Wait. How Do I Stop My Plot Points?

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I had been debating with myself for over a week on how to start this update. I probably would have had this published days ago, but I just could not get started. I had the middle. I had the end. But not the opening.

And, boy howdy, is that ever a metaphor for my writing as a whole lately.

I come up with a cool scene, but it makes no sense without set-up, and that's the part I can't seem to figure out outside of a generic exposition dump like the text-crawl at the start of Star Wars movies. Or I have an opening, and I know how I want to end it, but what happens in between? What's the actual plot? 

This right here is why One and the Same hasn't gone anywhere for years. I know how I want the middle to go, and I know what I want the end to be, but I can't seem to get the set-up - the opening act - to make sense. For Seduce with Caution, I have an opening couple of chapters I'm happy with, and some cool scenes throughout the rest of the story, but that connective tissue between those scenes still alludes me. I even have two nearly-finished chapters that just sort of abruptly start in medias res and feel short without a proper opening to transition into the scene I wrote.

Like... how does one start things????

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No one I've talked to about these struggles in the past really had any answers. Likewise, there's crickets on my Discord server channels where I talk about my writing.

So, naturally, I decided to add another WIP to the mix... that'll help, right?

I mean, Linda Sejic created Punderworld as she stepped away from her main comic Blood Stain in an attempt to shake herself out of writer's block. So, maybe this WILL help? I hope so.

If you've been following my LycoRogue's Reading Corner updates - or if you've simply read my blog updates in 2024 - you're aware that I've been reading a LOT of isekai stories lately. Also, as I frequently talk about, these portal fantasy stories tend to come in 3 main flavors.

The first is your standard portal fantasy. A person from the real world full-on teleports into a new world. Various examples of this type of story includes: 

• The Pevensie children in The Chronicles of Narnia
• Dr. Daniel Jackson from the movie and spin-off series Stargate
• Anne from the Disney channel series Amphibia
• Fellow Disney channel character Luz from The Owl House
• Hitomi from The Vision of Escaflowne
• Miaka and Yui from Fushigi Yûgi
• Saito from The Familiar of Zero
• Naofumi from The Rising of The Shield Hero

So on, and so forth. I hope you get the idea. For this category, I'd also include the multitude of isekai-adjacent stories that have been prevalent lately: the "Main Character gets trapped in a video game via their VR headset" genre made popular by stories like Sword Art Online and Overlord.

The second concept is the reincarnation isekai. A person dies in our world and is reincarnated in a fantasy world, but retains all of their memories and adult intellect from their previous life on Earth. I personally haven't come across this style outside of Japanese stories, and even so, this isn't the main genre I watch. That said, I have watched at least three animes within this subgenre of isekai stories:

• The Saga of Tanya the Evil
• So I'm a Spider, So What?
• That Time I Got Reincarnated as a Slime

There's also those stories adjacent to the reincarnation isekai, where the main character is TECHNICALLY reincarnated in this new world, but they are "rebirthed" fully-formed in their "adult forms" like Athena or Aphrodite from Greek myth. Some examples of this would be My Unique Skill Makes Me OP Even at Level 1 or the delightfully absurd Reborn as a Vending Machine, I Now Wander the Dungeon.

The final flavor of isekai is transmigration. This one is my current pet genre to watch/read. If there's an isekai on my reading list, you can bet that it's a transmigration story. Basically, a person from our world ends up possessing a fictional character. This could be because they died in our world, but they don't HAVE to have died. 

While most reincarnation isekais (that I know of) seem to be predominantly male protagonists, the transmigration stories seem to be largely female protags. The fictional characters in question (that the main character possesses) tend to be from romance novels or dating sim games. This is where the ever-increasingly-popular subgenre of villainess isekai stories grew from. 

An adjacent subgenre is the pseudo time-travel transmigration story, where the main character dies, but their spirit then possesses a younger form of themselves so they can relive their life. Again, this is largely a female-dominated subgenre, but one of the more popular reincarnation/transmigration isekais - Re:Zero - does have a male lead, and takes this trope of "possess your past life" and cranks it to 11! (Also, death time loop stories like Edge of Tomorrow are tangentially part of this subgenre, I'd suppose...)

Now, why did I give you yet another primer/refresher on what isekai stories are? Shouldn't I save this for LycoRogue's Reading Corner? Well.... as you've probably guessed, this does indeed relate to my writing.

As I mentioned last month, I had come up with a little transmigration isekai story idea where a pair of lovers unknowingly transmigrate into the same fantasy world and re-find each other. Well, a little over a week ago, I came up with another one!

For those who haven't read this month's LRRC yet, I started reading a new isekai: I Am The Villain. The long-and-short of this story is that Lucy ends up teleported into her friend Sena's romance novel. Originally, both the readers and Lucy believe that she transmigrated into the body of Sena's villainess Lucia, who looks identical to Lucy. Meanwhile, Sena has become her protagonist Claire, who is Sena's self-insert character. The added complication is that (a) Lucy and Sena don't know that the other also isekai'd into Sena's story, and (b) the original novel version of both Lucia and Claire are still their own people, essentially creating two of each character within this story's world. Sena wrote Claire to look exactly like herself, so she easily stole Claire's identity and stepped in as her story's protagonist. Meanwhile, Lucy unintentionally usurped Lucia's life when the real Lucia went missing, and her brother thought he found her when he came across Lucy.

Going back to Sena as Claire, however, that is what sparked my latest story idea.

Sena is in awe that she gets to walk within the world she built and among the characters that she created. She marvels at how much more handsome the male cast is compared to what she even pictured. She notes how real they all are, but then casually laments that one character has to die so soon within her plot. Meaning he is not long for this world. 

That would kill me if I were Sena! I have a hard enough time causing physical pain to my characters. I struggle to leave lasting scars, let alone maiming/dismembering my characters, causing them to become physically disabled at all. To kill them?! I'm getting choked up just thinking about it!

So.... what if the main character of an isekai is a writer like myself, but teleported into their story like Sena? As of right now, I'm picturing the main character as female. Mostly because (a) that's just common for this genre, and (b) I'm a female, so it's easier to write.... I don't have a name yet, so I'm gonna call her MC (for Main Character) for this.

Introducing MC, an introverted writer vastly lacking in personal connections. She's chronically online, getting her socializing done almost exclusively behind anonymous internet handles on social media.

She loves her fans, and enjoys doing meet-and-greets with them, but she doesn't have too many actual irl friends. They all drifted away from her as they aged. She became more engrossed in her fans and the worlds she builds to compensate.

Sometimes, she gets so engrossed in her WIPs that she goes radio-silent as she spends nearly every waking moment either researching or writing her latest story. People have gotten used to this, so no one (including fans) really bats an eye if no one has heard from her for weeks at a time. As long as she still checks in at least once a month and she hits her deadlines, everyone simply assumes she's hyperfixating and is otherwise fine.

She's a bit of a prolific writer, but her most popular stories are all within the same regency fantasy franchise (think Bridgerton). Franchise title TBD.

One night, MC is particularly worn out. She had just published the latest installment in her franchise, but way overworked herself to get it done by her deadline. Due to her hyperfixation with her story, she hasn't been eating well (if at all), has become very dehydrated, and has been pulling way too many all-nighters. Her poor self-care has caught up with her. She's feverish. She's all alone in her small apartment. She's weak, but assumes she just needs to finally rest. She falls asleep fantasizing about being pampered and nursed back to health like one of her protags. (Yes, I swiped this idea from the inciting incident of My Housemate Sano-kun Is Just My Editor!)

She is rudely woken up the next day as someone whips open the curtains in her room. Except, she's not in her room anymore! She's in a queen-sized canopy bed with intricately carved posts. The sheets are the softest fabric she's ever felt. The mattress is so cozy she never wants to leave. And the woman who woke up MC is dressed as a regency-era maid. She greets MC pleasantly but a bit sternly, as if expecting MC to be in that bed; as if she recognized her. However, she doesn't call MC by her name. The name DOES sound familiar, though (I'm thinking maybe Olivia???). The maid verbally encourages MC to get out of bed and greet the day, rattling off that day's schedule. When MC complies, the maid instantly starts getting MC ready for the day: fetching water to wash up with, laying out her clothes, helping her get dressed, doing her hair, etc.

Upon seeing herself in the mirror, MC realizes why she recognized the name the maid called her. She has transmigrated into her self-insert character within her story franchise! Understandably, MC assumes she's having a fever dream brought on by thinking too much about her story lately, and enjoys the pampering.

...Except... Would a fever dream include uninterrupted bathroom breaks? Or uneventful meals, no matter how delectable the food is? Or the boredom of filling a slow evening post-supper?

