different prompt for me to try to build off of? Should I lean more into the X-Men's Rogue lore? Should I try pulling in things from the D&D rogue class somehow???

In the meantime, it's been a fun thought experiment to keep going back to and poke at now and again as Hubby and I continue watching NoPixel.

I wonder what his character would be like if Hubby were to join....

Anyway, that is a thought experiment for another day. In the meantime...

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Saturday, February 10, 2024

Head Empty; Time for a New OC

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Well, if this isn't an encouraging start to the year... publishing my first update - my JANUARY update - OVER A WEEK INTO FEBRUARY! Yup. Excellent start. (Do I get points for chipping away at it daily since January 30th?)

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I'll be honest. I hadn't thought of this blog or my New Year's Resolutions at all last month (minus the last two days because I was trying to make my January deadline). This is the main reason I'm still using Josefin Sans for the text font. I just couldn't find the energy to even begin to narrow down which font to permanently keep. As for writing itself, I only ever-so-briefly gave that any thought. Yup. This is an awesome start of a new year for a writer. Why am I STILL so burnt out!? (We'll get to that...)

Anyway, how about a quick refresher on the resolutions I came up with for 2024?

  1. Take another run at posting at least one blog update every month; 12 updates in total before the close of 2024.
  2. Read an average of 7.5hrs per month (that's the equivalent of 15min per day for a 30-day month)
  3. Write Plagg-centric stories for the two Friday 13ths this year: September and December
  4. Publish at least one narrative each quarter of the year: 4 stories total; once every 3 months.

How am I doing on those? Well...

1. I'm publishing January's post a third of the way into February. So, I'm clearly doing amazing with this goal already. I'll get more into the "why"s below. Regardless, I'm not letting that defeat me, and have been working on it steadily (albeit minimally) for the past 12 days. I'll consider that a little win.

2. I..... forgot to record how much I've read last month. I have no clue how close I got to this goal, but I can safely bet I wasn't close at all. I haven't read nearly as much as I would have liked. I've been so burnt out that I haven't even raced to instantly read the latest updates to those webcomics I started following (and excitedly talked about last post). It... it's been rough. This month hasn't been encouraging either given that I have barely cracked open any printed narratives a week into February... sooooooooo.... yeaaaaaaaah....

3. I have time for this one, but I have NO ideas on what the story plots would even be yet.

4. Head empty. No thoughts. No plots. I'm already fearful about hitting this "stretch-goal"....

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Hubby and I tried. We looked up a list of "20 good luck foods to eat at New Year's". We had at least half of them. We even stood on only our right foot at the strike of midnight so we could start 2024 off "on the right foot".

Maybe we overcorrected for 2023 and ended up jinxing ourselves????

To be fair, the year has at least been kinder to us than it has been for many others that we personally know. Unfortunate for us, that still resulted in adding a lot to our plates. For example, my poor manager ended up losing two loved ones within the same week, and then had a major health scare with one of her pets. She thought she was going to lose him too. Thankfully, he pulled through, but she still had to call off of work the next day to monitor him while he was recovering. So, I had a couple of work days where I was running the shop solo. Weeeeee.

One of those days was the highest sales day of the week. Of COURSE everyone decided to come buy the day I'm alone. Sheesh.

On top of that chaos, Manager was sick for the better part of a week (probably due to a weakened immune system brought on by the stress of all of the above). Then it was Biker Coworker - whom, from now on, shall be simply known as Chatty... because... boy howdy is she! - who was sick for the week. She kept saying "It's not covid! It's not the flu! It's just my annual sinus infection!" The frequency she stressed this though almost makes me question it.... And my throat has been a bit scratchy lately.... yay!

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On top of that, I got into a.... bit of a verbal battle with my General Manager a couple of weeks back. Argument over paychecks and how a sale's payout should be handled. This resulted in GM having to have A Talk with Manager. Said talk was during Manager's Hell Week, so she ended up UNLOADING. It was very much needed and I'm super proud of her. It ended up leaving us in a weird limbo with the GM for the rest of the month, though, and I think he's lowkey avoiding talking to any of us now....

Although, he HAS been a little heavy-handed with the "really appreciate you!" and "Good catch!" and "Keep up the good work!" and "This really helps, thank you so much!" emails this past week, so....

On top of all of that, the work projects keep piling up on my desk. Both figuratively and literally. Before I can complete one I have two more to sort through. When I left work last Saturday I literally had three different piles of projects organized by priority. Meanwhile, both of my coworkers' desks were virtually empty....