It soon dawns on our MC that this is no dream! Somehow she ACTUALLY transmigrated into her story franchise as her self-insert character! She now has a comfortable life of luxury and all the free time she wishes. Writing might prove more difficult without the aid of a computer to type or research on, but that's a small inconvenience for everything she just got! Easy trade! Best yet, it's not like all of those typical transmigration stories where the main character becomes the villainess! She's her self-insert, who is just a minor character in her franchise! She has little-to-nothing to do with the plot. Just an extra body to fill in a few scenes to make the world feel more alive. She can live a cozy, cushy life of an aristocrat just on the outskirts of drama. (Aaaaand I swiped this part from Her Wish to be Isekai'd. Don't steal the whole crown, but feel free to steal some jewels to make your own crown....)

It's not long before MC is invited to one of those high-society parties that her character was created to help populate. She delights in getting dolled up and rubbing elbows with the nobility within her world. She is gobsmacked at how real and alive her characters all are. They're more elegant than she could picture, and their outfits more intricate and gorgeous than she could imagine. They are cunning and witty and playful. Just as she designed each one to be. She tears up a little, like a proud mama watching her grown children.

Then, she bumps into one particular character. He's a sweetheart to her. He's exactly as gentlemanly and noble as she wanted him to be. As he walks off, she reflects on how many people would have died to have been able to interact with such a fan-favorite character. She then starts tearing up, realizing how relieved she is that she had the chance to actually meet him before he was brutally killed. It had pained her to do it, but the battle just didn't feel realistic or as impactful if there weren't some named casualties. "For the story," she had wept as she wrote his bitter death scene.

But he's right there! He's alive and well! Oh, lord! He's destined to die, and it's all her fault! All of these lovely people are about to Go Through It, and it will all be by her design! No! Her precious characters are all living in their lovely Status Quo. How can she stop the plots of her novels from kicking off??? At the same time, though, there WERE some satisfying endings where characters were able to find their true loves and villainous characters got their comeuppance. Can she still get that to happen without too many of the tragedies that she had worked in????

There HAS to be a way, right? She created the plot, she must be able to influence it, right???? And it doesn't have to be entertaining anymore, just effective. It doesn't matter if a battle doesn't seem impactful or threatening. The attackers can be pushovers that are easily captured without a single casualty. Who is she trying to entertain anymore anyway?

With the same hyperfixation that got her in trouble and isekai'd in the first place, she is determined to direct her characters to their fated happy endings, and stop her villains (maybe rehabilitate them???), all while avoiding death and bloodshed, if possible. Problem is... she's not the author anymore! She's just a silly little side character now. A lower noble that the main characters rarely interact with. How can she affect anything????

Also, you KNOW I have to have my own romance subplot. I'm thinking at least one knight or noble or royal or whomever starts to fall for her, but she's so fixated on saving all of her precious characters that she is OBVILIOUS to the flirting and romantic advancements. Those are a distraction! Maybe there's a popular crack ship of her self-insert side character with one of the secondary love interests of the main plot? All of the fans wanted him to find someone after the story's protag chose the other love interest, and thought the MC's side character would be a perfect match for him. The MC never understood the ship, especially since she never actually had the two characters interact. However, he is definitely paying more attention to her than the protag he was SUPPOSED to be wooing, dammit! Were the fans right all along????

Lastly, I think it would be important for her to finally form a social group. She starts awkwardly doing so as a way to garner more influence over her characters to try to protect them, but it becomes a legitimate and caring friend group. Problem here is that she falls into the same pattern she had on Earth: she becomes too focused on her work (in this case, saving her characters, as opposed to writing her novels) and starts to isolate herself again, assuming none of her friends truly want to spend time with her anyway.

As for the broad strokes of the plot, that's all I have right now. More than I thought I had, honestly. And the rabbit hole goes deeper, but I'll get to that. 

When I first thought of this story, I only had a basic elevator pitch:

Instead of the person possessing the villainess trying to change the plot to avoid her death, my protag would be the transmigrated author now going, "OH SHIT! HOW DO I STOP THE PLOT POINTS FROM HAPPENING! EVERYONE MUST LIVE HAPPILY-EVER-AFTER!"

Problem is, this author's self-insert character was just a side character with little-to-no authority over anything....

Aurora Morgen jumped in and told me, "I like it. 10/10 would read. That problem is a good plot element. Makes it that much more exciting when they do figure out how to stop the plot points."

That was all the encouragement I needed. After thinking about it a couple more days, I decided the plot bunny had stuck around long enough to talk about it here. I started writing up the above synopsis, unsure if I was going to give more than that original elevator pitch. But then more just kept flowing! I'm definitely more locked-in on this idea than the "lovers re-find each other" plot bunny I shared last month. I'm super excited about this. If I can't break my current writer's block over my Miraculous Ladybug fanfics, maybe I should spend next month focusing on this instead. I mean, there's still some pretty key things that I need to sort out.

• What is the main character's original name?
• What is her self-insert character's name? Do I lock in Olivia? I did a quick search for regency-era names, and found this link. There isn't a single O-name listed for females. Does that mean Olivia won't work? Should I make that the MC's original name instead? (I'm kinda feeling Olivia for her one way or another....)
• What is the name of her regency-era franchise?
• Should her franchise be more like Bridgerton and be based in reality? Or should I lean into most of the fantasy worlds used in these villainess transmigration stories? Add some magic/monsters/attacking demons?
• What are the plots of her books that she's trying to prevent?
• Who would be the main characters she's trying to save? And which one(s) would be her love interest?
• Did she die from her illness and now lives the rest of her days as her side character? Or is she in a coma, and she has the option to return to her real body at the end of the story? If the latter, does she???

Lots to think about.

In the meantime, I already had a nice glimpse into how my main character thinks. How she plots out her stories, poking holes in her plans to make sure they're strong before committing them to paper.

*Note, the next passage would all be presented in the story as the main character's thought process as she problem solves.

The main character comes up with what seems like the obvious solution to explain away why she knows that bad things are coming, and to convince her characters to listen to her advice. She'll tell everyone that she's clairvoyant! Duh! She can see the future!

Except... she never established in her stories that this character is clairvoyant. She never even included foresight/fortune telling in any of her novels. For all intents and purposes, this kind of thing isn't real/believed by sensible folk. How does she convince everyone?

She has to let a more mild plot point come to pass and let people know about it. That will prove that she has The Gift... but why would it start NOW, when she's in her early 20s? Why wasn't she clairvoyant earlier in life? What changed?

A HEAD INJURY! She could get a minor bump on her head, ham it up to make it seem more serious. Then claim it did something to her mind and she can see flashes of the future now!

There's a montage of her orchestrating minor head injuries.... only to be protected from them each time. (yes, I did steal this failed head injury plot-point from At Your Mercy) If the main character keeps trying to seemingly get a nasty head injury it will become obvious that she's doing so on purpose.... She needs a new plan....

A CURSED ITEM! Perfect! She can start having visions due to this item, and then, once the plot changes enough that she doesn't know what will happen next, she can get rid of the item to explain why she can't see the future anymore! Why didn't she think of this first?

OK. So, she has to find an ominous-looking, mysterious jewel from an "disreputable" source that is still appealing enough that it feels organic that this side character would not only buy it, but would want to keep it with her. How is she going to manage THAT without raising any flags???

After a few more antics and shenanigans (TBD), she manages to find the perfect jewel to play the part of her mysterious cursed item.

Except, in the process of trying to fake a head injury and then acquiring said item, she's already changed more than she realized. She goes to showcase her first premonition by claiming something unexpected would happen to a specific noble during this exact social gathering....

... and it doesn't happen ...

People wave it off as her having a very weird and vivid dream, and think nothing more about it.

She sighs. Back to the drawing board.... Only now she's unsure if she even can still predict the plot enough to stop the more distressing plot points from happening!

Man! Look at everything I already thought of for this concept in about 10 days!!!

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I keep thinking, "man, I haven't written in a while. I'm not getting any writing done. Do I even remember how to write? Why is this so hard for me? Why am I slacking?" And yet, I seem to have something new to tell all of you fine folk every month! So, I guess I'm doing better than I thought. 

One of the benefits of having this blog is being able to see that. To properly reflect and see my writing for what it is, as opposed to how I feel or think it is.

Speaking of, I actually got another comment on Could Your Paradise Also Be Your Hell? Despite that story being one of my most popular ones - 2nd in kudos and hits, 3rd in bookmarks, and 2nd among my one-shots in comments - I haven't had a new comment on it since September 2023! What's even more fun is that I had included a dumb little The Road to El Dorado reference in my story, and this reader not only picked up on it, but joked back about it. Man, I love that!

She really needed that cold splash of water now, and certainly couldn't share this bed with that man. Nope. Can't do it. Not today. - The Stars not in alignment?