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If I don't already have enough going on at work, I'm also apparently an unofficial copyeditor for other companies. For two different manufacturers that our company works with, I've had to go through different marketing material. One was price cards for the current national sale. The other was the merchandizing catalog for customers to flip through. The price cards had multiple typographical errors (such as incorrect pricing) and formatting issues - such as a text box being too small so it bumped the last letter of a word onto the next line - that I had to sort out. I also needed confirmation on a few things.... things the manufacturer sales rep has YET to respond to me about, and it's been two weeks! For the catalog, there were pages that we just got last week that were printed in October and were depicting items that were discontinued in July.... so.... I needed to figure out what to do about those.... There was also a catalog page where the item identification number had a typo in it. If we looked up the item based on the catalog's ID number we wouldn't be able to find it in order to price it up. After confirming that it WAS a typo - as opposed to a new model that we didn't get pricing for yet - I had to break out a permanent marker to manually correct the ID on the catalog page. Real professional looking.

Then, for our OWN company, we use a marketing company to produce our advertisements. I don't know what the hold-up was, but they were a week behind in getting our sale price tags and promotional flyer to us. They prioritized posting the sale on our website first. Fine. I printed the flyer off of the website in order to know what items are on sale for the month. I noticed that one of the items pictured didn't have the proper description. I emailed the GM asking which was the error: the description or the product item? Turns out it was the description. I got one of those "Great catch! Thanks for the help!" emails from him before he emailed the marketing team to fix the flyer online ASAP. On top of that, GM didn't even know what I was talking about at first. He forwarded me the email the marketing team sent him with a proof of the email blast flyer, and the item was properly described there. So.... THAT was a thing....

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Guys (manufacturers). I am begging you. I already have enough on my plate. Could you maybe hire your own copyeditors (and/or get your acts together) so this is sorted out BEFORE it gets sent to your retailers? What are the other retailers doing when they get these messes? Do they have people in their stores catching these errors as well? Or are they just unknowingly running with them?

I haven't even mentioned the cranky, demanding, and entitled customers. The whirlwind customers who can't be bothered to listen to your answer to their last question before they jump into another one. The customers who need you to explain/demonstrate something 3x because they aren't paying attention to you despite specifically asking for that explanation/demonstration. The customers who are told they are already getting an item 40% off and STILL ask "can't you do anything better about the price?" The customers who can't make up their mind, so they buy a product, only to cancel the sale and buy another product, only to cancel THAT and buy the original product again, only to cancel AGAIN and buy something COMPLETELY DIFFERENT from what they came in for. The customers who are incredibly incorrect in the information they got from "researching on the internet" but are convinced that YOU are the uninformed one and/or you're simply trying to swindle them. The customers who "have spent a lot of money with this company" and so they feel you should just "throw in" $400 worth of items for free! The customers who specifically tell you that they do not want X, Y, or Z for the product they're looking for, so you avoid showing them items that include X, Y, or Z, and then they demand to know why you didn't show them those products - as if we're gatekeeping or something - and then COMPLAIN about how the product is DEFINITELY not something they'd buy when they try it out, how dare we show it to them! The customers who decide, four months after getting their item, that we clearly gave them the wrong item and we should correct this.

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When I get home my head officially turns off. There's just too much going on at work, and my brain taps out after that 8hr shift. I can't even really enjoy recreational things if it requires any semblance of brain power. I'm actually a touch grateful that Hubby hasn't started his D&D campaign back up yet. I have no clue how good at roleplaying I'd be right now. Ironic, since that's the limited amount of "writing" I've done in January. I'll explain in a bit.

But first! We need to power through a bit of an info-dump to properly set the stage. Join me as we sift through the drama that is

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As you could probably tell from my last update, I've been sucked down the NoPixel rabbit hole. More accurately, Hubby has. I'm just along for the ride. Mostly because it (a)allows me time with Hubby, and (b)requires virtually no mental effort on my part to enjoy.

While the main focus for us last year was on Ray__C and his character Raymond Romanov, the 4.0 launch brought back Sykkuno to NoPixel, and Hubby has been eating this content UP! There's an ongoing joke that Sykkuno himself has Main Character Energy (while still being humble and a little self-deprecating) and is protected by Plot Armor. This has resulted in the NoPixel running joke that Sykkuno's character Yuno Sykk is the "shadow leader" of Los Santos. Yuno's return to the server seems to prove that he truly is the Shadow Leader. He's already started, left, and joined at least four different "gangs" and has an apparent platonic harem.

My last post, I had introduced you all to Yuno's first gang "The Company". He was an original member and co-founder, but he pretty much did everything he could to not actually run it. While the other 5 founding members each had an executive branch they were in charge of - CEO, CFO, COO, etc - Yuno begged them to just let him have the humble title of "janitor" within The Company. We'll stick a pin in The Company for a beat as we move to Yuno's second "gang".

Fellow Company member Benji, played by Lysium, had a LOT of personal drama in the 3.0 era due to his messy love life. Because of this, Benji spent the in-universe five years between 3.0 and 4.0 to self-reflect. He decided to take a self-vow of celibacy. He wasn't going to let himself be messed up by carnal desires again. Benji and Yuno then met up with Tommy T., played by Zerkaa. Tommy had also decided to be celibate for 4.0. Add in Yuno, whom, much like Sykkuno himself, constantly claims that "girls aren't into me". Since a prominent gang in 3.0 was "Chang Gang" (aka CG), Yuno joked that they were the new CG: Celibate Gang. He then ran around the server recruiting any of his friends that also decided they weren't going to have any romance RP with their character, ergo the character would be celibate.

The main problem with Yuno co-founding Celibate Gang is that 4.0 somehow brought about "Yuno's Harem Arc". Sykkuno has always felt more comfortable having a bunch of female friends, and so Yuno likewise routinely hangs out with a bunch of female characters. He's also somehow both subtly and INCREDIBLY charismatic, so he's unintentionally wooing ladies left and right. But "Girls just aren't into me," so Yuno (and probably Sykkuno himself) has no clue these ladies have crushes on him. The main "totally not a love interest" is the character Lottie, played by MinksOfMars.

One of the big social "problems" of the 3.0 server was how easily characters could just adopt each other. It resulted in Yuno's 3.0 family tree turning into more of a family web.

Yuno Sykk's 3.0 family, as presented on the NoPixel wiki

Now, it's been pared down DRASTICALLY for 4.0, but Yuno still has his twin sister Ray Mond, played by Valkyrae, his adopted older brother Gloryon, played by Garek, and his adopted younger sister Raia, played by LadyDima. Although, a new server rule that just went into affect in February limited everyone to just one adopted kid, so Yuno isn't allowed to call Gloryon or Raia his siblings anymore... it's a whole thing...

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Along with Yuno's adopted-but-no-longer-adopted siblings, Yuno is an adopted cousin to Lottie. Or... used to be? Lottie's adoptive mother is Yuno's adoptive mother's adoptive sister. So, since Yuno's and Lottie's mothers aren't allowed to be adoptive siblings anymore Yuno and Lottie may not be adoptive cousins anymore??? Like I said. It's a whole thing....

Regardless, back when people could still have adoptive siblings and Yuno and Lottie were cousins, neither Yuno nor Lottie knew their familial connection when they started hanging out. They just really clicked and instantly became besties. Then his friends started teasing that Yuno and Lottie were an item. The two sorted out that they were related, and so Yuno would correct everyone shipping him with Lottie, letting them know/reminding them that he and Lottie were related. To which, Lottie kept reminding everyone "not by blood".... For a while a LOT of people leaned into this joke. Even setting up a wedding for the two, much to Yuno's embarrassment and chagrin. Benji and Tommy T. were some of the biggest offenders, teasing that they had to kick Yuno out of Celibate Gang. Yuno would then counter by pointing out how much Benji was flirting with Ray Mond, and how HE was the one who should be kicked out of CG.

As of this writing, all three founding members of Celibate Gang are still holding strong, but they also all still tease each other (or, more accurately, tease Benji and Yuno) about having to be kicked out of the group.

Especially because Yuno's "harem" also includes Ray Mond's best friend Gigi Costello, played by AngelKnivez. Gigi hated Yuno at first, but instantly fell for him when he went out of his way to make up for a wrong against her (despite Yuno not really having anything to do with the griefing). His adopted sister Raia, despite already being married, also wants to monopolize Yuno's time in a manner that may not be strictly platonic/familial.... The "most eligible bachelorette" on the server also has a passing crush on Yuno. Finally, there are a few female co-workers throughout the many jobs that Yuno works that also seem to have at least minor crushes on him.