Also, the love for You Pretended Not to Care is still pouring in. Usually, it's just one new kudos, but I have had a couple of days where 2 or 3 people left kudos on it. I also get at least one kudos notification per week for this story, and that's with it being nearly a year old! (Good golly! It's almost a year old!)

The weirdest thing for me, however, is that I Think I Like You (Maybe More Than I Should) is getting relatively significant love again. As much love as YPNTC throughout March. Huh!? That story was published last May. It's over 10 months old! That's practically ancient in the flood of ML fanfic. There is just shy of 76k different stories within the fandom's tag on AO3! Out of that mountain of content to read, the VAST majority (62,938 stories; 83%) are written in English and aren't crossovers. That is a LOT of competition for older stories to push against. And yet, both Could Your Paradise and I Think I Like You are managing! Since both are spin-off stories of fics that MostLovedGirl wrote, I hope that means her stories are still getting flooded with love too.

Maybe that's what's happening. People are still reading MLG's stories, and my fics are listed as "inspired by" at the end of her work. People find my stuff that way. I mean, I'll gladly take it. I can't think of many other reasons for my stories to be found and read now, months and years after they are published. Then again, I haven't started watching the latest season yet - although, we FINALLY have an air date for EPISODE 1 finally! - so maybe something happened in canon that also relates to my stories somehow? And that's why people are finding them so late???? I guess I'll find out once I catch up after April 26th....

Getting back to that flood of stories, however. I had looked up how many total works on AO3 were in the ML fandom last Thursday. When I looked it up again today to update the above numbers, FIFTY-FOUR new stories had been added in the last four days! 

Comparatively, there's One Piece. Specifically, the manga/anime fandom, as opposed to the sub-fandoms of the live action Netflix show, the video games, or a D&D web series within the world of One Piece. The manga started WAAAAAY back in 1997, and the anime started in 1999. BOTH ARE STILL GOING! This is a much-beloved series that has been around for over 25 years! There has been PLENTY of time for fans to write fanfics for the show, and yet it "only" has 88,086 stories on AO3 (66,221 stories if you're only looking for non-crossovers written in English).

HOW DOES THE MIRACULOUS FANDOM - which has "only" been around for 9 years - NEARLY HAVE AS MANY FICS AS ONE PIECE???

Prolific. This fandom is filled with prolific writers. They are insane. Bless them all.

I know I've poked at this idea in the past, but I'm starting to finally have enough confidence to really believe it is a factor. The reason I get so lost in the shuffle within the fandom is (probably?) because I don't write as prolifically as the Big Name authors. I don't post something new daily or weekly or even a couple of times a month in order to stay towards the start of the fic search results. When I do post, it's generally a chonker of a story. Easily 4500+ words. Not the shortest/easiest fics to read and digest quickly between classes or while commuting on the bus or while taking a lunch (or bathroom) break at work. Stories 4500+ words long can be intimidating. Especially when you have 20 stories under 3k words that you could read instead.

It's basically the same mentality as those who can binge 4hrs of TV episodes, but can't sit through a 2.5hr movie.

Which is a lot of people, to be fair....

So, maybe that truly is my problem.

1. I don't publish frequently enough to be towards the top of search results
2. My stories are too long, and

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Maybe if I found a platform that wasn't so crowded I could find space to plant my flag. Nothing's really had a chokehold on me the way Miraculous Ladybug does, though. Not since I got introduced to the show, at least. So, who knows?

In the meantime, I'm gonna keep reading my isekai stories on WEBTOON, and hope it helps inspire me to keep working on my latest plot bunny. Or, maybe one of the stories will take hold the way ML has, and I'll have a new fandom to spread my wings into. Keep your fingers crossed!

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Before I go, though, it's time for March's blessing. It feels like I'm cheating, especially since I've done this two months in a row now, but I think I've already talked about what I'm thankful for in March. Namely, that I not only found inspiration for a new story, but also that it's an original story - instead of fanfiction - and that I thought of so much of it already with barely a week to ponder.

I mean, let's let that second bit sink in for a moment. Aside from Scum & Villainy or D&D plotlines, I have not thought of an original story since I wrote Blame Fate for This for Ronoxym's 30th birthday back in 2019! Five years! Actually, closer to 5.5yrs since my brain was able to come up with an original story!

And yet... boom! Two new story concepts in as many months! And one has a decent structure started already. I'm having so much fun with this concept too. I'm really excited about seeing how much more I can develop it. It's been AGES since I've felt THIS excited about writing. So.... yeah... may be a bit of a cop out since this was also the main topic of my update this month, but I don't care. My blessing is definitely my Muse returning to me on the back of these endless isekai/transmigration stories I've been reading.

Thank you, Muse, for stopping by to chat for a while. I hope you enjoy your stay and decide to extend it.

In the meantime, I'll catch all of you peeps in about two weeks for my next LycoRogue's Reading Corner!

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LycoRogue's Reading Corner: February

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Looks like I'm two-for-two with publishing my LycoRogue's Reading Corner update on time. I'll give myself props for at least getting it done in the correct month again. Baby steps.

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What hurts is that I was actually keeping pretty on-schedule to be able to get this published on the 15th, as intended. Then I tripped at the finish line. Naturally, there was Valentine's Day on Friday, and you probably know by now how my husband and I are big mushes. Granted, we didn't celebrate ON Valentine's Day since we were both busy, but we then made a point of spending time together after work on Saturday to make up for it. Either way, it meant that I was focused on something other than this update because of V'day. Plus, as I mentioned, I was busy on Friday, so that day was a loss as well.

The main distraction, however, was entirely of my own making. Literally. I'll discuss it more in my writing update at the end of the month, but I created a Discord server for me and my writing friends. I then distracted myself from finishing this update by working on/posting to that server for about two or three days. The entire time I thought, "I don't need to do this NOW. Work on the blog update." But then that little devil on my other shoulder whispered, "Nah... this is more important..."

Sooooooo.... yeah. Whoops.

With regard to reading, I have been focused exclusively on WEBTOON the past month. Zenmisery hasn't updated any of the stories she had been working on. Which.... fair. It's been extra rough for a lot of us Americans since the newest administration took hold. I get having different priorities than working on fanfiction. 

Not that there's a shortage of other fanfiction for me. Besides the thousands of fics already published to AO3, there's been a big resurgence lately. After over a year, season 6 of Miraculous Ladybug has finally started airing.

Except.... I haven't been watching any of it because the release order is even more messed up than normal.

For season 1, the release/watch order didn't really matter. The show was episodic. You could watch in whichever order and you'd be fine. The only stipulations were (1) keep the two-part "Origins" episodes together, and (2) have "Volpina" be the season finale.

For season 2, the story started to get a bit more serialized. Most of it remained episodic, but there was starting to be an overarching season-long plot. If you watched some late-season episodes before some early-season episodes the character development might feel off or you might get a minor spoiler.

Season 3 is when the watch order really started to matter. It's also when I decided to exclusively watch the series in production order, as opposed to the random toss-out of episodes that was the air order. Mostly because there was a pretty big spoiler in an episode that aired at least 9 episodes ahead of production order.

Even so, season 6 is, as I've mentioned, by far the worst. At least with the previous seasons, the two-part episodes aired back-to-back and in the correct order, the season finale was the final episode(s) to be aired, and - with the exception of season 1, when it didn't really matter - the first episode of each season was indeed the season premiere.

Until now...

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Four episodes have already aired, one of which was the ELEVENTH episode in production order.

We are still waiting for an air date for THE FIRST EPISODE OF SEASON 6! Whyyyyyyyy?

Supposedly, you can watch season 6 in any order, just like season 1 or 2, but I'm probably still going to wait until at least the FIRST EPISODE IN PRODUCTION ORDER is finally aired before I jump into this new season. Which means a LOT of spoiler dodging for a little while. So.... I'm just going to step away from new fanfiction as well....

Most people are kind enough to tag spoilers, but some? Eh? It's just safest to step away.

Not that it matters. I am apparently determined to have my Webtoon nightly reading list be long enough to take up my goal of 1hr/day all on its little lonesome. Which means I've continued my habit of just subscribing to any promoted series that have a logline and artwork that intrigues me, even if I don't read the synopsis then-and-there to see if I even want to read it. I have so many of these that I still need to vet....

Anyway, that brings my subscription list count (excluding stories I've completed) up to 74 stories! Well, 90 stories, if you include the 16 Canvas series I'm also subscribed to.

Just so you know, I haven't even read the preview chapter for 62% of that subscription list.... But I get suggested pretty pictures and romance isekais so.... *hits subscribe button* I'm such an easy mark....