But, according to Yuno, "Girls just aren't into me". Uh huh. Sure. It's endearing that the poor man has no clue when someone is flirting with him. And he has no clue how smooth he actually is. I'd give examples, but when I did that to poor Aurora Morgen ne ended up having a novella's worth of info-dumping to sift through, and this is getting pretty hefty already. So I'll spare the rest of you. If you're truly interested, you can check out Sykkuno's VODs on YouTube, or peruse some of the highlights on Sykkuno's side channel: Daily Sprout Clips.

There were also two dating-related events hosted in-game. The first was a fundraiser where people offered to be auctioned off for a date with the winning bidder. The second was a dating game with a potential cash prize. For the auction, those being auctioned off for dates were given 10% of their winning bid. Because Yuno has Main Character Energy, Gigi convinced the hosts of the event to give Yuno an exclusive deal: he got half of his winning bid. Gigi knew it would convince the founding member of Celibate Gang to participate (his main focus is to get more money). He ended up being one of the highest-going dates, with his sister Raia winning the date after an intense bidding war for Yuno (a bidding war poor Gigi got outbid in right out the gate). As for the dating game, a bachelorette (the aforementioned "most eligible bachelorette" who had a crush on Yuno) held a series of quick games and challenges to narrow a pool of contestants down to one. Then they would have to decide if they would split the $5k cash prize or if they would try to steal the whole amount from the other. Through a series of Plot Armor-infused events that I won't get into here, Yuno did end up as the winning contestant. The bachelorette sniped the money from him in the end, but watching him somehow sneak his way through the game was quite funny.

For those interested in killing about 20 to 30min each, here is the video compilation of the winning auction bid for Yuno, and here is one for the dating game.

So, as Yuno is going through his "harem arc" and is joking around with CG, he's also struggling to find traction in The Company. It feels like more drama than it's worth as 6 strong personalities clash against each other and half of their days are spent having meetings. Meetings that bore Sykkuno and that he feared were poor content for his streams anyway. On top of all of that, it was the actions of The Company - without Yuno's involvement - that caused Gigi to be mad at Yuno in the first place, because 98% of the drama on the server is simply due to miscommunication. The whole thing was starting to crumble around Yuno and it wasn't the healthiest environment.

Meanwhile, his in-game best friend and former gang leader Lang Buddha, played by Buddha, discreetly created his own gang, unofficially called OldBois; spiritual successor to his 3.0 gang Cleanbois, which itself was a spiritual successor to his 2.0 gang Leanbois. Yuno fairly quickly jumped ship on The Company and joined OldBois instead. Then, completely unrelated to Yuno (maybe a liiiiiiittle related to Yuno?) The Company and OldBois went to war with each other. It was actually pretty funny to see the extent The Company members went to in order to keep Yuno out of the war and to avoid being aggressive towards him despite Yuno technically being part of the opposing gang.

Plot Armor.

The final "gang" Yuno is a part of? Well, as I mentioned, he does a lot of different jobs to grind out money. His main job is Gruppe 6 aka G6. Basically a NoPixel/GTA parody of those Brink's security trucks for money transfers. Due to the nature of the job, and the fact that most non-cop characters on the server didn't have access to guns yet - including the G6 workers, ironically - G6 workers get robbed pretty frequently. On January 30th, Yuno was doing a job and was the victim of one such robbery. Later that same day, while doing another G6 run, he became involved in a full-on brawl between three or four G6 trucks - with roughly 3 workers each - and a gang of at least 6 robbers. Roughly half of the Gruppe 6 workers were downed and the robbers ended up getting away. All the while, despite 9 different G6 workers calling in-game 911, not a single cop responded. We later found out that they were all busy trying to stop the bombing of a prominent city business. At the time, though? The lack of cop presence to protect the workers, combined with the G6 workers not hesitating to come to each others' aid, sparked Yuno's desire to keep his coworkers safe. For his next job, Yuno teamed up with Raia, her husband Jason, played by Nmplol, and their roommate Clayton, played by Boruleum. They also called up Lottie for extra backup. Yuno, as a joke, convinced the team to don his signature cat-ear motorcycle helmet and glowing shoes, each in a different color, that way they would look like the Power Rangers. They dubbed themselves the "G6 Rangers".

L-R: Jason as the Pink Ranger, Raia as Purple Ranger,
Yuno as White Ranger, Clayton as the Red Ranger (Leader),
and Lottie as Green Ranger

My favorite part of that picture is that Yuno is the only one looking at the camera and he wasn't even the one who took the picture. Raia was.