Regardless, I am still actively reading 16 Webtoons Original stories (the ones that are updated weekly, with official editors, yada-yada). I also regularly read 3 Webtoons Canvas stories (the ones where the creators are self-regulated and post on their own schedule) as they update.

That doesn't include 3 more Webtoons Original stories or 2 Webtoons Canvas stories or 3 Comikey stories that I might periodically bring up to read. I just need to be in the right mindset for them, though.

Point being, I started tearing though last month's reading schedule pretty quickly again. I had bouts of insomnia, and I was craving more content. This time, I at least went to that long subscription list I already had, and pulled some new options from that. 

First was the series You Can't Kill Me: The Secret Bride of the Black Wolf. 

Yeonwu Chae, a talented yet lonely composer from Korea, finds herself and her family trapped in the underworld after a car crash. In her first life, she marries Hyojo, who ultimately kills her. In her second life, she takes revenge by taking her own life in front of him. But despite her desperate wish for an end, she’s given another chance at life. However, this time, instead of encountering Hyojo, she is discovered by Hwita, a mysterious man with a black wolf as his guardian spirit. Can Yeonwu break the cycle and find true safety in this treacherous underworld?

    - Official Webtoon Summary

Honestly? This was a case of "Pretty pictures; instant subscribe" and I didn't even read the summary before checking out the series. I just saw the title, the gorgeous artwork, and it was giving the same vibes as, say, The Dragon King's Bride. So, going in relatively blind, I started up the series.

It opens with Yeonwu committing suicide in front of Hyojo as a sort of a "You cannot have me! I will be free" message. She did so on his birthday in front of the attendants, no less, to really drive home that Hyojo is so horrible that she'd rather die than have him touch her again. 

She hoped she was finally free and could pass on to the next life, only to wake up as her past self right after the fateful car crash. She was terrified. The past two times she lived through this moment Hyojo was the one who found her, and he declared Yeonwu as his.

The artist is SO GOOD at drawing the physical depictions of stress and panic. You could practically feel her shaking through the screen. My own heart races a bit, and my breath becomes shallow whenever Yeonwu panics about Hyojo. It is terrifying, but in the best way. I didn't need to know more. I was locked in.

The next episode, you officially meet the titular Black Wolf: Hwita. Yeonwu isn't sure what is different about this life reset that Hwita is there instead of Hyojo, but she is grateful. She instantly throws herself at him. If he takes her as his lover, maybe that will keep her away from Hyojo!

Understandably, Hwita is beyond confused as to why this person he has never met before is practically begging him to take her to bed. He seems to pick up that she's doing so out of fear, however, and does agree to take her in to protect her. He lets her know that he has no intention of sleeping with anyone he's not in love with, however. Either way, Hwita does still agree to present Yeonwu as his lover, and makes sure to have her room set up beside his so that even his servants will believe the rouse. 

Next comes the major hurtle: Hyojo is the son of the emperor, and Hwita is the emperor's distant relative; a high noble within the Underworld. He's frequently called to the imperial palace, and he can't hide Yeonwu away for too long. The moment Hyojo sees her, he wants her as his own; just as he's always wanted in Yeonwu's past lives.

Now Yeonwu has to push back against trauma and fear, and avoid the constant advancements and attacks from Hyojo (thankfully, Hwita is a very protective "lover").

Also.... Hwita has an alleged twin named Yuta, who is the Grim Reaper.... See, I say "alleged" because we have yet to see the two together. People refer to the Reaper as Hwita's twin, even Hwita's servants seem to have known the twins when they were young. However, there's a decent amount of evidence to suggest that maybe Hwita IS Yuta? That they just kind of cohabit Hwita's body, and that he transforms into Yuta whenever he takes on Reaper duties????

For instance, people talk about how The Reaper only has his powers at night, and so, the only times both Yeonwu and the audience ever sees Yuta, it's at night... when Hwita is conveniently not around. And, when Yeonwu was brutally attacked, Yuta later goes after the aggressor claiming the aggressor put his hands on "My woman" (implying Yeonwu is in a relationship with Yuta, not Hwita). 

On the flipside, though, Hwita, while talking to Yeonwu about her first encounter with Yuta - in which he saved her from thugs - mumbles "I can't believe my brother was actually useful for once." He also seemed put-off when Yeonwu commented on how similar Hwita and Yuta were: "I thought you two had a similar aura." Later, when he was alone with one of his most faithful servants, he notes that Yuta wears a mask because "he hates that his face looks so much like mine" (being twins and all). 

So... it feels like Hwita believes Yuta is a separate person, an actual brother/twin. Which SHOULD confirm that Hwita and Yuta AREN'T one and the same.... On top of that, in the most recent free-release episode, Yuta is seen attacking Yeonwu's assailant while Hwita is busy recovering from being poisoned. Does this confirm that they are two different people? Or is the the story being told out-of-order and Yuta attacking the guy happens AFTER Hwita's recovery, not before/during it?

Flipping back though.... In the opening scene of the series, when Yeonwu commits suicide at Hyojo's birthday celebration, she sees a man crying over her death. She can't tell who it is, but, after I went back to reread this scene, it's now obvious that the person crying over Yeonwu's suicide is Hwita. And Hwita is magically there before Hyojo when Yeonwu is again reverted to the moment her family crashed into the Underworld.

Did Yuta - as The Reaper - cause Yeonwu's life-rewinds? Did he also direct Hwita where to go to find Yeonwu? Did he do all of this for his brother - whom he seems to have a negative relationship with? Especially considering Yuta apparently considers Yeonwu HIS woman? OOOOR, does Occam's Razor suggest that Yuta HAS to therefore be Hwita during the day, when he loses his Reaper powers? In his daytime form (Hwita) he saw his love (Yeonwu) committing suicide to try to get away from Hyojo. He wants another chance to save her and maybe even be with her, so, in his Reaper form (Yuta), he rewinds time as far as he can control: the car crash (he, presumably, doesn't have the ability to alter anything that happened in the Overworld, aka, the world of the living). He then tries to get to Yeonwu before Hyojo, but, it's daytime again, so he has to arrive as Hwita.

Seems compelling... until you realize that - iirc - Hwita has visited Yeonwu at night, and has even specifically told her that he'd escort her if she needed to go anywhere at night since it's so dangerous.

EEEEE! This whole mystery behind Hwita and Yuta, and why Yeonwu is stuck in this time loop.... I love it all! I'm hooked just on that. But then seeing how tender Hwita is with Yeonwu, and watching them lowkey flirt with each other??? Beautiful!

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All-in-all, this is an awesome story. Definitely in the top among all the ones I read/have read. The artwork is gorgeous and really pulls you into the skin of the protagonist. Hwita is the softest of beans, but goes BEAST MODE when he feels he needs to protect Yeonwu. Which, surprisingly, is both a LOT and not as much as he'd think? Like, she's attacked. A LOT. But she's also learning that she can hold her own a lot more than she thought. So Hwita doesn't need to rescue her as much as you'd think.

Also, as I mentioned above with Hwita crying over Yeonwu's suicide, there's hints that maybe Yeonwu and Hwita interacted more in her past lives than she lets on, and/or that maybe Hwita is also aware of the time loop and has been in love with Yeonwu for a while now? The "aware of the loop" thing would explain how he'd know where to be to get to Yeonwu before Hyojo this life-reset, assuming it isn't some Yuta/Hwita shenanigans.

So.... yeah! I spent HOURS just binging this story on one of my days off, which then meant I was caught up and had to wait for the next free release. Boo. At least You Can't Kill Me is now an exciting addition to my weekly reading line-up. Bonus: It updates Sunday night in the US. Which means I finally have new weekly content on Sundays, and not just Daily Pass unlockables! Whoo!

Finally finding something for my Sunday evenings was exciting, but it also meant it didn't help me fill my nightly reading cravings. Still on the hunt to bulk up my nightly reading list, I got introduced to a brand new series: Lock Me Up, Duke!.

When doomed to get the bad ending, everyone would try to avoid it no matter what, right? But, that’s not the case for A-Min Kim. Reborn as Jayna Blake, the main character of her favorite game: “How to Fall in Love with the Obsessed Man”, A-min Kim is determined to get the locked up ending. Free food, limitless sleep, and no need to work! Who’d refuse that? At least, not Jayna!

    - Official Webtoon Summary

Not only was this story being promoted on Webtoon's rotating home page banner, but it was also being promoted at the end of Seabird and the Wolf. Seems the same publishing company in charge of Seabird and the Wolf is also translating and publishing Lock Me Up, Duke! I had some faith after getting into Seabird, and I liked that the publishing company Kisai both left amusing author's notes at the end of each episode and was relatively active on Webtoon itself. They keep up with the creator blogs to promote their various stories. That's neat to me. Plus, the concept for Lock Me Up, Duke! is so bonkers to me. I HAD to see where the story would take it.