The G6 Rangers' mission was to do all they could to keep their coworkers safe, and to promise to come to any G6 worker's aid. As the group did their run they actually did manage to scare away some would-be robbers, which inspired more G6 workers. Within 24hrs there were already G6 Ranger impersonators and G6 workers who wished to officially join The Rangers. Within three days, there were 22 official members of the G6 Rangers! The cat-ears motorcycle helmet and glowing shoes are included as an official G6 Ranger uniform within the Gruppe 6 employee handbook! And Yuno/Sykkuno only created them as a passing joke!

Main Character Energy.

OK, so, what's my point with info-dumping all of this about Yuno and NoPixel? Well, we've circled back to what I said about the limited "writing" I did in January and the irony of it being RPG-based given how I'm probably too burnt out to play D&D.

The more that Hubby and I watch the NoPixel content - mostly via Sykkuno's VODs, but also sometimes catching Ray__C's or MinksOfMars's streams - and the more miscommunication there is between characters, the more I think of what I would have said to try to clear things up a bit (but not SO much as to kill the content).

In January, I found myself fantasizing about joining NoPixel and interacting with these characters. Being part of these storylines somehow. It was almost a PAINFUL amount of fantasizing. I seriously had to take a step back and not watch as much of NoPixel with Hubby. It was getting a bit... unhealthy... the amount of time I spent fantasizing and how pained I felt when I realized the minuscule likelihood of me not only getting onto the server but also running into these characters with any sort of regularity... like I said, I had to take a mental break from this obsession.

Before I did though? Well, I can't fantasize about playing on NoPixel if I don't have a character, right? I mean I COULD just picture a self-insert character, but I don't know if I'd want to do something like that in an RPG. I'd want to run a CHARACTER; not MYSELF. What character would I play on NoPixel though?

I debated bringing in manic arsonist and psychopath/sociopath (? I'm still not sure which one she is) Trish "Lighter" Morrison. She's proooooobably not the greatest option for a starter character, though. Trying to sort out how to even play the game and create connections while cursing up a storm, dropping f-bombs (which is totally out of character for *ME*) every other sentence, and being as destructive as possible..... it would be A LOT. I don't know if it would even bring me the sort of attention I would want as Trish. I'm sure it would bring in both the hardcore fans and the vicious haters, and I don't have the skin for the haters. Not yet, at least. I also don't know if I would be able to build the character connections I would want to establish for myself on the server. Ignoring all of that, I have no clue if I would even be able to do Trish justice if she was my first character out-the-gate. I mean.... how do you even DO arson in GTA???

I then debated importing Jolene. She'd be a great fit. Sexy. Slinky. Sneaky. Manipulative. Constant flirt. Man eater. Seductress. Cat burglar. Her backstory has her constantly run out of town once her prostitution and thievery is noticed by enough people, so there's my reason for her to be new to Los Santos: running from wherever the hell she was last. Her personality means it should be relatively easy for her to make connections with a bunch of people. Perfect!

Except.... April Fooze, played by Fuslie, is already RIGHT. THERE!

"Siren"
Song by April Fooze (Fuslie),
feat Ryan King and Hubcap Jones

April's also just the character that I'm most familiar with. She's a full-on trope on NoPixel: man-eater manipulators that make money via Sugar Daddies. Jolene would just be another dime-a-dozen. Probably not the best option. Plus, I never remember how I spell her damn last name. So I'd have to either (a)keep a reference sheet on me, (b)constantly look at my character's ID, or (c)accept that I'd be misspelling her last name all the time....

OK, so Jolene's out.

Willow's essentially Jolene-Lite, but with super powers. So, without her powers, I don't know if she'd be able to get around the same issue I was mentally having with placing Jolene in Los Santos. She's out. Lia is just a meeker self-insert of me once you take her powers away. So she's out. Amara is anti-social, so probably not the best choice for a starter character. Plus, I'm White. I don't know if I'd feel comfortable playing a mixed-race character with internalized racism towards both of her heritages because they each traumatized her one way or another. Also... survivor of massive physical abuse....

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Yeeeeeaaaaaah... let's avoid Amara for NoPixel.... Probably best to keep her in the safety of my own private playgroup until I can sort her out more. And if I do ever officially write out Amara's story, you know for SURE that I'll be going through a plethora of sensitivity readers before posting anything publicly.

Moving on! How about my info broker Maggie (aka Magpie) from Scum & Villainy? Again, I don't really know the game's mechanics well enough nor would I have the connections needed to actually GET the secret info to broker. At least, not at first. I COULD still use her in my mental exercise of building a NoPixel character; trust that in my mental mock-up I could succeed in gathering important info. The character Gigi Gambino (different from the one referenced above), played by GEEGA, was able to essentially do what I was picturing for Maggie. Namely, just sit and patiently people-watch to get the tea. Too many characters are "loud" about what criminal activities they're trying to do or what their drama is. Add in some Yuno-like charm where Maggie tries to be friends with everyone, and: boom. Info broker.

However, I have two issues: (1)Gigi is already doing more-or-less what I would try to do, and she has more practice at it, so she's going to be more skilled. Why would characters come to Maggie instead of Gigi? (2)If I'm playing through these mental scenarios under the guise of prepping myself for it to come true - manifest it - then I'll have to accept that maybe Maggie CAN'T be a good info broker. I mean, it's largely dependent on my OWN skills.

One of the main downsides of this style of roleplay, as opposed to my normal stats-driven RPGs, is that dependence on my own, actual, IRL skills. When I'm playing D&D or Scum & Villainy or Blades in the Dark or whatever, I don't have to be skilled at, say, lock-picking for my character to be a master at breaking-and-entering. I don't have to be a good musician for my character to move people to tears with their song. My own personal charisma won't help nor hinder my character's attempts at selling snake oil. I have a stat. I tell the game master what I'm planning to do. I roll the stat. If I roll high enough I'll succeed. If I roll too low I fail. Easy. For NoPixel, however, my character is only as skilled and gifted as I am. I could have plans for Jolene to be a master seductress and cat burglar, but what happens if my charisma fails her seduction attempts? What if I personally suck at anything dealing with the various crime mechanics in-game? What if I'm not as sneaky as I'm mentally picturing Maggie? What if people don't open up to her as much as I need them to? What if no one cares about the information she gathers, or she's late to the party and everyone already knows?

If I magic my way onto the server with these character tasks in mind, and I suck at them - at least, at first - what do I have to fall back on for my character until I can get her to where I envision her?

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So, there goes most of my established characters. It would probably be safest to think of a brand new character for GTA anyway. One that could grow and evolve with my gameplay, instead of trying to import a character and HOPE I could be skilled enough to do my character justice. What would I do for a new character though?

Head empty. Remember? Nothing but rattling going on up there. And I'm now tasking myself to come up with a NEW character!? For a game I have no clue if I'll ever play???

But try I did. First up: a name. I did that with Jolene, and her whole personality grew from her name. Maybe it could work for this hypothetical character too. But, what do I even use for a name?

There are a fair amount of characters with pun/joke names on the server. Such as Ash Ketchup played by Ash, Penelope "Penny" Farthing played by raine, and Whippy's two characters Irwin Dundee and Crocodile Steve (if you can't tell, Whippy's Australian). You also have a lot of streamers - especially within Sykkuno's circle - that just do a nod to their streamer name. Sykkuno himself created an Asian character (so the family name is technically first) named Yuno Sykk; said correctly, his name is Sykk Yuno.... April Fooze is played by Fuslie, whose streamer name is sometimes shorted to Fooze. Ray__C plays Raymond Romanov and Raycardo Flick. Buddha plays Lang Buddha. Valkyrae plays Ray Mond. New player Ellum, after two failed character attempts, ended up landing on Eli Lum. Prominent player Ssaab had the characters Al Saab and Sam Baas. Former Cleanboi and current OldBoi member Tony Corleone is played by AnthonyZ.

You get the idea.

I'm not the greatest at pun names, but I COULD maybe do a play on my online handle!

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Who's ready for some lore drop?

While it's not the reason I had originally included it into my handle, "Lyco" could be a reference to wolves. I am also routinely describing myself as a Mama Wolf and do have a bit of a penchant for the pack animal. I also included "Rogue" in my handle for two reasons: (1)it is my favorite D&D class. I have such a love/hate relationship with the Rogue class mainly because of how diverse the class is. It is the Communications Degree of D&D classes. You can be a Rogue and then make your character be just about anything you want. It's amazing. But also a bit overwhelming if you don't know which direction to take your character... hence the "hate" part of the relationship I have with the class. My second reason for adding in "Rogue"? (2)Rogue is my favorite X-Men. Well... she's kind of tied with Wolverine, but over the years I've definitely leaned more into Rogue. And that TOTALLY has NOTHING to do with Hubby's favorite X-Men being Gambit.....