I was not disappointed.

First, a little note on the in-story game "How to Fall in Love with the Obsessed Man". It is a unique dating sim that is notorious for it having FIFTY different bad endings! For context for non-gamers, typical branching-pathway games MAAAAYBE have a dozen endings TOTAL. Granted, there are some, such as Baldur's Gate III or Fire Emblem games, that have far more ending options. The main difference there is that you typically have dozens of potential romanceable partners, and so each pairing results in a different ending option. For the purposes of this in-story game "How to Fall...", the main character Jayna only has the ONE romance option. And yet, there's still 50 BAD endings, not including any neutral or good ending options! That is a DETAILED game. No wonder it's isekai fodder! Wonder if that will come up later in the series....

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Anyhoo... Lock Me Up, Duke! starts with A-Min getting the locked-up ending in "How to Fall...". While A-Min is playing, the reader can tell the video game character Jayna is scared and isolated. She's being hand-fed by the game's love interest/antagonist Theoris Lee Akrana. He drapes his cloak on her, noting how she must be cold. He then refuses her request to let her leave the room, and it's revealed that she's chained to the floor of her lavished bedroom. Theo then leaves, stating with an evil smirk how much he loves Jayna. She screams for him as the door closes behind him and he walks away. The scene concludes with a pop-up noting that A-Min got the locked-up bad ending.

A-Min disagrees with the 'bad ending' classification. Not taking into consideration the mental and emotional abuse of living imprisoned like that, A-Min thinks this locked-up ending is paradise. You get a lavished bedroom. You have gorgeous dresses. You can rest all you want. Eat delicious food all you want. AND a gorgeous man (Theo) personally takes care of you? What's not to like!?

The woman clearly has a bit of a warped view of the world as she laments her small apartment, no job prospects, no family, and no romantic options. The only things she has going for her are her near-encyclopedic knowledge of "How to Fall in Love with the Obsessed Man" and a stray cat she sometimes takes care of.

That is... until the cat runs out into traffic, and, in an attempt to save the cat, A-Min gets hit and isekai'd into Jayna. She awakens in a dusty attic bedroom. In your classic Cinderella-style treatment of unwanted and/or illegitimate children, Jayna was hidden away with only the barest necessities until the day she could be useful via her arranged marriage to Theo.

Knowing her life will be worlds better at Theo's castle than it could ever be locked away in a dusty attic at her father's estate, she gleefully packs. Who cares about Theo's cruel reputation? Based on the video game, A-Min knows Theo becomes obsessively devoted to Jayna. She knows she'll be better protected and better taken care of with Theo than her parents. 

She gives them both a cold and rude farewell - why should A-Min care? It's not like they were HER parents, and they clearly treated Jayna cruelly - and goes on her merry way to Theo's estate.

Once there, Jayna (A-Min) is startled by how minimalist, bleak, and filthy the castle is. She knew that Theo was an illegitimate son of the late empress, exiled into the perilous demon-infested lands to the north (because of COURSE there's magic and monsters...) by the jealous emperor. Still, she wasn't expecting something that resembled Dracula's castle! Theo's castle wasn't so terrifying in the game!

As she approached her new home, Jayna (A-Min) is stopped by what appears to be a pop-up similar to the kind in "How to Fall..." It's a disclaimer:

Will you play this game?
      Yes                 No

WARNING
Before you finish the game, you might be killed by the Male Lead. But if you proceed with caution, you will reach a happy ending.

Again being dismissive about the "bad" ending options, Jayna (A-Min) clicks "Yes". Upon which, a new pop-up appears.

WARNING
There's no turning back now. We pray for your safe journey!

The pop-up then vanishes. This is creeping Jayna out. This is nothing like how the game played out! Doesn't matter though. She has no other place to go and no funds to find her own lodging and food. She trudges forward. 

As she approaches what was the first decision you could take in the game, a pop-up of options appears for Jayna. She's relieved to see the options, that way she doesn't have to worry about potentially forgetting a choice option and picking the wrong ones. She doesn't care if choosing wrong might result in Theo killing her. Instead, she's afraid that the wrong choices won't lead to her getting locked up.

Anyway, she tries to select one of the options just as she clicked on "yes" in that first pop-up. Nothing is clickable though. Instead, she "selects" an option by just... doing it!

Should she (a) Knock on the door, (b) Ask who's inside, or (c) Open the door? Once she verbalizes that she's trying to click on "Open the door" her body goes into autopilot and literally just.... opens the door without knocking or calling out to see who is on the other side.

It's a really cool story mechanic for me, and ties into how action/adventure isekais tend to be written. The ones where the male protagonists get isekai'd into their favorite fantasy/action video games, and so they still have the Heads-Up-Display (HUD) as if they were still at home playing those games. It's also a similar set-up for the tangential isekai: the full-haptic VR story. Shows like .Hack//Sign or Sword Art Online or Bofuri: I Don't Want to Get Hurt, so I'll Max Out My Defense. For an American take, you have the movie Ready Player One.

Point being, A-Min as Jayna has the same HUD concept where she'll get the action prompts (that only she can see) as if she were still simply playing the game instead of living through it. Very neat.

Panels from Episode 3 of Lock Me Up, Duke!
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Getting back into the plot, it seems that the emperor neglected to let Theo know of this arranged marriage. The emperor needed funds. Jayna's family had plenty to give to the empire, but only in exchange for nobility prestige. Both agreed that the arrangement would be mutually beneficial, but neither trusted the other and so they both decided to marry off their respective illegitimate children. Fun! Great parenting all around!

Due to Theo being blindsided by the arrangement, he offered to get it annulled. Not at all what Jayna wants! She tells him that she has nowhere else to go if he doesn't take her in. He again questions her resolve, reminding her of his reputation: "the notorious duke with 'evil blood'... Who shows no mercy to monsters or humans alike."

Going off-script, Jayna, knowing Theo via the game, knee-jerk responds with, "So what? Those are just rumors - I don't believe a word of it. People gossip about me all the time too, but none of it is true. I trust that you're a warm-hearted person."

That last line - I trust that you're a warm-hearted person - really struck a nerve and resonated with Theo. His whole life, he had been despised. While neither us readers nor Jayna (who was originally from our world) seems to see anything wrong with Theo's appearance, everyone born-and-raised within the fictional world A-Min has been isekai'd to (called Ellen) finds Theo (specifically, his silver eyes) revolting and unsettling. Which is why he typically wears a mask hiding his eyes and the upper half of his face. Add in how ruthless he has to be simply to survive in a place nicknamed "The Devil's Nest", and you can imagine how shunned and feared the poor guy has been his whole life. To now have this pretty girl forced to be your wife gladly taking on the role and saying she believes you're a "warm-hearted person"?

Well, naturally the guy is instantly smitten (although, he also fears that Jayna is a trap sent by the emperor, so he's cautious)!

Jayna is shown her room and.... it's practically empty, dusty, covered in cobwebs, and the limited furniture that is in there is far from well-maintained. She almost missed her dusty attic bedroom in comparison. Because of the dangers of where Theo lives, as well as how much the emperor hates him, Theo has virtually no servants. He doesn't have the funds to pay for them, and no one would want to live in such a dangerous area. Which explains why the castle has fallen to such disrepair.

Jayna sets to cleaning her room herself, and freaks out upon finding a spider. Without noticing that the spider is another of her game choice options, she screams. Theo runs back to check on her, and she instinctively hugs him out of fear. He then destroys the spider for her. It isn't until after Theo (over)killed the spider for her did Jayna remember that, in the game, Jayna would calmly and gently remove the spider from her room. Theo - in the game - would see video-game version of Jayna being sweet to the spider, and begin thinking more fondly of her. Mostly because she showed that she was "gentler and different from other women." A-Min's Jayna is now terrified that she ruined her chances by freaking out the way she did. Little does she know that she still proved herself "gentler and different" simply because she called him "warm-hearted" and she was willing to strip down to her undergarments in order to scrub her room herself with no complaint.

The problem, though, was that - again, due to his low budget - Theo has limited linens within his whole castle... and... Jayna threw away his only spares because they were gross and thread worn, and she didn't think they were worth the effort to try to salvage. Whoops!

Theo decided that their only solution is to have Jayna use his bed instead, and they'll sort out the bed sheets situation the next day.

And... that's more-or-less as far as the free episodes have gotten, with the exception of a bit more of Theo's backstory being revealed.

Also... fun note... while most other people will try to blend in as much as possible when they possess a character, A-Min is full-on herself. Complete with cursing like a sailor, which confuses poor Theo because he has never heard such words before. Love it. The main character in Her Wish to be Isekai'd does the same thing. Both women are hilarious for it. Never change!