Point being, while Rogue exclusively goes by her nickname, she DOES have a canonically-known birth-name: Anna Marie. Coincidentally enough, in the Bryan Singer X-Men live-action trilogy, Rogue was played by Anna Paquin. So, if I were to name my hypothetical NoPixel character after my online handle, and therefore after Rogue from X-Men, she'd be Anna Marie. Even if I went an extra layer deep and used the actress's name, it would still be Anna. Alternatively, I could go with the original voice of Rogue for me. In other words, her voice actress from The Animated Series: Lenore Zann. I think I'd be more likely to respond to Anna Marie than Lenore, though... So that locks "Anna Marie" in. I would just struggle to not accidentally say my name was "Anna Maria" since I've already mentally made that mistake. Or... do I lean into it and change it to Anna-Maria instead of just Anna Marie??? Either way, I'd probably make sure to hyphenate her first name. Then you add in that wolf reference and, boom!

Anna-Marie Wolffe.

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Man, if only I could get onto the NoPixel character creator to just generate Anna-Marie, even if I wouldn't be able to actually play her. It would be so cool to see what she might look like if I could make it onto the server. Just get that visual so I could have a proper mental image. The best I had access to, though, was good ol' Hero Forge. It may not be the NoPixel/GTA model, but it's also not too shabby of a recreation of my Bitmoji self. Right?

Maneuvering the braid so it would go over her shoulder was tricky, but I like how it turned out. Also, a rose-wrapped sword was my wedding motif, so the second I saw that it was a shirt detail option I knew that I HAD to include it! Not to say that I could create this outfit at all in NoPixel, but it was still fun to try to generate my Bitmoji Me on Hero Forge. Give me some sort of mental image of what Anna-Marie could look like in GTA.

The more I look at the side-by-side the happier I am with my end result. It was a fun way to fill some of my "brain empty" time.

I also played with the idea of adding Rogue's signature white-bangs. It's fun, but probably not a feature I'd keep. What do you guys think? Hypothetical yay? Nay? Add it specifically for Anna-Marie to make her a bit more distinct from my LycoRogue Bitmoji self (to make her less self-insert-y)?

I still don't know much about Anna-Marie. I started up a few character-building questionnaires, but... "Head Empty" and all that. So, I didn't get terribly far in any of them yet. Maybe that will be one of the things I work on for the rest of February.

In the meantime, the bits I have at least semi-figured out are as follows.

  1. I think I'd have her be roughly my age IRL. Perhaps a touch younger.
  2. I'd probably lean into the Wolffe last name and have her be a Mama Wolf on the server. Maybe even see if I could convince people to just straight up refer to her as Mama Wolffe.
  3. She'd be part-Yuno: friendly with just about everyone on the server; trying to make connections; trying to build up her "pack". She'd also be part-Raymond Romanov: viciously protective of said pack; her found family. She'd also probably be part Gigi Gambino: sneaky and discreet info-gatherer.
  4. If you hurt someone she cared about she wouldn't overtly retaliate like Raymond. I am not nearly good enough with aiming (in games or otherwise) to attack the way Raymond would. Therefore Anna-Marie wouldn't be terribly skilled at personally physically retaliating (at least, not at first). Instead, Anna-Marie would find sly ways to hit you where it hurts, or just persuade you into making up for the slight. She'd probably be a bit like Mickey Sinclaire, played by Blau, in that regard.
  5. I don't know enough of her backstory yet to know why, but Anna-Marie, much like most of Los Santos, moved to the island city in an attempt to start anew. She felt like it was time for a change in her life, and she saw opportunity in the rebuilding of this once-great city (assuming my mental roleplaying is happening this first year of the server, when everything is still new and building).
  6. She has no intentions of participating in criminal activity (not that she couldn't be persuaded/corrupted into doing them eventually). She has no qualms, however, at being "criminal adjacent". Being "in the know" and being a look-out or whatever, but purposefully tries to keep herself the clean face for any criminal friends/found-family she may make in Los Santos. A way to casually chat with the cops and maybe try to throw the scent off of her friends.
  7. Her main goal in Los Santos would be to earn enough money to get a nice, large house that people can just crash at. If you need a place to stay and shelter in, you find Mama Wolffe. She is Sanctuary.
    • 7b. My personal "main goal", if I ever were to truly make it onto the server, would be to interact with Raymond Romanov in such a way that Ray__C nearly breaks character as he does his classic "No way!" yell at his chat as he walks away from his desk. If I could interact with this man and garner this sort of response, I will consider it a Bucket List item checked off.
      ....
      Maybe that's what I should aim to do for my 40th. I've got 5 months to find a way to set up a gaming PC, purchase and play some GTA V Online to get used to the gameplay, apply to NoPixel, get approved, bring in Anna-Marie, meet up with Raymond Romanov, and get him to crack. Think I could do it?
      (Probably not with my current chaotic scheduling.....)
  8. She'd probably excitedly try to sign up to be a G6 Ranger.....
  9. She'd probably try to stick to the "Blue and Yellow/Gold" color scheme I have going for my LycoRogue persona.