Anyway, Lock Me Up, Duke! is another one that updates Tuesday nights in the US. So... My Tuesday nights are solid for reading. May even spill some of it over to Wednesday. Still doesn't help with my daily reads outside of Tuesday per se, though.

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This next one had me a bit wary, if I'm honest. The concept intrigued me, but the treatment of a neurodiverse-coded character left a foul taste in my mouth: At Your Mercy.

Getting transported into a novel once? Unusual. Twice? Welcome to Ji-an Han’s reality. Her second possession lands her in the body of a noble lady with an unfortunate reputation—the court fool. While still adjusting to this twist of fate, the enigmatic Crown Prince Iskan enters the scene with an unsettling proposition: "Take me as yours," he says, "I’ll become your most cherished possession." Between her reputation as a fool and a prince whose motives remain unclear, can Ji-an navigate this complicated new reality?

    - Official Webtoon Summary

First of all, the official summary is inaccurate. Iskan is the second imperial prince, and therefore a grand duke, not the crown prince. Still, you get the idea. He's the son of the emperor.

Secondly, I'm loving the artwork of this series. There's a lot of "pull your heartstrings" moments that the artwork really captures.

As for the characters? Well.... Iskan is awesome!

Yeeeaaah... much like The Fateful Invitation, I'm more invested in the story of the male lead than the actual protagonist. 

The actual protagonist can jump off a cliff.

See, Ji-an Han was isekai'd into a novel once before. She lived in the world of the Barkyan Empire before. Then, randomly, she was transported back to her original life on Earth. She lived her normal office-worker life for an undisclosed amount of time before getting isekai'd a SECOND time into the same novel. This time, as a new character.

Ji-an can't remember anything about her previous character possession, only that it happened and that it was definitely the same novel she was just re-isekai'd into. She also laments who she became this second time: "Delinda Schultz, the Foolish Noble Lady."

Aaaand this is when I almost put the series down. Ji-an recounts what limited information the novel provided of Delinda and the Schultz family.

House Schultz.

One of the great founding families of the Barkyan Empire, a noble house with deep historical roots. 

That was, until the birth of their only daughter Delinda Schultz marked the beginning of their decline.

The reason? Because the body I'm occupying was the Foolish Noble Lady! 

Until age six, she could barely string words together... and communicating her thoughts to others was a struggle. 

The Duke exhausted every possible treatment to help her function somewhat normally, but in the process, he nearly depleted the family fortune.

The scene then cuts to Ji-an in her South Korean bedroom, re-reading the novel and dismissing Duke Schultz's devotion for his daughter: "Tsk, tsk... a family falling to ruin because of their daughter..."

Like... oof! That's really gross, right? Add in later episodes where it's revealed that Delinda never learned to read (so, maybe dyslexic?) and had poor emotional intelligence. So, novel-version of Delinda was autistic and/or some other neurodivergent. Right? Suuuuuper gross how condescending Ji-an is of Delinda because of that (as opposed to Delinda being a "fool" because she's vacuous or vapid). A LOT of people in the comments called the story out on it. We all agreed, it would be one thing if the CHARACTERS from the novel all considered Delinda "a fool" because she wasn't neurotypical, but to have a modern-day representative such as Ji-an also think that way? Disgusting.

I had put this story away after reading that first episode. The dismissiveness towards Delinda just left too foul of a taste in my mouth.

However, nearly two months later, I still hadn't unsubscribed from the series. The whole "Ji-an got isekai'd twice into the same story as two different characters" hook still had me snagged. I kept reflecting back on that concept. 

Despite myself, I went back to this story a couple of weeks ago. Maybe the characters evolve past that prejudice against neurodivergent people.

Eeeeeh.... not really, but now I'm even MORE hooked by Iskan's story, and that of Delinda's father. 

Yes, there's still gross moments. Since Ji-an is neurotypical, when she possessed Delinda she didn't take on any of Delinda's mental struggles. She doesn't have the potential autism or dyslexia. She doesn't know what Delinda had to struggle with. She seems to have grown no sympathy for the poor character, which SUUUUCKS. Also, since Ji-an is neurotypical, her goal is to con people into thinking that Delinda "got better". 

She used an injury - to her shoulder, mind you - to convince the doctors that she was traumatized into her brain working properly????? Sure.

She's learned to read, and has asked for a tutor to learn "about society and culture... as well as history and philosophy." Her father is constantly praising her for her increased emotional intelligence as well, and tears up with joy and relief that all of the "cures" he's tried have finally worked.

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Again, the real hook, for me, is that duel-transmigration (the term they use in Korea instead of isekai) that Ji-an went through. As well as the mystery behind Iskan and his relation with Ji-an's previous vessel. I'm trying to push past the neurodivergence discrimination to get more on those story hooks instead.

Quick pause here to talk about how isekais typically work. This will be relevant in a moment.

You have four main ways to tell an isekai/transmigration/portal fantasy story.

First, you have the more "portal fantasy" style where the main character doesn't die. They just somehow get transported to this new world/reality. Stories like The Chronicles of Narnia or Peter Pan (wherein Wendy and her brothers are isekai'd to Neverland) or animes such as The Vision of Escaflowne or Digimon or Inuyasha. In these stories, the person gets sent both body and soul to this new world, and they (usually) have to find a way back to Earth/their reality.

Then there's the more popular version of an isekai in recent years: reincarnation.

The protagonist dies in the real world, but some benevolent or trickster god decides to reincarnate the protag in a new - usually fantasy - world. They are straight up reborn in this new reality. And therefore learn how that world works the same way any child would, thus avoiding suspicion that they aren't originally from that reality. As an added bonus, even as young children, these isekai'd reincarnations tend to retain all of their memories - and adult reasoning - from their previous life. Examples of this style of isekai would include animes such as The Saga of Tanya the Evil and So I'm a Spider, So What?

In a similar vein, there's stories like You Can't Kill Me or Leveling Up My Husband to the Max, where the protagonist gets sent back in time to re-inhabit their past self, but now with all the knowledge of the future life/lives they've lived. Classic time-loop style. The character doesn't have to learn anything about the world because they already learned it their first go at life.

Finally, you have the popular version for the stories I've been reading: Character Isekais, aka transmigrations. The protagonist knows a story, be it a novel, a webcomic, or a video game. The story in question may be their favorite; one they know by heart. Or it could be one that they just read, and so it's fresh in their mind. Or it could be one they were currently obsessively reading and maybe daydreaming about being a character within the story, even if they don't know how it ends. Either way, they die suddenly in the real world. Their spirit then possesses a character from the story previously established as significant to the protag. Surprise! The story world is now real, and the protag can affect how the plot plays out.

In this version, the protag keeps all memories from their previous life, including their knowledge of how the plot is supposed to play out. This helps them know the characters ahead of time, as well as the basic world-build of their new life. But only so much of any given character can be presented within the confines of a story. Because of this, when a "real world" person possesses a story character, any "behind the scenes" information about that character - things the character (now a fleshed out actual person) would know even if it wasn't presented in the original plot - tends to flood the protag's mind, quickly catching them up-to-date on the life of the person they now have to pretend to be. This way they don't cause suspicion when, say, they run into a person they should know, but that person was never given a name in the original story.

The way the "life download" worked in Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story was particularly good. Suna Choi gets overwhelmed by the new information about Edith that she wouldn't have known from the story alone. Then, less crucial bits of information - such as the dance styles for that world - are revealed to Suna as needed. 

Anyway, getting back to At Your Mercy, Ji-an doesn't get this character infodump. She only knows as much about Delinda as was revealed in the original story... which... wasn't much.... So Ji-an has to figure things out on the fly. Luckily, Delinda being categorized as a "fool" means no one bats an eye when Ji-an asks questions that someone her age should know the answers to already.

It's a weird twist to the classic transmigration/possession style of isekai: not gaining any new knowledge about the world or the character you inhabited. That, plus the mystery of who Ji-an was originally, how she returned to the real world, and why/how she was isekai'd a second time are all main reasons why I'm continuing with this story despite not liking the main character.

But also... the tall, brooding, emotionally wounded Iskan.

Delinda stumbles across him while he's finishing up an assassination assignment. His blade still covered in blood. She's understandably terrified, but Iskan's intrigued. There was a magical barrier up that should have hidden him and his violent work from civilians. How did she manage to literally stumble through it? He lets her leave, then follows her home to try to sus out who she is.

The next day, Iskan swoops in as a financial backer for an investment Duke Schultz is trying to buy into in order to restore his family's finances. This gives Iskan the perfect excuse to interact with Delinda more. She's understandably nervous, wondering if he was there because he changed his mind and decided to kill her after all.

He corners her, to try to talk to her more about what she saw and ask her about her power to pass through the barrier. This causes her to fall into one of Ji-an's nervous ticks. A nervous tick she clearly did in her previous transmigration as well. One that Iskan instantly recognizes.