Aaaaaand that's all I have right now. It will be interesting to see what kind of backstory and/or personality I can come up with for her. I'll have to touch base with you fine folks later about that.

While I was on Hero Forge anyway, working on building Anna-Marie, I got the itch to use the site to come up with minis for some of my other OCs. Some of them are still works in progress. The more features the site adds in the closer I can get to making these characters how I actually picture them.

First up was my black panther Tabaxi Emerald Gaze.

My Hero Forge recreation of the drawing I did of Emerald Gaze back in 2019.

I wish I could give EG rounder cheeks and make her a bit more muscular. Her variant of black panther is designed off of a jaguar, which are chunkier bois than their leopard counterpart. I'm also not sure I like how shaggy the fur on her forearms and hands are when the rest of her body is short-hair. But, for what I had to work with, I'm happy with how faithful I was able to keep the design.

Next up is my eccentric theater nerd... I mean bard: Bronze Dragonborn Myastan Kriv.

My Hero Forge design of Kriv vs the official D&D 5e image of a Bronze Dragon

I tried to recreate elements of a Bronze Dragon within my boy. I was able to find a beaked dragonborn head. Unfortunately, it had spikes down the back of the skull instead of smooth like the other dragonborn head options. I also couldn't give Kriv the Bronze Dragon boney finned cheeks, but I was able to find finned ears with little spikes at the end of them. I tried dropping the ears down enough to look more like the finned cheeks of the dragon. I think I'm close, but I feel like it needs tweaking still. I also couldn't add the fin down the back of his head and neck, so I gave him a green mohawk instead. Canonically, he does have the fin though. I was able to use the bronze metal coloring for Kriv's skin tone. I then added tiger stripes and colored them green to match the dragon. You can't really see here, but I also made his chest and palms that lighter silvery color the dragon has on its neck, chest, and belly. Kriv also has the dragon's green eyes and black horns on the crown of his head.

Kriv probably needs the most tweaking, given the limited selections I had for him, but I'm still proud of what I was able to build in the meantime.

My final D&D character would be good old Jolene.

My attempt at recreating my OG inspirational image of Jolene.
Original image is a character design by Grafit Studio
for an undisclosed Game Insight! game.
I doctored Grafit Studio's image to give Jolene purple hair and eyes.

Poor Jolene looks like she's 10yrs older in my Hero Forge version. Oh well. Grafit Studio's version is just Jolene in her 20s while Hero Forge Jolene is pushing 40.... Posing her to match her pose in the Grafit Studio image was soooooo tricky, but I think I did a pretty decent job.

Side Note: back when I first grabbed Grafit Studio's image and doctored it to be my visualization of Jolene, I had found it on Pinterest. I didn't bother to backtrack the image to the artist at the time. Dumb move. Bad form. I knew I needed to track down who actually drew the original art and at least link back to them. It kept me AAAAAAGES to track the image down! It was a TRIAL, but I managed it! I'm so glad to be able to now link back to the studio, at least, if not the actual artist.

Anyway, back to my Hero Forge depictions of Jolene. In truth, I can't really have Jolene without also showcasing her possessed version, so here's poor Jolene possessed by the Prime Evil Deception.

Canonically, she was terrified and tried to pretend nothing was wrong with her (only feeding Deception further.... not the smartest move on her part). It's more fun, though, to pretend her possession also started to turn her evil. More compelling imagery that way. Also, I couldn't showcase that Jolene's tongue became forked and snake-like. So... pretend that's there too.

I started working on building Trish from the X-Future canon, along with Hubby's character Chayse. I haven't perfected them yet, but here's some starter images of them.

Clearly, I am doing some important writing work here....

Anyway, that's what limited "writing" progress I've done in January. And... the first week of February, I guess.

Considering how long it kept me to write this update, I guess I better stop here so I have time to get started on the next one. Hope to see you a second time this month! Until then!

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