It felt very Disney's Aladdin with Jasmine piecing together that Prince Ali is Aladdin between the "Do you trust me?" pose and how he tossed her an apple.

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Much like how Prince Ali asking Jasmine "Do you trust me?" raised a flag for her, the apple toss trick all-but confirmed he was Aladdin, and Jasmine officially confirmed who he was by asking him about Abu, Iskan went through the same journey.

First was a nervous tick that Delinda had when he cornered her. That was what raised the flag for him. He asked her, "Have we met before?" meaning her past life, but she thought he was referencing when she stumbled upon his assassination job.

Ji-an has allowed a few more of her personal mannerisms to temporarily bleed through into how she presents Delinda. The more Iskan spots those glimmers of Ji-an, the more he's reminded of her previous transmigration. He keeps asking Delinda, "Are you sure we've never met before?"

Her past life in Barkyan is slooooooowly returning to her, but she's desperate to keep that hidden. She learned that her previous vessel Ruyan was killed, and she fears that it was because they discovered her possession. Ji-an can't guarantee that Delinda dying will throw her back to the real world again, so she's fighting to keep her possession secret.

Especially when one of Ruyan's memories is of a crying Iskan telling her, "Then I'll be the one to kill you," followed by the memory of being choked to death. While Iskan seems kind and protective of Delinda, Ji-an is constantly wary of him, unsure if he plans to kill her in this life as he (presumably) did in the previous one.

Honestly, given how heartbroken Iskan looked in that memory, I'm assuming Ji-an grew tired of living in Barkyan, and discovered a way to return to Earth if Ruyan dies. She probably confided in Iskan, who couldn't stand to see his lover die. However, Old Yeller style, if she HAS to die, let it be by his hands so he can at least be there until the last moment with her. However, since Ji-an doesn't remember that much, it's understandable that she's misreading the situation.

That said... oof! For as much as Ji-an craps on Delinda being "a fool", Ji-an is the actual thick brick. I get that she's being cautious, but there's so many tells that Iskan means her no harm. In fact, her harm would cause him great grief. If Ji-an actually did have ANY semblance of emotional intelligence - for which Delinda is being praised for since Ji-an possessed her - Ji-an would notice how sorrowful Iskan is whenever she's being careless.

At one point, Delinda is up along her family castle's rampart. She has caught her betrothed - via arranged marriage - making out with her lady-in-waiting Rose. She gets distracted by Iskan approaching her, and she loses sight of the lovers. Delinda tried leaning forward over the wall to get a better look at where they could have gone, but poor traumatized Iskan gets a flashback to Ruyan falling from a ledge. (I personally suspect that Iskan caught Ruyan trying to commit suicide and that's why he offered to kill her instead) Anyway, Iskan instantly grabs hold of Delinda and pulls her back from the wall. We then get these closing panels.

Final panels from Episode 10 of At Your Mercy
by Team Lightsalt and Team honeybread

Like... COME ON! He yells things like THAT at you, and you see this mournful, heartbroken look in your memories...

Final panels from Episode 11 of At Your Mercy
by Team Lightsalt and Team honeybread

...and you still think he has ill will towards you?

Also, as I alluded to above, Ji-an (as Delinda) heard of mysterious cases of other people in the empire injuring themselves and it completely changing their personality. Thinking this is her best bet to hide suspicion about Delinda suddenly acting different, she tries numerous times to hit her head (at this point she assumes, as a possessed character, that she can't be hurt/killed). No matter where she goes or how outlandish her plot is to hurt herself, Iskan is right there to stop her, save her, and/or protect her (much to Delinda/Ji-an's dismay).

Like... COME. ON! And yet Ji-an thinks DELINDA is the simple-minded one? Please!

Sooooooo yeah. Delinda/Ji-an is an annoying lowkey-condescending jerk parading around as the charming protagonist in a very similar vein as Hillaria from A Fateful Inventation. But the male lead is a sweetheart that I want to learn more about, and the mystery has drawn me in. So, we'll see how long I can stomach this story.

Not many free episodes out, so I again caught up in more-or-less one sitting. Another to add to the Sunday Update pile, at least. So... that's cool.

Let's try that long Subscription list one more time. What else can I add to my overall reading so I can get about an hour in nightly?

This time, I pulled A Savage Proposal.

When the ruthless Lord Tiwakan seizes the kingdom of Nauk, Princess Liene Arsac faces an impossible choice: marry her captor or watch her homeland crumble. But Lord Tiwakan isn’t just after power; he desires Liene, and his devotion stirs a mix of fear and undeniable attraction within her. With her former betrothed, Lafitte, still missing, Liene must decide whether to trust Tiwakan's promises or hold out hope for a rescue. As dangerous secrets come to light, Liene’s decision could change the fate of Nauk—and her own heart—forever.

    - Official Webtoon Summary

This one has an interesting, while problematic, concept. A coerced arranged marriage. Troubling, to be sure, especially when presented as the main romance. However, tales of women becoming wives as spoils of war are not new. Marriages being arranged as part of peace treaties is also not a new concept. Even so, I think the author is taking pains to show how rocky this marriage will be since the foundation is that of a coerced arrangement, and how the male lead is trying to make things right.

For instance, every time Lord Tiwakan (we have no clue what his given name is yet) is kind and gentle to Liene, and she starts to soften for him, she reminds herself why she's betrothed to him in the first place. She's mad at him, dammit! He set siege to the already dying kingdom of Nauk! He cut them off from supplies for two weeks, while slaughtering any knights her kingdom sent out to push back the invading barbarians. Just a single fortnight, and her people were already starting to starve. They could MAYBE last another month holding out for reinforcements, but how many would starve to death in the meantime? How many more families will lose sons/fathers/brothers as more knights are easily dispatched? Could any form of reinforcement even save them, or is it just delaying the inevitable? 

No. She had no choice in the matter. Nauk was no match for the Tiwakan army. No reinforcements were coming to rescue them. If she were the only cost to save her people, she'd easily pay that price. She wouldn't be happy about the end result, though. No matter how gentle and protective and handsome Lord Tiwakan was, she would not soften for him! Begone, lustful and nurturing thoughts!

Meanwhile, as Liene is struggling against her growing affections for Lord Tiwakan, you see how horrid the nobility of Nauk actually are. You understand why the kingdom was dying to begin with if these are the people at the helm. You see how dismissive and cruel they are to Liene - their sovereign! - compared to how compassionate and encouraging the Tiwakan are towards her. So, as she does start to soften for her attackers, you understand why, and don't necessarily hate it.   

For instance, we are introduced to Liene at the tail end of the siege of Nauk. She is an orphaned princess, the only remaining royal within that kingdom (presumably; we don't know what happened to Liene's mother). Why, if Liene is the last surviving royal, is she still a princess? Why is she not the queen? Given how backwards everything seems to be with Nauk nobility, maybe there can only be a king for the KINGdom of Nauk, and therefore, despite being a blood heir, Liene, at best, could become the queen consort. Sooo, she's still just Princess Liene when we meet her despite apparently being the reigning sovereign. 

She is at her wit's end. She cannot find a way to break the siege without aid from neighboring kingdoms, but everyone is too afraid of the Tiwakan army to intervene. Her council reminds her that her betrothed Sir Lafitte Kleinfelter has ridden out with a platoon of his family's personal knights in an attempt to get reinforcements. She rebuts that Lafitte promised to be back in 10 days, and that deadline has come-and-gone. Despite Lafitte swearing that he cherishes Liene more than his own life, she cannot rely on him bringing reinforcements. Something must have happened to prevent or delay his return. She has stalled as long as she could. She is begrudgingly accepting Lord Tiwakan's proposal in order to make peace NOW and try to end the suffering of her people.

Instead of acknowledging this sacrifice for her people, her council berate her about it! The nobility of Nauk now claim Liene is a naive, inexperienced coward who was never fit to rule. That she's a traitor selling out her own people to heathen barbarians. She has betrayed her beloved Lafitte; not having any faith in him. They talk over her, and try to plot and plan a way to betray Lord Tiwakan, threatening the peace Liene is trying to broker with her betrothal. It's so frustrating watching her being undermined by people who are supposed to be her subordinates.

Hits a bit close to home, am I right, fellow fem peeps?

Upon meeting with Lord Tiwakan to accept his proposal, Liene hears a commotion. A battle! Lafitte and his reinforcements were able to arrive in time after all! Huzzah!

That is, until a blood-splattered Lord Tiwakan enters the tent Liene is waiting in, and presents Lafitte's sword to her. He's not coming to rescue her. The reinforcements have been dealt with.

Again seeing no other option, she tries one last gambit. Lord Tiwakan made it clear that he knew the owner of that sword was Liene's betrothed. Liene bluffs, claiming that she and Lafitte had already slept together prior to their marriage, and she is carrying his child. She then declares that any children she might have with Lord Tiwakan will be further down the succession line than Lafitte's child, and Liene will defend this child with her very life. Lord Tiwakan's bloodline will never become the rulers of Nauk, so if that's what he wants he might as well withdrawal his proposal. 

Liene isn't expecting Lord Tiwakan to agree to those terms. He will allow Liene to carry Lafitte's child to term, bear him, raise him in safety, and groom him to become Nauk's next ruler. Now that that's out of the way, does she agree to marry him?

Shocked and unsure how else to get Lord Tiwakan to withdrawal both his proposal and his troops, Liene submits. Now she has two new things to worry about. For one, she has to figure out how long she can milk the fake-pregnancy before faking a miscarriage to avoid being found out. Either that, or get Lord Tiwakan to impregnate her soon enough that she can pass his child off as Lafitte's. Which brings her to problem number two: Tiwakan now believes she's not a virgin, so she has to hide any pain she has when she does lose her virginity, and she has to act as if she knows what she's doing while having sex.

Understandably stressed beyond measure, Liene carved into the palm of her hand with her thumbnail via a repetitive nervous twitch during the marriage negotiations. Lord Tiwakan notices the wound, points it out to Liene, tells her to put ointment on it to make sure she fully recovers, and then tenderly kisses her wound. This is the first show of compassion and gentleness we see from Lord Tiwakan, and it confuses the heck out of Liene.

Now the nobility of Nauk and all of Liene's handmaidens believe she is pregnant, and try to use it as further proof that she can't submit to Lord Tiwakan. How could she forsake Lafitte like that? Especially when, upon Lord Tiwakan graciously returning the bodies of Nauk's fallen, Liene discovers the body believed to be Lafitte isn't actually him. Lafitte is probably still secretly alive! Maybe he's planning to mount a surprise rescue! She has to have faith in her former betrothed!

Problem THERE, however, is that, while walking the gardens with Lord Tiwakan, a hidden Lafitte shot an arrow at them. Here are some panels from that scene. 

Final panels from Episode 3 of A Savage Proposal
by Lee yuna and team IRUKA

Given that Lord Tiwakan tucks Liene in front of him so he can shield her, a lot of readers are wondering if (a) Lord Tiwakan was just overly cautious and Liene would have been fine, (b) Lafitte is a bad shot and Lord Tiwakan knew that the arrow would miss him and hit Liene instead, (c) Lafitte was aiming at Liene under the guise of trying to assassinate Lord Tiwakan once the barbarian leader was hit instead, or (d) that arrow was perfectly aimed at Lord Tiwakan (given that he had to pull Liene back in order to pivot her properly to shield her) and Tiwakan is using his shielding of Liene as a way to earn sympathy points. 

Regardless, to try to appease the Tiwakans, Liene makes sure that Lord Tiwakan is well cared for and bandaged up. When the lord begins to have a fever due to his body trying to heal the wound, Liene reluctantly offers to sponge his sweat away. To which, Lord Tiwakan gently teases her and asks how long his bride must find him repulsive. 

The two have a conversation, resulting in Liene willingly participating in a fairly hot make-out session. One that the lord pulls away from first, noting that he's unsure what he'd do in his fevered state, and so they should probably stop. It's then that Liene realizes that maybe she didn't want them to stop... only to berate herself because OF COURSE she should want them to stop! She shouldn't find Lord Tiwakan attractive and alluring!

She then reflects on how Lord Tiwakan waved off the arrow shot into his shoulder as if it were just an inconvenience. Reminded me of someone having their menstrual cycle: "Yeah, this is annoying and I'll feel like crap and it hurts and I may get a low-grade fever, but just give me a few days and I'll be right as rain again. No worries." Liene then compared that to when Lafitte had scratched up his arm on a branch while horseback riding. He whined about how much pain he was in and clung to Liene's hand, rubbing his face against her sleeve while he was being bandaged up. She equated it to a small child dealing with pain. Here's her thought bubbles from that flashback:

Time sure is flying by quickly...
How long do I have to be here?
His wound doesn't even seem that big.
There's so much to be done...
When will he let go of my hand?
I wanted to tell him so many times to let me go.

Clearly, even with her original suitor, it was an arranged marriage that Liene wasn't emotionally invested in. Lafitte may have been devoted to her, but it certainly wasn't the other way around. Aside from potentially losing an ally, there was little love lost when Liene believed that Lafitte was dead.

It then gets worse. While trying to discretely inform Lafitte to go into exile, and warn his uncle Grand Chancellor Lyndon to do nothing to prevent Liene's marriage to Lord Tiwakan, we see how deranged both men are. They are dismissive and abusive and clearly think of Liene as little more than an object to either use politically or keep as a trophy. 

The readers quickly realize that Liene dodged a MAJOR bullet now that she's forced to not marry Lafitte, especially after seeing - even when Liene isn't in the room - how warm and caring Lord Tiwakan is with regards to her. 

Really makes us question why he bothered with the siege at all instead of simply attempting to woo her away from Lafitte. Did he know that the nobles would stop Liene if she wasn't backed into a corner? (I mean, they tried to stop her even THEN soooooo)

I'm quite curious to see where this story goes. However, just as with the others, I again caught up with the weekly releases fairly quickly. At least I have my third Sunday Night Update story, right?

So.... I failed at my original goal to find more Daily Unlock stories that I could add to my reading rotation in order to lengthen my nightly reads. However, I DID add to a few more of my weekday reads, so each day should have close to an hour's worth of reading regardless now. Especially Tuesdays! I just need to bulk up the back half of the week, and find something for Wednesdays....

Which means my weekly reading schedule now looks like this:

• Sunday:
• You Can't Kill Me: The Secret Bride of the Black Wolf
• At Your Mercy
• A Savage Proposal
• Daily Pass Unlocks:
• Divorcing My Tyrant Husband
• I Abdicate My Title of Empress
• And I still have Lore Olympus to finish if I get back into the mood for that one...
• The Comikey Trio of stories I've abandoned but maybe I should pick them back up:
• Double the Trouble, Twice as Nice
• The Lady Likes a Nerd over Princes
• My Housemate Sano-kun Is Just My Editor!
• Monday:
• Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story
• Seabird and the Wolf
• My Husband Changes Every Night
• Daily Pass Unlocks:
• Divorcing My Tyrant Husband
• I Abdicate My Title of Empress
• Maybe Lore Olympus again
• Any of the Comikey Trio listed above
• Tuesday:
• I Will Live the Life of a Villainess
• The Dragon King's Bride
• Office Romance from Hell
• Lock Me Up, Duke!
• (Rental Hero is currently on hiatus)
• Daily Pass Unlocks:
• Divorcing My Tyrant Husband
• I Abdicate My Title of Empress
• Lore Olympus?
• Comikey Trio
• Wednesday:
• The only day I have left that has no new updates to wait for weekly
• Daily Pass Unlocks only:
• Divorcing My Tyrant Husband
• I Abdicate My Title of Empress
• Lore Olympus?
• Catch up on any missed episodes thus far that week
• Comikey Trio
• Thursday:
• The Age of Arrogance
• I'm still trying to build up a backlog of Maybe Meant to Be, but I might finally start reading that again come March
• Daily Pass Unlocks:
• Divorcing My Tyrant Husband
• I Abdicate My Title of Empress
• Lore Olympus?
• Comikey Trio
• Friday:
• The Fateful Invitation
• My Child Will Have a Different Father
• Still haven't gotten back into ATLA: The Promise, but that's always an option
• Daily Pass Unlocks:
• Divorcing My Tyrant Husband
• I Abdicate My Title of Empress
• Lore Olympus?
• Comikey Trio
• Saturday:
• Obsidian Bride
• Daily Pass Unlocks:
• Divorcing My Tyrant Husband
• I Abdicate My Title of Empress
• Lore Olympus?
• Comikey Trio

On top of that list, I can also sprinkle in the Webtoon Canvas stories as they are uploaded. These are very scarely updated though, so I rarely know when I get the next installment. And Punderworld is the only one that gives significant story chunks when it updates. The others are pretty short reads. As I've previously mentioned, The Prince's Private Servant in particular usually only takes a few seconds to read each time....

• The Prince's Private Servant
• Her Wish to be Isekai'd
• Punderworld
• There's also still Growing Up Gerudo that I can get back into

Let's see how long this reading list satiates me before I dive back into that long subscription list and I add more to my reading schedule. Here's hoping for something other than those two daily pass reads on Wednesdays.

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Catch you all at the end of the month for my writing update! Take care!